At least you still are skeptic.
You have no idea of my depression train right now.
Believe me, I understand those feelings really well.
Back when Erdrick was still rumoured and I was keeping my prays about Eight getting in as his alt, something called Google Theory appeared which basically seemed to claim that Erdrick would not get in and in his place Artorias would be added.
Dragon Quest fans got loads of flack back then, and it didn’t help that all happened at the lowest point of my life, so I was feeling even more suicidal than usual.
However, miracles happened and in the end not only did Google Theory get deconfirmed but my boy Eight also got added.
The things we want tend to mostly take a lot of time to happen.
Just remember that no matter how dark or messed things could be right now... there’s always light at the end of the tunnel.
Quentin Tarantino had to deeply fight his way inside Hollywood before getting any recognition as he does today, and I also had to fight my way through to make my life go back in balance.
I believe in you, because your motivation are well-meaned.