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[DTK.L]

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This is my first blog in years..Time sure does fly by eh..*Sigh* I used to be a lot of things. I used to be smart (Something my family believes)I used to be fun person, I used to be a carefree kid, I used to have no fears. But now i don't have anything worth thinking of that makes me feel like i have any worth in myself Yeah. i probably do sound like another one of those emo kids writing blogs because they can't deal with life and it's hardships but right now i feel like im more than that i feel like im losing every bit of knowing who i once was my image is fading. i once had my friends refer to me as "The true cool friend" And im still ever the loyal friend you can count on but i just don't know whats happening now. I just turned 18 in September and my friends along with me have turned 18 also And it's fine and all but now the time for us to leave each other is drawing closer and it creates the heaviest of fears just knowing that my closest friends are leaving and the thought of actually losing them almost makes me have a heart attack. I keep digging this hole of failure for myself without reason and without trying to find a way to surface it's just such a pain to think of anything now this hole might be where i get buried..who knows...I have to keep looking forward my time is wasting and it's time i wake up from this nightmare.

(Sorry if i sounded too annoying or emo i just needed to vent.I never show any emotions on the boards so you'll never know how i feel until i post another blog)

 

[SuperBowser]

Time is relentless and time keeps moving. You may as well adapt. You'll make new friends.

If you have good friends you'll stay in contact. I've kept in contact with nearly all my school friends - I still have 3 hour conversations with them on skype, I still play online games with them, some come over for a weekend during term time and we'll always meet up in holidays.

Do we talk less now? Sure. Are we different people now? Without a doubt. But that's how life is sometimes.

 

[Jim Morrison]

Do you have money?

Oh and also, if feel like you're wasting time, look for a place to do some volunteer work. You never know what happens.

 

[highfive]

EEEMMMOOOOO

C'mon. Your 18. You should be in what? College? Yeah. Well, It's obvious your friends will change. If your studying for a different career it's certain that things will change. That's life.

 

[Mota]

I went through something like this not to long ago, but you get over it.

You're still smart, back then the school work was basic, as you progress of course things are bound to get more complex and hence you find yourself struggling and out of your comfort zone. Just gotta work at it (Maths ).

As a young'un everyone is carefree, kids didn't care or didn't realise how people viewed them. As you get older, responsibilities are given and you mature. You have choices to make, pressure, expectations. Suddenly you can't just go being carefree, just chilling with mates as much as you used too

Chances are you won't keep in contact with 80% of your high school friends, the only reason your 'friends' with them in the first place is due to having to see them everyday.
Make new fiends, keep in contact with true friends and not acquaintances.

 

[DTK.L]

Time is relentless and time keeps moving. You may as well adapt. You'll make new friends.

If you have good friends you'll stay in contact. I've kept in contact with nearly all my school friends - I still have 3 hour conversations with them on skype, I still play online games with them, some come over for a weekend during term time and we'll always meet up in holidays.

Do we talk less now? Sure. Are we different people now? Without a doubt. But that's how life is sometimes.

Yeah..i've learned these lessons too long ago but just knowing and not applying it to life isn't really practing what i preach >_>

Do you have money?

Oh and also, if feel like you're wasting time, look for a place to do some volunteer work. You never know what happens.

Yeah this sounds like a good idea anything could happen when you do good deeds

EEEMMMOOOOO

C'mon. Your 18. You should be in what? College? Yeah. Well, It's obvious your friends will change. If your studying for a different career it's certain that things will change. That's life.

Thanks highfive that made me feel alot more better...>_>

I went through something like this not to long ago, but you get over it.

You're still smart, back then the school work was basic, as you progress of course things are bound to get more complex and hence you find yourself struggling and out of your comfort zone. Just gotta work at it (Maths ).

As a young'un everyone is carefree, kids didn't care or didn't realise how people viewed them. As you get older, responsibilities are given and you mature. You have choices to make, pressure, expectations. Suddenly you can't just go being carefree, just chilling with mates as much as you used too

Chances are you won't keep in contact with 80% of your high school friends, the only reason your 'friends' with them in the first place is due to having to see them everyday.
Make new fiends, keep in contact with true friends and not acquaintances.

I know im intelligent and more things but just because i have a younger sister who was in honor roll for her first year in middle school she compares us both and plays the favorite game and im always in last place.

To me my family isn't exactly the most motivation people in my life, My friends have helped me with alot more than i can remember and made me feel like if they can do things then i can too. They're the only bearable source of fun out here in this boring hell hole and now that we're all moving away for school it just seems like i have a long way to go now that life begins here.

I go through this with alot of friends even the ones i make here on SWF im just a friendly person is all...Maybe too friendly

 

[kirbywizard]

Yeah..i've learned these lessons too long ago but just knowing and not applying it to life isn't really practing what i preach >_>



Yeah this sounds like a good idea anything could happen when you do good deeds



Thanks highfive that made me feel alot more better...>_>


I know im intelligent and more things but just because i have a younger sister who was in honor roll for her first year in middle school she compares us both and plays the favorite game and im always in last place.

To me my family isn't exactly the most motivation people in my life, My friends have helped me with alot more than i can remember and made me feel like if they can do things then i can too. They're the only bearable source of fun out here in this boring hell hole and now that we're all moving away for school it just seems like i have a long way to go now that life begins here.

I go through this with alot of friends even the ones i make here on SWF im just a friendly person is all...Maybe too friendly

From my experiences Friends > Family. Family can make you feel even worse about anything then a horrible friend. Also I would try to ignore your sister since your like what 18 now, and you'll probably see less of her. I have a sister that has always beaten me at almost everything (except Video Games which is rather pathetic. When I compare myself to her I feel so worthless. . . . .

Your 18 so there's a good chance you'll make even more life long friends as you head into the future. And besides if you want to see them so bad when they move away there is always Facebook, and Skype as options.