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She was, and still is one of the most beautiful women I've ever known. Deep dark eyes, slight build, lovely hair, heart shaped face. The works. We shared a lot of interests, and we talked constantly. The relationship was very puppy love in the beginning, ofc, but we stayed friends for a couple years afterwards, and by the end of it I had fallen horribly deep in unrequited love. We stopped contacting each other not too long after I convinced her to apply for community college.
We kind of mutually initiated, and she ended our romance. Our relationship became much deeper the longer we remained friends, but I was honestly not the best friend I could have been because I wanted her to return my affection do badly. I became pretty disgusted with myself and started cutting myself for a while. All said, though, it was a very solid relationship and she told me everything about her other relationships. The guy she dumped me for turned out to be a total tool (go figure), but she couldn't stand to dump him for about two or three years.
Yes, I'm still a virgin; she's the only one I've ever bothered with and the only one I've ever kissed.
Mentally, I'm still not fully mature, and I'm still self conscious about how badly I made my last relationship turn out. I believe I'm still too selfish and focused on myself and my future to be able to afford the time and attention to another human being, and I'm still coming to terms with my bisexuality.
Yes, I'm circumcised. I think circumcision is a terrible idea.
I smoked a little bit of a joint once, but I felt no different, and I honestly have no interest in trying it again.