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I have experienced a personal Hell.

Raziek

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So, the other night, I ate some weird stuff before bed (It was a concoction of Mike and Ikes, Pizza, Chocolate and Apple Juice), and I had this REALLY VIVID, messed up dream, that I intend to share on this blog.

It started out reasonably normal, from what I can remember. I was at this weird building that was a mish-mash of all the schools I've ever been in, including my elementary school, middle school, high school, and current university. It was filled mostly with people I knew from my school life.

Fast forward a bit, I find myself walking into what seems to be some sort of auditorium/common area. (kind of like a fancy ballroom, except it was set up so that all the seats were facing the middle)I walk in, and it looks like some people are setting up for a show.

I notice a strange looking kid who appeared to be about my age (18) sitting in the back row of some chairs along one of the walls. He beckons me over and asks me to sit with him. I figure sure, why not? I'll watch what ever this speech/presentation is and then move on to the next thing.

So I sit down (not directly next to the kid, though I'm not sure why. I was 2 or 3 seats away from him, despite him encouraging me to sit next to him), and wait for whatever is going to happen.

A bunch of people come out to the middle of the room and quickly draw an inscription (some sort of rune) on the floor, and begin to chant. It was a weird sort of almost Gregorian chant. The rune begins to light up and the chanters step back. A black vortex opens up in the center of the rune, and these weird tendrils begin to extend from it. (not unlike the scene in Tales of Symphonia where Lloyd's companions are imprisoned in Derris-Kharlan and forced to face their deepest psychological issues) Like that scene, the tendrils grab my leg and begin to pull me and a few other people in. I'm struggling as hard as I can, but I make no headway at all.

After a few seconds I'm dragged into the center and everything goes black. When I finally wake up I'm in a barren wasteland that looks deceivingly like the Badlands in World of Warcraft. (http://images1.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20051122051016/wowwiki/images/c/c9/Dustbowl.jpg) There is a small camp nearby, if you could call it that. In reality, it was just a small, ragged tent and a burnt firepit.

I don't recall exactly how I figured it out, but I realized that I was trapped in this place, with no means of escape. With one strange thing: my cellphone still worked. Only catch was, I could only call my mother, and the call would cut off after 5 minutes, and would only work once a week.

In this place, I never got hungry. I did not have to use the bathroom, feed, or anything. There was just barren wasteland.

On the first weekend I was stuck there, I realized that I could return to the real world, with one dreadful catch.

I returned to find out that I had died that day at school, though not at the auditorium. I had keeled over from a heart attack in the middle of the hall.

When I returned to my body on that first weekend, I found that I was returned to a mere 15 minutes before my death, and I was incapable of doing anything differently than it had happened. I was locked into my actions, trapped inside my own body. After I died, my consciousness remained in my corpse for an additional 15 minutes as I repeatedly lived through the emotional torture of seeing people I knew panic as they realized that I had died. I remember loved ones looking down at me on the ground screaming, crying, panicking, and there was nothing I could do.

After that half hour period, I was returned to the wasteland, and my phone was usable again. I called my mother and tried to explain what was happening, but my mouth couldn't form the words. I found myself sobbing uncontrollably and there was nothing I could do to explain to my distraught mother why.

This repeated several times before I was finally able to wake myself up.

It was one of the most terrifying things I have ever experienced.
 

cookieM0Nster

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No more video games for you.

Good thing I don't have any nightmares. Closest thing to a nightmare recently was...
well not in a while.
and ****. **** you. now im creeped out as ****.
thanks.
good luck with your ****.
if you give me a nightmare i sweaaaaar...


alright, im chill, just listened to music im coooool. haha :D good luck though
 

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I LOVE dreams, even nightmares though not until more recently for those. I spend a lot of time analyzing them when they're not obvious, as in chains of events with clear detail. I have far fewer abstract dreams than I did when I was younger, but I still get them sometimes. Typically I will dream of specific things that were mentioned briefly the previous day, and that made an impression on me, but must also be fleeting, in that I do not think on it at all afterward. There are several images and motifs in this dream of yours that are common, some not so common, and some worth looking into... for instance:

