PsychoIncarnate
The Eternal Will of the Swarm
My family has thought I was gay because I've never been with a girl before
Although it's not like I haven't tried
Although it's not like I haven't tried
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I've got 1 month and 16 days to get married before I'm 30As a continuation of my mom's quest to get me to start dating, she tries asking more questions while I was playing Smash. She asked if me wanting to save money was the reason, and I stated it's one of the reasons. She then asked what was the main reason, and I just said there isn't a main reason and that there are many factors. She then asks when I plan on dating because I'm less likely to get married by the time I'm 30 (in five years). She then asks if I don't want a family and plan on living at home the rest of my life. For the last part, I'm only planning on doing it until I figure out what exactly I plan on doing career-wise.
She's trying to get me to start dating by showing me a Chinese dating show and saying people my age are looking for true love. She doesn't believe me when I say most people on the show are probably there for their 5 minutes of fame. She then says she'll only show me this one 34 year old contestant who was shut down by everyone, then proceeds to show me other contestants around my age. She yelled at me to come back when I started leaving. Can't she see that pushing me is doing the opposite of what she wants to happen?
This is going to be the most contradictory BS I've ever saidPosting here cause it's a pretty petty unhappy moment, but makes me unhappy nonetheless.
I'm a sap when it comes to love. I've very passionate about everything; Smash, music, gaming. So when I fall in love, I fall hard. I recently actually got a crush on a professional Smash 4 player and it turned into more of an infatuation than anything. And my friend had a certain hunch, but if it's true, I probably won't be able to even have a chance with her.
Well the hunch was she was in a relationship but you're right, it won't hurt to try.This is going to be the most contradictory BS I've ever said
But, if you have nothing to lose you might as well try anyway.
The most you can get is rejected. But if you don't try, you are rejecting yourself.
Not trying is a lose/ lose. Try in the least is a lose/ win.
...Huh. If you wanted, we could try being friends...Many people question me if I actually care about anyone else rather than myself. I actually put some thought into this, and honestly, I do spend more time with my belongings than I do with anyone else or my family. For me, having a "True" friend is difficult, since I'm extremely bad at talking about anything in general and things get awkward very quickly. My interests differ from nearly everyone I know, where even on the topic on common interests, I bring up things no one has heard about (Ex: If the category is gaming, I only play really obscure/unpopular indie games that have a small following).
I'm fine with this, I just get self-conscious for about a day or two whenever someone mentions selfishness to me.
I feel bad for you. I hope everything turns out okay....Sorry for the double post, people. I know it's against the rules. But I need to say this.
Earlier today, while my dad was in one of his rage fits, I had to listen to my dad go on and on about why I am ********.
He went on and on about how I never learn, how I never listen to him, how I have no goals in life, how I am stupid, why he should be beating the crap out of me and that I should keep my mouth completely shut to him, as my opinion is of no importance and he owns me and has the right to do whatever he pleases with me.
While he was screaming and moaning, he also decided to add that I'm very ********, EXTREMELY ********, and how he wishes he'd die so I wouldn't have to deal with him anymore, and how I should get a job and abandon him as soon as I can. My mom tried to interfere and he called her stupid and how she's "too soft with me" and always defending me.
He actually managed to make me cry. Making me cry is quite an achievement, mind you.
That... was amazing. The best part about it is that, a year ago, he got very close to dying after a rage fit, and after the incident he was actually diagnosed with a few mental disorders and it was instructed to him that he should take a few drugs and go to a psychiatrist on a regular basis. That's what any responsible adult would do - of course, my dad is not a responsible adult, thus he never did any of that.
Every day that passes, it legit gets harder to feel any sympathy for him.
That's really sad to hear about......Sorry for the double post, people. I know it's against the rules. But I need to say this.
Earlier today, while my dad was in one of his rage fits, I had to listen to my dad go on and on about why I am ********.
He went on and on about how I never learn, how I never listen to him, how I have no goals in life, how I am stupid, why he should be beating the crap out of me and that I should keep my mouth completely shut to him, as my opinion is of no importance and he owns me and has the right to do whatever he pleases with me.
