Forgeblazer
Smash Rookie
- Joined
- Feb 21, 2019
- Messages
- 17
I dont know where to start. This game is one im passionate about, and ive played smash games all my life. I can usually go online, qnd try to play any character, and if im more than a stock down i usually sd and end the game. I only ever play one game a day max, because i play one, quit one, and them emotionally break down. I tell myself this and that about how i suck, ill never improve, im worthless, a waste of potential. And no matter how hard i try to keep a positive mentality, game after game after game a bit more and more leaks into my mentality. And then i snap. I usually throw my controller, and then, depending on how humiliating, start legitimately crying and hitting myself because i think of all of the things in my head. Ive asked forums so many times for help, and no matter how much good advice i get i cant seem to apply it, and no matter how many videos i watch on how to improve or improve my mentality, i wind up snapping by next session. It all happens in a loop really. Get motivated, play game, quit. Get motivated, play game, quit. Get motivated, play game, quit. Its practically a living hell. It ends up as a never ending cycle that i just. Cant. BREAK. I need to change this, as much as i want to play this game it drives me mentally insane. Literally. And no, this isnt for april fools. This is 100% serious and true.