I was at this weird building that was a mish-mash of all the schools I've ever been in, including my elementary school, middle school, high school, and current university. It was filled mostly with people I knew from my school life.
I get this often, I think it has something to do with a remembered response to the fear of finding your way around campuses... the original stimuli from being put into a situation where you must report to classrooms and whatnot and yet have NO idea where they are, or how you'll be lead to them, creates a sense of soft (or hard in some people) panic which though it abates fairly quickly (hopefully) it's a stimulus your brain often won't forget, and will recur in dream state. Myself personally got lost in a mall once when very young, separated from my guardian, and the panic was huge, so of course when I recur the school setting, it's oftentimes mixed with mall elements. Imagine next to your 4th period class there's a Sears lol!

I notice a strange looking kid who appeared to be about my age (18) sitting in the back row of some chairs along one of the walls. He beckons me over and asks me to sit with him. I figure sure, why not? I'll watch what ever this speech/presentation is and then move on to the next thing.

So I sit down (not directly next to the kid, though I'm not sure why. I was 2 or 3 seats away from him, despite him encouraging me to sit next to him), and wait for whatever is going to happen.
I found this bit to be particularly interesting. In what way was he "strange" looking? Was there any sexual connotation to his "invite" ... any arousal? Or was he just being pleasant? Were you perhaps demonstrating a homophobic response with this interaction? (btw I mean no offense, these are the types of questions that one would ask given the scenario you've laid out, I in no way prejudge you to be homophobic or closeted or anything.)

A bunch of people come out to the middle of the room and quickly draw an inscription (some sort of rune) on the floor, and begin to chant. It was a weird sort of almost Gregorian chant. The rune begins to light up and the chanters step back. A black vortex opens up in the center of the rune, and these weird tendrils begin to extend from it. (not unlike the scene in Tales of Symphonia where Lloyd's companions are imprisoned in Derris-Kharlan and forced to face their deepest psychological issues) Like that scene, the tendrils grab my leg and begin to pull me and a few other people in. I'm struggling as hard as I can, but I make no headway at all.
Haha I second cookieM0Nster here, no more video games for you :p Nah, this type of imagery isn't too far fetched given the vast amount of "occult" or otherwise "demonic" fiction we're (as gamers, and as 21st century humans) are exposed to. Reminded me personally of Lovecraft's Call of Cthulhu which in turn is a fantastic table top RPG (definitely will keep you up nights.)

I could only call my mother, and the call would cut off after 5 minutes, and would only work once a week.
I called my mother and tried to explain what was happening, but my mouth couldn't form the words. I found myself sobbing uncontrollably and there was nothing I could do to explain to my distraught mother why.
Sounds like you having something to tell your mother :p Nah, but the inability to do something important is another common motif in dreams. For me it used to be driving... I'd either always be in the back seat trying to reach the pedals, or unable to see the road clearly due to ridiculous glare in the windshield, that kinda thing. Also reading is very difficult if at all possible (I've heard it's technically impossible due to the brain center in play while reading in a waking state, vs asleep, but I have not confirmed this.) But in each instance there's usually a sense of importance, or impending doom for not completing the task... this anxiety is normally an indicator that something in your life is eating at you, even if at a subconscious level.

I returned to find out that I had died that day at school, though not at the auditorium. I had keeled over from a heart attack in the middle of the hall.
When I returned to my body on that first weekend, I found that I was returned to a mere 15 minutes before my death, and I was incapable of doing anything differently than it had happened. I was locked into my actions, trapped inside my own body. After I died, my consciousness remained in my corpse for an additional 15 minutes as I repeatedly lived through the emotional torture of seeing people I knew panic as they realized that I had died. I remember loved ones looking down at me on the ground screaming, crying, panicking, and there was nothing I could do.
Interesting, this development. It seems as if the dream decided to change its course a little bit, and by adding your death to it, there's some that will suggest it means your life is about to change, or you yourself anticipate a change in it. That's kinda hogwash to me, I never look into dream interpretation so literally, to me dying in one's own dream usually indicates you feel as if there's something incomplete about your life as a whole.


