legitimate problem with my game that i don't know how to fix on my own.
my mindset is tearing my playstyle apart. after every tournament, i look back on what i did wrong and what i need to work on along with a bunch of practice on those certain things. but then when the next tournament comes around, for some reason i completely forget everything and i just autoplay the entire tournament without realizing it until the end.
on saturday i got 9th at a 70 man monthly because i was purposefully reacting to my opponents movement and habits and i felt really good about it. today i got ****ed by 2 campy spacies and got 5th at a 20 man local and now i feel like ****, as if my performance on saturday meant nothing. i dont know how to ACTIVELY use my brain when i play sometimes, does that sound stupid?
like for instance,
Empty sh perfect wL ftilt/jab/grab
Lower plat wL ff perfect wL
Empty sh wL away (into immediate dd)
Pressure him without leaving yourself obviously open
Ban DL (or FD)
i thought about all of this saturday night because a similar situation happened, and i went and practiced it all. but i just DONT DO IT in tournament. every set at a tournament i get nervous and i just blank out, i really don't know why. kinda venting due to frustration from the feeling like i'm not progressing at the rate that i want to, but if anyone can help me on how to improve my mentality i'd appreciate it.