Sucumbio

Its super old. A true antique, however, my parents are all excited about getting the entire thing restored, from hiring a tunner, to finishing the wood. Most importantly, the real ivory keys are all intact, unharmed. The previous owner had inherited the house from her parents and for 60 years never touched it. She died, and it got passed along, and now we're buying it as they are in the middle of restoring the entire house as it hasn't been entered by a single person in over half a century. The house is so old it even has a Hex sign on the front door. I feel like I'm in the movie Totoro.

Did you ever watch Waking Life by the way?

the house we're moving into has a full grand piaon o_O lucky me.

I'm not sure. I believe my parents want to buy it for me, instead of it coming out of my pocket, mostly because they are ever weary of buying anything off the internet, no matter how much I insure them its safe. Other wise I'd be buying that one you sent me
I'll tell you though, its a little disheartening. My instrument that I've loved has always been the cello, and with a deep unbridaled passion, but the oppurtunity has always alluded me. The year I asked my father one for chrismas, he saw School of Rock and thus bought me a bass guitar instead, him not knowing they were actually completely different. Now I am without an ensamble to practice with, and can not risk my musical pursuits on the cello alone, so I take the neccissary route that I have long pushed off and will be learning the piano. I have no problem with the piano, I can listen to Philip Glass and Debussy all day, but my love for the cello will forever be absolute.

Nah, I'm still with my family. Things turned around a great bit, we all left the *** whole of an ex-friend who ****ed us (and his own brother) over. We quit on the same day with 0 notice, leaving him short to district manager, and lacking his best server in a restaurant that was just starting to turn around. We have more money, and northern West Virgina is insanely cheap while avoiding all the toils of southern west virgina (such as my step-mothers home town not having a police department because the town can't even afford it). I'm in the only city with any culture as well, which is a relief. My parents still fight from time to time, but its not a day to day thing anymore. I'm just unuse to that behavior because its not something they ever did, but its probably normal parental behavoir, especially in times like these. Sure, my father's still a self righteous *** whole, but I've got 5,000 saved up so it won't be long until he won't effect my pursuits anymore.

Not yet. I just finished moving, and am using a new computer so I've got to set everything up, again. Hahahaha, life's funny. Hopefully I'll finally be getting my hands on my e-piano this week.

Good news, got my tracks back, even if they are in crappy 129 MP3 quality, they are still worth something.

Sorry dude, I've just had so much going on with school lately. Been doing homework all day today, just got back from a trip for school last night. Too much work x_x

I may or may not be able to attend, I have a lot going on of late. If anything changes, I'll tell ya.

hey, I'm down with it. i think monday night would be better since tuesday i'm probably going to mostly be cleaning my house and leaving off to go a few places.

awesome, dude, you have a good time???

Thanks for the reminder. I haven't been on lately due to being on vacation, but I'll be back at my house tonight

spectacular!

Actually... I have 1 heart done. I have yet to make a heart container. I'll send it soon, but I feel just having one silly little heart isnt really enough for a good sprite update. So in the process, I'm working on a lot of goron architecture. Hopefully by the end of the next few weeks, I'll officially have the Goron island finished and ready to put in-game.

Oh.

I don't really VM you.

Why did we even become friends in the first place?

Alright cool, thanks.

Ah crap, sorry for missing it. I picked up PKM Heartgold, it kind of sucked up all of my time and caused me to forget about stuff....

****, sorry I missed it. I'm not on the Forum for the Zelda game very often and I'm sorry I keep missing these. If you could PM me like in the morning or the day before a meeting on here, then that would be great.

False alarm! I've got my internet back up, and hopefully nobodies going to be using this computer at 9 now. ('cause right now mines the only computer in the house that works)

Hey I'm on an iPhone and I can't access my Internet. My netgear stopped running for some reason. I'm not sure when I can get it fixed but I won't be able to try until 6 tonight.

I'll do everything in my power to do it before tonights meeting but if I can't ill tell you. If you do have alternatives that could work on the iPhone that could help but this is not my iPhone so not sure if I'll be able to use it tonight.

nice thread!! I will post soon :D

ummm, I dunno... i do believe however anything you ever sent me was linked up in our VM Conversation pages? Would have been way towards the beginning methinks

http://www.smashboards.com/showthread.php?t=268327

I hope this goes well :3

Also, do you have that one old school hip-hop song I gave you?

Now that's a plan! :D Yeah you definitely don't need to be paying bills if the only reason why they can't is because they're f'ing it off on booze every night, that's just extortion. Who is "they" btw, your dad and step mom (who are getting divorced soon maybe?) ... if they try to kick you out because you aren't paying rent then they obviously don't care about you, which is sad to think about, but a harsh reality that many kids go through... it sounds like your grandma is a good person and will be able to help you out so that's good.

And definitely with the piano ^^ If you need any pointers just say the word I'll impart what expertise I can over the internet, it's really too bad we don't live closer together or I'd just straight up give you proper lessons (no charge of course )

Think I'm going to move in with my grandmother in a few months. I may not have my mother to turn to, but I still have her. Also, going to stop paying rent until they stop going out to drink every night. I shall not fund their self destruction.

This will allow me to save up money much faster, allowing me to acquire probably about 1000 a month more at least before I make the move, and while there I do nothing but practice piano day in and day out until I get my scholarship.

A backround on my situation.

Me 8 months ago:

Ready to go to college, living in Florida, had a music scholarship.

Me today:

Father took a job he didn't need, moved the family despite my loses, their marriage broke up, his friend betrayed them and cut their pay in half, because of my lack of need for a car, I am without a license. Currently, I only have 600 dollars in savings. As for places to turn, there is hardly one other than my grandmother's from my mothers side. I never made many friends or connections, outside of Dee my last year of high school, so I have no helpful friend to turn to.

