Hello PP, wanted to come on here to ask you less of a Marth or even melee specific question but more of a mindset question. Sorry if it’s a bit ramble-y and long. First off I got into the game the weekend of Apex 2015 and your run was the first tournament I saw so even messaging in a thread with you is like a childhood dream come true. I digress, over the past few years a few big mental roadblocks have been piling up those being lack of confidence, fear of commitment and laziness.
First confidence, my pals really helped me notice this one recently the main thing they told me was before every game of League I would say “well time to lose this lane” or “guys I’m gonna int” and once they brought this up I looked back and realize I don’t believe in myself in nearly everything I do. I self deprecate, belittle and never truly believe in myself in anything be that my uni classes, smash or general social stuff.
Next is lack of commitment. This has been an issue for me since I picked up a GCN controller in 2015, I don’t stick to a character for very long. I always chalked it up to me getting bored or losing interest but I now believe it’s my lack of confidence coupled with not wanting to be perceived as “bad”. I think this because if I don’t have a main then I can use excuses like “oh I’m new to ___” or “well I’m doing bad time to pick up __”. Then comes the fact I don’t want to be perceived as bad, this stems from I believe the lack of confidence and caring to much of what others think of me.
Finally my laziness. I’ve always been a lazy person when it comes to almost everything. I like the simple things and don’t do to well when the going gets tough. How this effects me in school or melee is I see a tough problem and instead of doing the hard thing and finding a solution I decide to ignore it and do something else that’s more enjoyable in the short term (like unranked sessions for example). All these 3 roadblock have come together to stagnate my play and views on the game
Sorry for the long winded comment. Glad I was even able to get my thoughts on the proverbial paper.
Thanks,
Jackson