I'm just so...tired...

[Firus]

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I don't just mean in the physical sense. I mean this in the sense of a full-body feeling that engulfs me entirely.

Everything I think about wears me out, mentally and physically.

It's not because of a lack of sleep. I got to bed at a pretty decent time last night, I didn't wake up exceptionally early, and then I took a 3-hour-long nap because I felt miserable.

I'm sick and tired of everything.

I have tons of games, consoles, and accessories. But I tire at the thought of doing anything with any of them, especially anything with my Wii since it's not hooked up at the moment.

I think of all of the work I should be doing, and I think of all the work I'm going to have to come for the rest of my life, and that makes me want to sleep just to forget it exists.

I've gotten sick of lurking over this forum because it seems every time I do something irks me to the point of closing out the browser. Like the stupidity and spam-fulness of this forum and how even the moderators are apparently contributing to it without a care.

I'm tired just thinking about all of the stupid people that could be thinking/saying things after I post this blog, like two people who would probably tell me I take offense too easily, a few people who told me my last blog was boring and would probably say the same to this one, any number of morons who may comment with just "Cool story bro" (or the even larger number who will probably put it in and strike it out as a joke which is almost as annoying).

I'm tired of being judged. I'm tired of being stereotyped. I'm tired of society. I'm tired of ranting about how much I hate society.

God, I'm so tired of everything.

/boring rant

 

[Clownbot]

A lot of people are tired.

A LOT of people are tired...

No, seriously, a lot of people are sick of things that are going on in here. That's why Serris made the cesspool blog, that's why there are social groups committed to making SWF a better place.

But like it's been said before, there will always be stupidity in society. And no matter how hard we try, even if we eliminate a plethora of it, we'll only get so much done. We can't stop people from acting like morons. There will always be people like that.

 

[Firus]

Unfortunately, the social group that I'm in committed to making SWF a better place has done little to none.

There's only so much a select group of regular members can do.

And unfortunately, it isn't just SmashBoards, it's everything.

 

[Xivii]

Take a vacation =O
Bake a cake =D
Or do as I am and go deep into the solitude of nature~ ^.^

 

[Teran]

Take a nap.

I don't know though, take a walk out in a park or something, always helps. Fresh air and nature.

 

[Ishiey]

I used to have this problem, but it got a bit better (somehow). The boards really are going downhill though...

I have so much work to do all the time, but I just sleep. It's almost as if I don't see a point in caring anymore. Everything is just wrong, to the point where trying anything seems to be a waste of time. Is it kinda like that with you?

 

[Jam Stunna]

Dude, you need to put this whole SWF thing into perspective. People come here to have fun, it's a diversion. If SWF is making you upset, then you need to step back and stop coming here for a while.

Nothing ever changed by someone complaining about and, and let's face it, not many more things have changed by people trying to "do something" about it. If this isn't the place it used to be for you anymore, then it's time for you to move on. Trying to bring it back to the good old days (however you define that) isn't going to work, and in the end you're only going to experience more of the frustration that you're expressing now.

I'm not telling you to leave, but I am asking you to relax, for your own sake. You elect to come here, so enjoy it. If you're not enjoying yourself, why are you here? That goes for everything else you said in your post too: either learn to deal with the things that upset you, or get away from them. Those are really your only options.

 

[momochuu]

Err...take a break? You don't have to come here every day. =X

 

[urdailywater]

Do you have a local mall or anything? Maybe a movie theater.

Go there or something, take a couple of breaks and see a movie or browse your local stores for clothes or electronics or whatever. It's what I think about doing whenever I get tired. (Though I sometimes don't have a chance to do it..)

 

[UltiMario]

I've had those feelings before. Man......

Whenever you try to do anything, it feels terrible. When you try and disract yourself from the terrible feelings, it makes it worse. You don't want to get up and do anything. The easiest thing that can be done without driving yourself insane is just sitting in bed.

You can't make it better, you just have to wait it out, the feelings just end up going away after a while. I know, it really sucks, but its all you can do.

 

[finalark]

It sounds like repetition is setting in, as in "it feels like every day is the same." Here's my two cents on this, just go for a drive. Just go around the city/town/ect. that you live in and do something fun. Get some ice cream, go bowling, just do something that you enjoy but don't normally do. Whenever I get the feeling of being tired of everything, that always works.

 

[Red Arremer]

It sounds like repetition is setting in, as in "it feels like every day is the same." Here's my two cents on this, just go for a drive. Just go around the city/town/ect. that you live in and do something fun. Get some ice cream, go bowling, just do something that you enjoy but don't normally do. Whenever I get the feeling of being tired of everything, that always works.

This. So much this.

You could also try to rearrange the furniture in your room/appartment. Sounds stupid, but sometimes just some small change like that and you'll feel better.

 

[Firus]

I used to have this problem, but it got a bit better (somehow). The boards really are going downhill though...

I have so much work to do all the time, but I just sleep. It's almost as if I don't see a point in caring anymore. Everything is just wrong, to the point where trying anything seems to be a waste of time. Is it kinda like that with you?