While he was screaming and moaning, he also decided to add that I'm very ********, EXTREMELY ********, and how he wishes he'd die so I wouldn't have to deal with him anymore, and how I should get a job and abandon him as soon as I can. My mom tried to interfere and he called her stupid and how she's "too soft with me" and always defending me.
He actually managed to make me cry. Making me cry is quite an achievement, mind you.
That... was amazing. The best part about it is that, a year ago, he got very close to dying after a rage fit, and after the incident he was actually diagnosed with a few mental disorders and it was instructed to him that he should take a few drugs and go to a psychiatrist on a regular basis. That's what any responsible adult would do - of course, my dad is not a responsible adult, thus he never did any of that.
Every day that passes, it legit gets harder to feel any sympathy for him.
My dad acts like he's an 80 year old vietnam veteran for as long as I've been alive.That's really sad to hear about...
My grandpa is the same way
If you have Skype, we can always talk, if you want.I was playing Pokemon with my sister today but she wasn't allowed to play it. I didn't know, so I watched her. My mom comes in and yells at us, but my sister starts crying and saying I was the one who influenced her. My mom proceeded to yell at me for the rest of the night. My mom definitely favors my lil sis and it makes me really sad. My mom also said that my dream of playing smash competitively was a lost cause because I suck at the game and people who do that are losers, yet my sister becoming a famous ballerina and graduating from Juliard is totally feasible. My mom is so mean, I swear, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. And ever since I started homeschool I've had no friends, and the one I did have turned out to be a backstabbing *******... I need friends.
Sometimes... Ignorance is blissI was playing Pokemon with my sister today but she wasn't allowed to play it. I didn't know, so I watched her. My mom comes in and yells at us, but my sister starts crying and saying I was the one who influenced her. My mom proceeded to yell at me for the rest of the night. My mom definitely favors my lil sis and it makes me really sad. My mom also said that my dream of playing smash competitively was a lost cause because I suck at the game and people who do that are losers, yet my sister becoming a famous ballerina and graduating from Juliard is totally feasible. My mom is so mean, I swear, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. And ever since I started homeschool I've had no friends, and the one I did have turned out to be a backstabbing *******... I need friends.
It seems like it sometimes.Sometimes... Ignorance is bliss
Favoritism is a *****, I know I'm the most neglected of my siblings
I was put up for abortion
Your mom sounds like a total *****, Calling people who play competitive smash "Losers"... Does she have the maturity level of a 5 year old? lol
This reminded me a little bit of that movie....Memento.I have always had an extremely bad memory, which has always affected me. It has and stil does interrupt my daily routine. I tend to lose things, even obvious things such as huge books or containers. I get no memories of where I put things, so backtracking doesn't work for me. My bad memory even affects my conversations, where I can't remember if I said something 2 seconds ago. I get very confused and distant when this happens, and sometimes I wonder if I said anything at all. Or that the other person exists. Whenever I lose anything, for some reason I pretend it doesn't exist anymore. This leads to embarrassing occasions where I lose a small object, only to find it right in front of me. If I don't keep in contact with something, I pretend it doesn't exist. So past day memories are basically lost. While it might not seem as much of a bother, it annoys me so much that sometimes I stop caring about things I'm supposed to do.
I've tried to ask for help, and I often get the "leave a note" response. Chances are, I'll read the note and forget about what it said a few minutes later. Or just flat-out forget that it actually exists.
One thing I used to do is leave something weird or out of place. If you wake up and notice that the cereal is in the fridge, you might remember the reason you put it there. It's a kind of memory association. If you can connect two memories, you only need to remember one.I have always had an extremely bad memory, which has always affected me. It has and stil does interrupt my daily routine. I tend to lose things, even obvious things such as huge books or containers. I get no memories of where I put things, so backtracking doesn't work for me. My bad memory even affects my conversations, where I can't remember if I said something 2 seconds ago. I get very confused and distant when this happens, and sometimes I wonder if I said anything at all. Or that the other person exists. Whenever I lose anything, for some reason I pretend it doesn't exist anymore. This leads to embarrassing occasions where I lose a small object, only to find it right in front of me. If I don't keep in contact with something, I pretend it doesn't exist. So past day memories are basically lost. While it might not seem as much of a bother, it annoys me so much that sometimes I stop caring about things I'm supposed to do.
