Forgiveness
There are times during one's life that the desire for physical, mental, or spiritual change may come up.
I cannot say that everybody will go through or desire such a change. However. I know that I desire to perfect and purify myself in all such categories. Even with all the resources and knowledge I have required to complete such a process I find there is still something missing. This is what this post is all about. Forgiveness. I am asking for forgiveness from many members of the community. There are many, yes MANY various sins I have committed against you people. My conscience sees what I have done, and it is saddened at how I could have done such things, intentionally or not. As such, I cannot hope to list all these offences-there are far more then I can remember. Here are the more serious crimes of human nature that I have committed and I am now asking for forgiveness.
1. Jason - Remember the Pichu and grapple beam "incidents"? While I feel the Pichu "thing" surpasses the grapple beam by quite a lot, both were mean-spirited enough to warrant me asking you to forgive me. I'm not sure what got into me at the time. It was as if the darker side of my nature took over. Or perhaps I just got caught up in the moment. Whatever drove me to do or say those things, they are nearly unforgivable sins of mine. And they shall stay unforgiven unless you can forgive me for such arrogance and meanness on my part. I do not uaually like arrogance, and that was what I was being-arrogant. If Derek had done the same to me I would have been quite depressed.
2. Ricky - Hmm. Two main things I can think of right now. I'm sure you remember the "thing" at the bowling alley with the Sakura group. Yes, I am sure you do. What happened there was basically a loss of self-control and absolute disgustingness. While I was laughing at the time, I look back on that time as I do the majority of my life and think- "how absolutely pathetic." I'm not sure what your opinion on that was or is, but I know what mine is, and it pains me greatly. This re-realization of myself will hopefully erase the possiblities of all such similar things happening once again. Second, that invasion of your personal space. Unintended it was ,sure, but ignorance is not an acceptable excuse for me in the least. I am so very sorry for what I did. I know what it feels like to have my personal space invaded. When I have my personal space invaded, I can honestly say that is one of the things I truly HATE. I know very well the difference between dislike, strongly dislike, and HATE, and that is something I HATE. I do not know if it was a big deal to you or not at the time or whether or not it was just an everday occurrence, but I MUST ask for forgiveness from such a violation of a basic human right. Those kind of sins are what I find to be the worst ones of all.
3. Kin - This may seem strange, but I know what I have done and believe me, I am truly ashamed for what I did. Such a thing is something that should be toyed with and made a mockery of. That is exactly what I feel I have done with that "thing." It is unacceptable what I had done, and still is. This "thing" I mention is what was discussed in those PMs. Yes, THAT thing. I don't know if you are ever going to read this, but if you do and can SOMEhow find it in your heart to forgive me, I beg of you to please do.
4. Derek - My god there's a horrific number of atrocities I have done to you. I've thought it over many times, and I believe I have a slight understanding of why I thought the things I have said and done were okay. Since you are the top smasher in Alaska I guess I felt it was okay to say and do all those things since you were well...the best. I thought that you would be somehow immune to all that simply because you were the best. I do not know whether or not you actually were oblivious to all that. Regardless, I must atone for my sins somehow. I can think of nothing else to do but ask for your forgiveness. I do not think I have the heart to describe in detail just what I did. I am THAT cowardly. I'm sure you remember these things. The "picture", the "beard thing", the "sandbagging" are just a few words that may remind you of what I have done. Just a FEW, mind you. There ARE many more then that. But like I said, I have not the heart to mention them because of my horrid weakness. One last thing. I was one that doubted you on Sheik returning to Brawl. Such a small thing maybe, but I was one of them. So, it's up to you as to what you chose to do. Do you forgive me or not? It is up to you entirely.
4. All - To everyone in general I am sorry you had to put up with me and my ridiculous nonsense. I really do not enjoy being like that. That is what this thing is about. I am going to wash out all that impurity in my self until I am complete. Such an annoying fellow I was. Such a thing I disliked so much...I was actually
that very thing. Annoying.
Once more, it is completely up to you all as to whether you want to forgive me or not. Please do not
say you forgive me unless you really mean it, for in the event that you say "I forgive you now plz stfu" or something similar it is meaningless.