Apologies for late replies.
1-I can understand that, it's a personal concern of mine actually, but you can either: share it privately, or share it in a Doc and delete it later so the only ones who'd have access to it are the ones who were here at the time.
2-I know this may sound harsh but as my professor said: "a writer needs to know how to take criticism". You really can't move forward as one without receiving it. I also share the same issue and get really anxious when someone reads my stuff but most of time, as it turns out, people usually have more good things to say about a story than bad things.
3-All writers are lazy, we'd all just rather have a machine implanted onto our brains that can transcribe our thoughts into paper. I think what you need to get onto writing it is some sort of motivation, I didn't actually write until I started having classes despite always wanting to. Get into a writing contest or take a course, if you have something that MAKES you write, then you WILL write and that will help with the motivation you need to write longer things and that "dream project" everyone has.
(note, I just wake up a hour or two, so if some thing don't make as muc sense or lack focus, this is why)
-That's actually a good option, but the problem is that I don't know who I can share those info since that, well, nobody care about what I write since I don't show it.
Still, keeping this point for later.
-Oh no, you don't sound harsh at all (in fact, you pretty chill honestly haha), you are in the right, a writter need criticism to improve as a, well, writter. That's something I understand deeply no matter my fear about it. Plus, tbh, what I did share on this forum was generally meet with positif reaction, which I appreciate, it's just that I don't know how I react when I one day post something stupid or that doesn't make sense and someone get really critical about it, not eating his words to sound nice and just sounding really harsh in the process, to clearify, I don't think it's always a bad thing to be "harsh" about someone else work, especially if it's needed, it's just when it come me, I'm a pretty shy person in general who take insult or even jokes sometime too much to heart instead of to the brain, which is what I writter should get at the end of the day: take it to the brain, not the heart.
So yeah, I agree on that too
-Yet another really good point you made, motivation is really something I lack sometime, since my primar source of it is me just wanting to do something, which usually doesn't help very much.
I don't think writting contest or take a course would help me much tho, mainly for:
1: I write my story in English while I live in a country who primary languageare French & Deutsch, soooo it really couldn't mash well.
2: My ideas are sometime just too weird or complicate , I wouldn't know how to describe them without like a book filled with notes or somethin' while making sure to not get stress out while explaining said ideas, especially if I had to explain to a stranger in front of me.
3: Again, I'm a very emotional person who sometime get offended for pity things that I KNOW I shouldn't get offended, yet, I still do. I try to hide it as best as I can, but sometime, it just cause me long period of feeling depress and just not doing anything at all or worse. I say that because I got a breakdown at my previous work/school, which caused me to quit
both due to how bad it was getting at my end.
(btw, I don't know if taking a course would be much better or worse, considering I never went to college due to my problems)
Those 3 points being said, I be much, much more welcoming to share my work on the internet with peoples that are interested. In fact, I be happy to share a draft of my new story with you in private if you have the time or if you want it at all, 'cuz if you say yes, it could make me more motived to advance my project, but the choice is yours, I don't force you anything.