This repeated several times before I was finally able to wake myself up.
Yeah, definitely qualifies as a nightmare, that sucks. I used to have a hell of a time waking myself up if the dream turned to nightmare, but now a days I purposefully try to not wake up, but knowing that I'm trying IN the dream, makes me wake up anyway lol.

It was one of the most terrifying things I have ever experienced.
No joke, I don't envy you... hopefully it meant nothing ^^
 

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I get this often, I think it has something to do with a remembered response to the fear of finding your way around campuses... the original stimuli from being put into a situation where you must report to classrooms and whatnot and yet have NO idea where they are, or how you'll be lead to them, creates a sense of soft (or hard in some people) panic which though it abates fairly quickly (hopefully) it's a stimulus your brain often won't forget, and will recur in dream state. Myself personally got lost in a mall once when very young, separated from my guardian, and the panic was huge, so of course when I recur the school setting, it's oftentimes mixed with mall elements. Imagine next to your 4th period class there's a Sears lol!
Well, the strange thing was, I was completely comfortable walking around. Everything seemed familliar, I was waving hi to my friends, and I was happy. There wasn't any anxiety about it.

I found this bit to be particularly interesting. In what way was he "strange" looking? Was there any sexual connotation to his "invite" ... any arousal? Or was he just being pleasant? Were you perhaps demonstrating a homophobic response with this interaction? (btw I mean no offense, these are the types of questions that one would ask given the scenario you've laid out, I in no way prejudge you to be homophobic or closeted or anything.)
He just seemed.... out of place. Not quite right. Almost... not human, it felt like. I think he might have been luring me into the ceremony. I don't think there was anything sexual about it (and I take no offense from you asking), I have a couple gay friends, it doesn't bother me.

Sounds like you having something to tell your mother :p Nah, but the inability to do something important is another common motif in dreams. For me it used to be driving... I'd either always be in the back seat trying to reach the pedals, or unable to see the road clearly due to ridiculous glare in the windshield, that kinda thing. Also reading is very difficult if at all possible (I've heard it's technically impossible due to the brain center in play while reading in a waking state, vs asleep, but I have not confirmed this.) But in each instance there's usually a sense of importance, or impending doom for not completing the task... this anxiety is normally an indicator that something in your life is eating at you, even if at a subconscious level.
I can't really think of anything weird... I mean, I think the reason it only worked to call her is because I'm more comfortable with her than pretty much anyone else. I tell her pretty much everything. I even told her about the nightmare right after I woke up.

Interesting, this development. It seems as if the dream decided to change its course a little bit, and by adding your death to it, there's some that will suggest it means your life is about to change, or you yourself anticipate a change in it. That's kinda hogwash to me, I never look into dream interpretation so literally, to me dying in one's own dream usually indicates you feel as if there's something incomplete about your life as a whole.
Perhaps. I think it might be some uncertainty about finding a good relationship. I've been hurt by people in the past, and I'm waiting for the person I think is right, not just casual relationships.
 
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Wow, that is terrifying. I would hate to experience that even part of it.
 

Pikachu24

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something evil was probably trying to get to you. and god is watching over you though just pray to him.
 

Mr.Freeman

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Sounds like sleep paralysis.

Its something I've experienced before, not very good. :urg:
 

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something evil was probably trying to get to you. and god is watching over you though just pray to him.
*Looks at this post*

*Looks at previous blog entry*

*laughs*

Mr.Freeman said:
Sounds like sleep paralysis.

Its something I've experienced before, not very good. :urg:
O_o What's sleep paralysis?
 

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Where's sleep paralysis mentioned in here? :confused:
From what I gathered, he was asleep the entire time (unless I missed something.)
 