To make the dependence worse, I work for them, and in this current economic climate (or crisis) I have little else where to turn. Going to college right now is out of the question as I am not a state resident and thus would end up with insurmountable debt and have been out of practice on the Tuba too long to make a college music program, and classes would take away from my time to learn the piano.

Currently, I pay 400 dollars rent as it is 'needed' by the family, and yet they eat out and drink every night. My money isn't going to pay any bill but their alchololism, and I could have 1000 dollars more had I not been paying rent these past 2.5 months.

I have survivors benefits yet to be collected, 3,550 to be exact. But getting that takes time and would require either a month wait or a trip to Florida that I could not afford.

So, in summary:

No savings
But survivors benefits
but unable to claim currently.

No independence, what so ever.

No opportunity to use college as an escape currently.

No musical backing to help me escape.

Only one place to escape too.

My step parents are likely to break up, throwing our economic circumstances in a bigger whirl and setting back my potential even further. Things are honestly scaring me so bad that I sat and imagined my mother today, knowing if she was still here and wasn't murdered by her late husband, that I would have an escape, and someone (her being an artist) who would be fully supportive of my dreams.

I have no idea of where to turn, and no idea of how dark things are going to get and if I could ever pull out of them. I need guidance, as for once I am without any shred of light.

wait, what? Meeting? Tonight!? I was not informed!

Your right.

LOL I just logged in, but I have to log out soon anyway

Man I'm not looking at the IRC the whole time, you've got to PM me if you wannt get my attention.

Hi Sucumbio, sup?

U-Tilt was a Nickname given to me by the Disco Room, they can't read usernames right XD

Maybe you can get on the IRC or something

=/ Smashboards didn't notify me of your message Sucumbio so I didn't know to read it until today where I got another. Do you know the next time we'll be having a meeting though? I'm reading up on the social group right now to see what I missed 'cause I know I have missed a lot since I haven't been to a meeting in a while. =/
I'm bookmarking the social group though and putting it on my toolbar so I remember to check up on it frequently.

Thanks a lot!
What's the cheapest weighted keyboard you could find?

My mother passed away when I was very young.

And **** I hope she's real hahahaha. Some of my friends told me to replicate it. I know the house, its on the street below mine, but to my knowledge a married couple lives there, though I may be wrong.

No, I haven't, I know what I generally want though:
1. Around 150
2. an electronic pedeal
3. keys that are touch sensative.

and that's basically it. I'm not too picky about it xD

the emotional spititual pain had become toxic, it infected everything in my life, including my physical well being. It truly was destroying me from the inside out in many, many ways. I need that dream, as anything I had done in an attempt to heal myself before had only been a bandaid on an already infected woung, infected not the skin but rotten to the bone. In this, sleep became my escape, sleep being something I had always dreaded as I felt it waisted my few living hours, but during this time I wished for Nirvana, in the traditional Buddhist sense: paradise through extinction.

Wow, I'm writing that blog on your profile page xD
Oh! After my trip to Coachella I'll be buying a keyboard and starting my piano lessons, pilling myself into it, at the very least 3 hours a day. I'm very excited for that! With the pain gone and my head clear, music is now the center of my life yet again (downloaded 10 gig today o_O )

To be honest, before the dream, I was running from myself, bitter, looking at everything with indifference. But that dream really, truly healed me. This is my 2nd true dream. It wasn't hazy, it wasn't random things, it wasn't a blank slate.

Oh, and as for me and Dee, well, we are both confused about where we are to be honest. The day after I told you Dee told me she didn't love me anymore she called me back to tell me that somedays she is certain of her love for me and somedays she isn't. Its a confusing thing for the both of us, something I'm having to take as a true breakup, and now I'm in that sense of floating similar to how she is. I forced myself to break my dependence upon her, and that left the large, painful whole in my soul that the dream filled last night. I'm a very attractive man (not being cocky, I get hit on a lot by customers at work and when I go out), I'm intellegent, kind, and have a lot going for me (except I'm not funny hahaha), so its not that I fear not finding someone else, but someone else I would truly care about, and I truly feared this never healing. Now I don't have to worry about either, I know its possible to love and I'm now healed.

On a side note, I got a big crush on the artist Bat for Lashes :3 :3 :3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZxsPYgRhY0&feature=related

I don't know why, but sad eyes have always attracted me. Thing is though, I was watching the documentary (which got me crushing) and I noticed she's actually in a lot of pain :'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwNWEQsWMfI#t=7m07s
It only pops up every now and then, but having been with someone who would mask their pain, I know exactly what it looks like. Poor woman, if only I was 10 years older and a successful musican.

My, I MUST tell you of the dream I had last night.

This girl moves into town unknowingly to me, and I'm exploring the ruins of the parts of this town, and I walk by her house and hear a piano playing, I go inside and find her there, while I stand at the doorway. She sees me and just stares at me, I apologize and step away. (its night btw) I'm walking back, feeling like a fool, but I turn around back at the house and I see her on her steps, still looking at me. I ask if we could talk, and we spend the night together. I fell so passionetly in love with her, it was amazing.

I'd like to believe it happened, that I slept walked it all, I really would, but a part of me doesn't care, because of how lovely it all was.

Was that love I wonder? Can I love a dream figure? I guess I can, she's as real as anything else. Oh, it healed me. I no longer think of my regrets as my primary thoughts or my daunting love future, but of that dream. Its amazing.

I sent you the new octorok sprite sheet with the transparent background via Cyberduck. Hopefully that'll work.

Sure, can you get on at around 9?

On the new forum, make the avatar file sive more then just 6 KBs. I dont even think there is an image in all of existence that is that small.

Oh yeah man, SOLIDMarth. I'll be on in one second.