I've tried to ask for help, and I often get the "leave a note" response. Chances are, I'll read the note and forget about what it said a few minutes later. Or just flat-out forget that it actually exists.
That's hard buddy My best friend moved half year ago and we know us since we were 4. But be happy that we live in a time were we can still communicate via internet. While its not the same as hanging around with them, talking to my friend is a huge relief to me.Just gave one of my best friends a final sendoff; she's moving to Chicago... Urgh.
I actually met someone online with very similar problems I didn't noticed first whats up but he increasingly kept complaing and then he told me whats up. I took some time, tears and the determination to look forward and go on but I think I helped him pretty much. I was always there to talk. Sometimes I was just listening but it at least helped him to calm down. though sometimes I just didn't know what to reply.I'm not sure how much more **** I can take. My Mom's depressed, my Dad's depressed, and I'm depressed as well as screwed up. I've been to a mental hospital twice. All the negativity is really getting to me and I feel more trapped than ever. My Mom cries a lot, my Dad in the past drank away his sorrows away (not an alcholic, but he sure does love his beer), and then there's me, the girl too big of a anti-social weirdo to actually have a lot of friends or have more independence. I don't know what to do. I'm seeing both a pychatrist and therapist and yet I'm still having trouble. The intrusive thoughts are still there, the constant anxiety is always in my mind. I'm on a ton of medication that affects my concentration and makes it difficult to work on my college homework. Hell, I'm taking a year long break from the university I was originally going to because I pretty much had a breakdown last summer.
It's so so so frustrating. I feel angry at myself and my parents, who I love but are driving me crazy. I just want to feel better already...is that too much to ask?
Improvement will take patience. A lot of it. If you're getting frustrated with the game, try taking a break. Maybe find some decent people to play with on miiverse or anther's ladder. You'll probably do a lot better when you're having fun. If not, then at least you are still enjoying it. Also, don't expect consistency on FG. Latency can be all over the place it makes it hard to do anything precise. I think of it more as a mode for messing around without expectations of certain victory.Can someone give me advice?
Sometimes I'll Smash and I am just terrible. Not bad, I mean terrible.
Its mainly from beeing tired and then my reactions are just gone. All my skill evaporates and my DI becomes horrible, can't pull of combos or even simple teching becomes impossible (due to reactions). Still I force myself to play instead of just quitting the damn game.
I just lost 5 times in a row against a more than bad taunting FG scrub because I selfdestructed myself like everytime. I just threw my controller against a wall and punched my leg out of pure anger against myself for beeing such an idiot. I know that needs to stop but I don't know how to quit when I lose like that, because I just know that I can do better and feel my honor is beeing hurt and at one point its just enough and I express my anger :/
(not verbally though since I am not the one who likes shouting, punching myself isn't any better but at least I don't wake my parents)
I'm pretty sure that if Gamecube controllers weren't that indestructible I would break one every month.
I could make use of a punching bag or something like that...but my parents jsut ould ask what I got that for and I don't want to tell them the truth because I know its a dumb reason why I sometimes jsut can't control myself...
At least writing this made me calm down a bit.
That's my interaction with everyone. I guess people aren't that interested in me as a friend. :|I think I had a similar issue. I was talking with this girl, but she never really seemed interesting in contacting me or seeing me unless I contacted her first. Even in conversations, she seemed to respond to what I said but never really asked anything back.
I tried to see what kind of stuff she liked that we had in common, but even when I thought I found something she didn't carry out a conversation about it.
Like "How are you today" which she responded with how she was, but didn't really seem interesting in asking anything of me or seeing how I was.
I eventually just decided she probably didn't like me