Hey, here's a mental-related rant/need for advices. Any truth would be appreciated
I've been playing this game for 10 years now, and I'm pretty decent, but I feel like I'm lacking something, a deeper understanding of the game or whatever that keeps me from getting further. When I say I'm decent, I mean that I understand the fundamentals of the game, I can recognize good and bad positioning when I'm playing, all according to my opponent options (when watching my matches I tend to run off a little too much tho, but overall it's good), I understand common options and reactions and know how to mixup. I'm top 10 in my country, went to South Florida and was top 5 or something, so it's not too shabby. I feel like I'm missing only on details now, micro situations and a bit of better decision making overall. The Game Science Stage you know. As a very instinctive player, this is hella hard (Im still convinced that the best way to learn is relaxed concentration, and just letting your mind process stuff, and occasionally read a thing or two to let your mind process more stuff). But yeah, I feel like some people have a little something that make them understand the game easier, more naturally, since I'm no more than a mid level player after 10 freaking years of playing. Most of the time when I think about melee, when I try to theorize on abstract concepts like "thinking how my movements affects my opponent" my mind just goes blank. It's frustrating cause I almost never know what to improve on and how, what kind of things I could be doing with the 20XX hackpack and so on. Even when I manage to pinpoint a situation (like, landing with a laser next to Marth's shield) I can't for the life of me decipher it with words, or have a concrete progress out of that. I start thinking about the infinite number of options this game have, and how the hell am I supposed to incorporate all of this in my play, one by one, in less than 20XX years, without even starting to think about mindgames and such. I just read the dissection of Falco's options on shield, this stuff is HEAVY, and it's just one tiny part. But people around the globe actually manage to do that. To consciously learn things beyond fundamentals, micro situations, by theorizing and applying, even though it's a dynamic game played against humans with what seems like infinite depth. I don't get it. I feel like people who actually progress are people who can say "oh ok, so to progress I need to learn this, and this, and that", very concrete and precise stuff, and they do learn those, it takes them one year but they learned these things and boom, they're good lol. What are those things damnit. The funny thing is, I can theorize pretty easily what I already know, but not at all what I should learn. I'm stuck here. After all this time and seeing where I currently am, I also have the urge to just stop playing, so maybe that insidious thought hinders my progress too, idk.