Hey, friends.
Imagine you're locked up. Not locked up in a prison, but in a correctional institute. Imagine if, in that correctional institution, every turn by the people holding you there was filled with lies deliberately crafted to scare people into line, but not only that, to make them want to be in line so badly they start believing the lies, a regular 'there are five lights, not four', situation. You can move, you're not restrained, and you're with a group of others, but you know if you act you will be demonized, damaged, and the people around you might be damaged as well.
Imagine, that, casually, your most beloved is desecrated in front of you are you are told this is fine, that the institutions which prevented this where supporting some unnecessary cultural construct called morality.
Welcome to my dreams last night.
I don't know if I can go on. My regret is not acting sooner.