When we are young, we always see ourselves in a higher note in the future, with that I mean something like I used to dream to work for Nintendo, Ubi or any gaming company and succeed, having a nice life, but as you grow up, you start to see the reality of things, and one of them is that life is not, and NEVER is going to be easy, and I'm not saying achieving those dreams is impossible, just really complicated and time consuming, there's going to be ups and downs, and like I said before, you are going to miss your younger, free of HUGE responsability days. I hope you get to have your dream job, but don't stress over it this early just because of a discussion forum that is mostly visited by adults.
And I have to say it again, you are not "cringy". But, if you think you are and want to stop being, you can start by not using that word, Shiny.