Kotastic
Smash Ace
grimer??
anyways, I attended a tournament today and felt something I have never felt before that is very alarming to me. I just...everything felt forced. The entire tournament, I felt like I was doing all automatic things. There was no adrenaline, mindful thinking, the intense will to win, appreciation of being there, none of that. Just mostly apathetic thoughts. As I left the tournament, it all felt bland to me.
I'm pretty sure that the main reason why I've been feeling this lately is because I seriously got into tetris this past weekend. Just something about it made me feel similar things as to why I got into Melee, which is...it just feels nice. Literally the past 2 days I spent 12+ hours just grinding setups. 0 for Melee. And from that intense motivation to grind Tetris, it's almost like the motivation got transferred from Melee and now it feels kind of hollow.
Thing is, deep down I still love Melee. I want to stick with it long-term, but right now I feel like soft-retiring from the game because all I want to do is grind this other game until I get really really good, which could easily take thousands of hours to do. I wouldn't say for now I truly love tetris yet, but it might get there. This actually happened before with AAA titles with a series I was seriously invested in, but at least it's a 50 hour game max whereas tetris can easily be endless. I've been thinking that perhaps I should set my goals smaller for tetris and be satisfied with it forever, but I'm not sure.
I don't think I want to retire from Melee long-term, but I sure do feel like it right now. Any inputs to get my fire back?
anyways, I attended a tournament today and felt something I have never felt before that is very alarming to me. I just...everything felt forced. The entire tournament, I felt like I was doing all automatic things. There was no adrenaline, mindful thinking, the intense will to win, appreciation of being there, none of that. Just mostly apathetic thoughts. As I left the tournament, it all felt bland to me.
I'm pretty sure that the main reason why I've been feeling this lately is because I seriously got into tetris this past weekend. Just something about it made me feel similar things as to why I got into Melee, which is...it just feels nice. Literally the past 2 days I spent 12+ hours just grinding setups. 0 for Melee. And from that intense motivation to grind Tetris, it's almost like the motivation got transferred from Melee and now it feels kind of hollow.
Thing is, deep down I still love Melee. I want to stick with it long-term, but right now I feel like soft-retiring from the game because all I want to do is grind this other game until I get really really good, which could easily take thousands of hours to do. I wouldn't say for now I truly love tetris yet, but it might get there. This actually happened before with AAA titles with a series I was seriously invested in, but at least it's a 50 hour game max whereas tetris can easily be endless. I've been thinking that perhaps I should set my goals smaller for tetris and be satisfied with it forever, but I'm not sure.
I don't think I want to retire from Melee long-term, but I sure do feel like it right now. Any inputs to get my fire back?