Yes, this is exactly how I feel.

I've had those feelings before. Man......

Whenever you try to do anything, it feels terrible. When you try and disract yourself from the terrible feelings, it makes it worse. You don't want to get up and do anything. The easiest thing that can be done without driving yourself insane is just sitting in bed.

You can't make it better, you just have to wait it out, the feelings just end up going away after a while. I know, it really sucks, but its all you can do.

And this is exactly how I felt.

It seems to have cleared up now, thanks for the advice everyone. It wasn't ever all SWF, SWF was really just half of what kicked it off last night shortly before I went to bed and things didn't change once I woke up, but Jam, you made a good point.

I probably won't be coming here as often anymore, because it does tend to annoy me. I think the problem is that I visit just about every time I open up Firefox since SmashBoards is my homepage. I just need to find something else to make my homepage.

In the end, I just sat down with my lunch and watched The Breakfast Club, and now I feel much better.

 

[Red Arremer]

I just need to find something else to make my homepage.

Google is extremely good for that. =)

 

[Firus]

Yeah, I may have to stick with Google, 'cause I can't think of something else to make my homepage despite having a fair number of websites that I visit regularly.

Or maybe I should make one of the webcomics I (sort of) read my homepage since I keep forgetting to check it. Yeah, I'll probably do that.

 

[Jim Morrison]

Why would anything other than Google be your homepage?
Or get Google Chrome.

 

[Fatmanonice]

Wow... from the sounds of things this place is making you depressed. The way you described how you feel is almost exactly how I felt at the beginning of this year when some anti-depressants I was taking heavily backfired and made me border-line suicidal. I was sick and tired of everything and it literally hurt to get up in the morning. I felt drained and just about everything annoyed me including simply talking to people. If you think you might be depressed, GET HELP! I dealt with depression for nearly 12 years because my parents insisted that I had nothing to be depressed about and was over reacting. Their generation didn't believe in depression and they tried to pass those beliefs onto me. It's a chemical thing, trust me. When the chemicals in your body are thrown out of whack, so are you and affects how you react to everything.

 

[Ishiey]

^ FMOI is always correct.

If feelings like this continue for a decent period of time, definitely check online for depression symptoms. If it's close enough to what you've been experiencing, go get checked out by a professional to make sure. Not saying that you are depressed or not, but it's a good idea to check just in case. I've heard B12 helps, so if you don't want "meds" you can always find the right vitamins to make things better. Works for my mom.

And honestly, if you really do feel the way I described consistently/often, it would probably be in your best interest to research depression in the near future.

Also, an idea for a homepage. For webcomics, make the "random comic" link your homepage, might keep your interest a bit longer if they don't update fast enough.

 

[RyuReiatsu]

That's exactly what happened to me during the whole scholar year. I was tired of everything. Hence why I failed maths and passed on my butt for the rest (60% borderline ****). I'd say, listen to Fatmanonice. (I always had 80+ before, studied hard all the time, etc.)

Otherwise, try chilling out with friends and stuffs. Sometimes, it helps you lighten up for a day or two. Go on vacations, etc etc. Just do something that ain't part of your routine. It's kinda hard to take initiative, but I realized I had wasted 8 months of my life depressing alone. Which is why I decided to call everybody and go out. It helped me 3 weeks, now I don't feel like going out anymore.

I've started learning animation 2 days ago, it helped me not thinking about it. It's not something you normally would do, as I know how you feel. You're too tired to even try... Just do something that ain't part of your routine and if it doesn't help, do as FMOI said.

 

[Firus]

Why would anything other than Google be your homepage?
Or get Google Chrome.

Google is kind of generic and if I want to search anything, I can just use the handy Google search bar built-into Firefox.

Wow... from the sounds of things this place is making you depressed. The way you described how you feel is almost exactly how I felt at the beginning of this year when some anti-depressants I was taking heavily backfired and made me border-line suicidal. I was sick and tired of everything and it literally hurt to get up in the morning. I felt drained and just about everything annoyed me including simply talking to people. If you think you might be depressed, GET HELP! I dealt with depression for nearly 12 years because my parents insisted that I had nothing to be depressed about and was over reacting. Their generation didn't believe in depression and they tried to pass those beliefs onto me. It's a chemical thing, trust me. When the chemicals in your body are thrown out of whack, so are you and affects how you react to everything.

I don't THINK it's that serious, this is the only time I've ever felt quite like that. I've felt similar before in the sense that I was just bored of things and there was nothing that I wanted to do. But it wasn't such a tired, angry feeling.

I never actually considered that...you have a good point, and I thank you for the advice. I'll try to keep that in mind, if this keeps up I'll definitely do something about it.

^ FMOI is always correct.

If feelings like this continue for a decent period of time, definitely check online for depression symptoms. If it's close enough to what you've been experiencing, go get checked out by a professional to make sure. Not saying that you are depressed or not, but it's a good idea to check just in case. I've heard B12 helps, so if you don't want "meds" you can always find the right vitamins to make things better. Works for my mom.

And honestly, if you really do feel the way I described consistently/often, it would probably be in your best interest to research depression in the near future.

