I really don't like that you're making nes noob out to be some kind of superbeing or w/e. That kind of defeats the entire purpose of what made him so great. He was just a fun guy with a lot of drive. When I first played him and wanted to get better that's what he explained to me. That he was in my exact position not too long ago. He said that he never expected to get as good as he did, he just knew he wanted to get better. So he worked at it and after a while ended up getting super good.
but on the subject of getting better
I think there's a misunderstanding you have about "just wanting it". You can't "just want it" and leave it at that and expect to get better, but getting better will always start with a drive to improve. What we really mean to say is you have to start by finding that drive and the rest will fall into place. If you have the drive to improve then you'll start taking the steps to improvement. If you start taking steps towards improvement, you'll inevitably get better (rate of improvement not being addressed here).
Like that one guy said, you make a small goal towards something you want to get better at, then you work at it. repeat ad infinitum
MC - You talk about how you don't have any drive but you want to have drive... I don't really get that
Having drive to improve is a completely arbitrary decision. Literally all you do is say "Okay, I actually want to improve now so I'm going to start taking steps"
You either want to or you don't, pretty much that simple. There's no such thing as middle ground in wanting something. Saying you want something but don't want to put in effort for it is the same thing as saying you don't actually want something.
So when you think of things you want, just go for it. Make that decision. Say you want it and start meaning it.