CUTENESS OVERLOAD, I REPEAT, CUTENESS OVERLOAD.
No, Shiny, nobody but yourself is forcing you to go down this path. And only you can change it.
Let me explain you one thing Shiny. Socializing with others peoples isn't easy, I get it. But here is the thing, you don't need to go, "I must make friends with everyone or else nobody like me!". No, take it easy, start talking with your family, the peoples you know and like, then, try little by little with peoples you see everyday. It is slow, but you will get better at talking in general
For me, for most of my life, I didn't have any friends. I was the weirdo, always doing stuff that nobody understood. I had a mental sickness from birth that make everything for me harder to do. Frankly, I sometime think it's a miracle I am here, talking with you and you all. Without feeling like a stranger or someone who get angry/sad at everything.
The thing is that, I would have never come off of this dark age alone. My parents & my sister and all the peoples who helped me in real life are the reasons I became a better person. Before, I wouldn't talk with peoples and always stayed in my corner, not wanting to be hurt or saying something stupid. Now, I crack joke at peoples at my work or with my family. I go outside alone to get off my computer. I try to do sport from time to time to make sure my health is good.
All of this, the old me would have never done.
And I am not making any of this up. This isn't Blue Hunter Z, the guy who always talk too much about Xenoblade 2. This the real person behind the computer, trying to warn you and help you not following the same path as the old me.
Life is hard, and life is only going to be harder as time move on, this is reality. But you are still young Shiny, contrary to alot of us, you have still times to use to be a better person. Do not give up now, do not let a forum make your entire life, do not let your depression take over you. You are going to get hurt no matter path you choose, but trying to be a better person will only help you in the long run. While shutting yourself down is only going to hurt you in the long run.
I hope I doesn't sound too harsh in this post, and that you get this Shiny. We only want you the best, and I, in particular, hope you will have a great futur ahead of you.