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Its a condition or something where you can't wake up in your sleep, and your fully aware of what your dreaming. It's usually accompanied by some pretty terrifying hallucinations, obviously something you had.

Very unsettling.
 

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holy **** dude, thats scary

really good read though, and very interesting

excited for a sequel even though you definately aren't lol
 

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holy **** dude, thats scary

really good read though, and very interesting

excited for a sequel even though you definately aren't lol
Don't worry, based on my family history, I'll have another one soon enough. My family has a lot of trippy super-natural occurrences.

I might start doing dream blogs. xD Every time I get a really interesting one, I'll post it.
 

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Ok, so I wasn't kidding about how messed up my dreams are. Last night I had another messed up dream, though this one wasn't quite as terrifying, but still disturbing on a psychological level.

This time, instead of being IN the school mish-mash building that I was last time, I was walking around on campus with some friends, participating in a variety of fun, university activities and such.

As I near my house (which is now apparently right near the campus), I start to smell smoke. I round the corner, and my house is on fire! I start panicking, and I'm out front yelling for someone to try and help. As I'm out there, sparks from our house light a neighboring house downwind on fire.

I freak out, and then it occurs to me: What if someone is still stuck in our house?!

So, I run in, and for some reason, there are no flames inside. I start checking the rooms for anyone still inside, and my mother and sister are nowhere to be found, but I remember that they had been planning on going shopping.

However, I find my father pretty closed to passed out in a drunken stupor, laying on the couch mumbling incoherently.

I freak out and start yelling at him, screaming things like, "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?! WHAT THE **** IS WRONG WITH YOU!? I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD START DRINKING AGAIN AND LET THIS HAPPEN!"

He doesn't respond with anything beyond drunken mumbling, so I drag him out of the house and lay him down on the lawn, only to find that the fires have all stopped, with no visible damage.

After that, I woke up.

This one, I know exactly how to interpret some of it. My family has had a history of alcoholism. My grandfather had it, and my Dad had it for a while. It's the reason I choose not to drink at all.

However, my Dad has been clean for 6 or 7 months now, but I have a feeling this stems from an incident that happened almost a year ago.

My mother and my father almost split up because we found out that my Dad had been abusing Marijuana and alcohol to alleviate his chronic pain. (he has a disc sciatica that prevents him from doing any heavy lifting, and his back is almost constantly in pain)

When that happened, my sister and I were caught in the middle, and on exactly the same sides as the dream. When my mother found out, she took my sister and started driving towards my grandmother's, saying that she wasn't coming back.

Meanwhile, I'm left behind at home with my father, who is now a very broken man. He was just lying on the floor, crying and sobbing, and I was doing my best to try to comfort him. I was on his side, but I couldn't believe he would do a thing like that.

I called my mother on her cellphone and managed to convince her to come back and talk things out. We did, and my father went into substance abuse recovery programs for both things, and has since been clean for months. They've reconciled and resumed their happy, 20-year marriage.

I've had dreams where I've been enraged and screaming at my father for something he's done before, and it's disturbing, because I love him dearly. I feel like it just stems from these past betrayals.

This turned out longer than expected. /end today's dream rant with Raziek.
 

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lol, your nightmares are more epic than mine.
The only one that I remember, was me battling out with freeza, cell and broly, for hours, endlessly.

I finally manage to cut one of Freezer's arm and kill him, and the 'screen', or whatever you call it, starts to zoom out super fast ; and all of a sudden, a zombified Freeza appears right in front of the screen, and he holds with the arm that's left a piece of paper where there's 'TO BE CONTINUED' written with blood, which makes me wake up in fear xD

I've been waiting 8 years to kill that ***** broly.
 

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I'm with Mewter on this one. I wasn't aware that it was a dream, and I just woke up normally after.
I see. Well, I was just throwing it out there. Sounded sort of like the descriptions I read of it.
... This is getting stupid.
inb4 str8 edgers call me out as a troll or something
What do you mean "stupid"? People calling you a troll (which you are) or the blog?
 
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