Yeah, it would be...preferable if I didn't have to take medication, assuming this develops into a larger problem. I'll definitely keep an eye on it and try to take some vitamins.

Also, an idea for a homepage. For webcomics, make the "random comic" link your homepage, might keep your interest a bit longer if they don't update fast enough.

Hm, yeah, that's an interesting idea. Fortunately, though, the webcomic is one of the like, 5 webcomics that has a decently regular updating schedule (every Monday, Wednesday, Friday) and only doesn't abide by it when something absolutely conflicts. (The webcomic is Pebble Version, if anyone cares.)

Otherwise, try chilling out with friends and stuffs. Sometimes, it helps you lighten up for a day or two. Go on vacations, etc etc. Just do something that ain't part of your routine. It's kinda hard to take initiative, but I realized I had wasted 8 months of my life depressing alone. Which is why I decided to call everybody and go out. It helped me 3 weeks, now I don't feel like going out anymore.

Ironically, I was actually hanging out with my friends last night. Usually I enjoy hanging out with them but they did get on my nerves a little last night, which was kind of what started the whole thing off.

I think I tend to enjoy hanging out with friends more when it's just one of them at a time, I'm not really sure why.

 

[Deleted member]

Sorry dude, I have no advice for you other than taking a break from the site for a bit. Hope you feel better.

 

[RyuReiatsu]

I think I tend to enjoy hanging out with friends more when it's just one of them at a time, I'm not really sure why.

Guess we're stuck at the same point then.
I've declined a lot of offers to hang out recently, 'cause I thought it was annoying to have 'em all.

Good luck man...

 

[Mardyke]

There's only one thing I can think of to do when you're tired - relax.

When you're physically tired, you go to sleep. When you're mentally tired, you take a step back and try to focus on what actually matters, not what you think matters. Confidence, patience and the like do wonders for the mind. If this fatigue extends to intolerance, then either make peace with what ails you or step back from it until you can.

Rest well.

 

[Fatmanonice]

Have your sleeping patterns changed at all? Sometimes that can be the cause of shifts in personality too.

Really, the reason I mentioned my depression is because from the time I was 9 to about a month after I turned 21, I suffered from periods of moderate depression with maybe 2 times out of the year where I felt suicidal. This continued on until last fall when I finally went away to college (I when to a community college for 3 semesters and studied in England for one). The stressed rolled in and it just about pushed me over the edge to the point where I actually considered throwing myself in front of cars while walking to school. I don't know you in real life but, from one human being to another, I hope you never feel like this and hope that this is just an episode instead of a long running thing that slipped under the radar.

 

[Chaco]

Well, I can relate kinda. Lemme ask you this. Are you one to share problems? Or keep them with you until you feel like your about to break?

 

[PhoenixoKaZe]

I kinda feel the same way, even nao, yet I decide to lose most of it, cause it was unhealthy, I always tend to stay up till midnight or even past that haha. I guess either a break or someone who listens to u and can trust, then u can talk about problems like most ppl said here, it helps
xD ^^

 

[psiosman]

oh no my Internet Community

edit: what i'm trying to say here is get a job or maybe a hobby

 

[Ishiey]

oh no my Internet Community

edit: what i'm trying to say here is get a job or maybe a hobby

You kinda missed the point that this isn't just smashboards. Good job.

Pebble version is good stuff. And maybe you like your friends one at a time because of how people act differently when in a group? Idk, it happens with my friends too, hanging out as a clique or whatever makes everyone in it look bad because of 'trying to fit in' or something like that.

I hope things pick up for you soon, Firus.

 

[Firus]

oh no my Internet Community

edit: what i'm trying to say here is get a job or maybe a hobby

I could say the same to you since you came in needlessly flaming my blog, when I've ALREADY SAID THAT I FEEL BETTER. And that happened oh, what, a little less than 36 hours ago?

I decided to end my blog earlier because of how repetitive it already was. If you want me to rant on about EVERY SINGLE THING that I was tired of the moment, by all means, say the word.

Also. I have hobbies, and I have a job. So learn moar and troll less.

You kinda missed the point that this isn't just smashboards. Good job.

Pebble version is good stuff. And maybe you like your friends one at a time because of how people act differently when in a group? Idk, it happens with my friends too, hanging out as a clique or whatever makes everyone in it look bad because of 'trying to fit in' or something like that.

I hope things pick up for you soon, Firus.

Yeah, Pebble Version is awesome.

I think it probably is the way my friends act in a group, and possibly because we have a lot of inside jokes but not all of us know them as well, or I make a reference that only one or a few of them will understand (e.g. I got hit by one of my friends because I said that Pokemon is better than sex [which it is =P] when it was just a reference to one of my "Favorite Quotes" on here that I had showed one of my friends earlier that day). Also, two of them felt the need to tell me repeatedly that I sucked at Super Mario Sunshine while I was playing it.

I'm not sure what it is, but I know that I enjoy talking/hanging out with each of them individually. Things tend to be more inane and annoying when we're in a group.

*shrug*

Thanks for the well-wishes.