Link to original post: [drupal=4265]How 3D (life) has hit the proverbial wall[/drupal]
I hate being whiny, I really do. I'm really an independent person though so I'm just going to roll with that as my excuse.
Everything right now just feels like, STOPPED. I'd say ceiling, but I don't think I exactly go up and beyond. It's more like as I'm coasting along on my one man train, I come across a deceased monkey or something. A big, unavoidable monkey...and it stinks. Unfortunately, I didn't see this coming, and I didn't bother asking or listening. Maybe it was never told to me. That doesn't matter though. It's just that everything is bad now, and it makes me want to rip my hair out (as if alopecia doesn't already take care of that fdsofsdgs). I find fault in everything I'm doing and do, from school to this site, and that's supposed to be a luxury! I don't know anymore, I really don't. I open a page in my Algebra II book and I'm like what is this. I feel stupid, and it frustrates me because I know I can do better and I should be doing better. I just don't have any motivation left at all, but see, that doesn't work in life. I just want life to be good, but then what is a good life? I'd add a ! mark to that question if I didn't hate that combination of punctuation marks! I want to cry or something but have no idea what is happening or why I would do that. I know this sounds stupid, I mean man. It just feels like I literally know nothing about ****ing anything.
I hate being whiny, I really do. I'm really an independent person though so I'm just going to roll with that as my excuse.
Everything right now just feels like, STOPPED. I'd say ceiling, but I don't think I exactly go up and beyond. It's more like as I'm coasting along on my one man train, I come across a deceased monkey or something. A big, unavoidable monkey...and it stinks. Unfortunately, I didn't see this coming, and I didn't bother asking or listening. Maybe it was never told to me. That doesn't matter though. It's just that everything is bad now, and it makes me want to rip my hair out (as if alopecia doesn't already take care of that fdsofsdgs). I find fault in everything I'm doing and do, from school to this site, and that's supposed to be a luxury! I don't know anymore, I really don't. I open a page in my Algebra II book and I'm like what is this. I feel stupid, and it frustrates me because I know I can do better and I should be doing better. I just don't have any motivation left at all, but see, that doesn't work in life. I just want life to be good, but then what is a good life? I'd add a ! mark to that question if I didn't hate that combination of punctuation marks! I want to cry or something but have no idea what is happening or why I would do that. I know this sounds stupid, I mean man. It just feels like I literally know nothing about ****ing anything.
