XFadingNirvanaX

Yeah, my boyfriend has to work and my friends are being lazy so I'm just "=__="

Unfortunately, I can't.

I'm doing bored. -.-

what did i do lol?

*Points to the chat*

I told you that you were cute. >___>

Luke o'ramma! sup mangzsta? I'm doin good, been chillin with th gf mainly, my job kinda laid me off..... thats kinda a bummer, but atleast I'm not dead : D lol thats a pretty slick lookin profile pic, corporate yet still very dignified, this is just what I've been looking for to send you a little something, enjoy!

*Points at picy* o.o...Yay!

My emo days. rofl. I'm shooting my head XDD

Lmfao .

Why do you have to ask? PMs are meant for private discussion. You can share with me about anything and you know that, Luke.

Why do people keep asking me that?

I don't remember being sick or down or anything. lololol

I am many things...

Yeppers :D

Seeya . <3

Hell, I don't blame you. 25¢ is an amazing deal.

25¢ thongs! Now at ~Kawaii Bunny~! Hurry before they're all gone!

Why are we all pink? ;-;

LOOOOLL your name kinda does look like a sign at a gay bar in pink. xDDD

April Fool's Day pranks. <.<

Lol, thanks. That guy in the red is Boobie. xD

How are you? :3

Plot twist. XDDDDDDDDD

Luke is a cutie imo. :]

Is that a reference to a movie, or does that mean your track team chief cut you some slack? lololol

Hey... sorry you haven't been feeling up to par lately from what I read. =/ But it's good to see you again. It doesn't seem we come across eachother too often anymore.

**** straight. Good night. Think the better thoughts and you'll do fine. Any troubles and your report it to me or anyone else. :D

Just take this:

I took the time to read your entire wall message. I dont want you to think that I am only saying I care for you because I dont want you to hurt yourself in anyway. You are a part of the group, Luke. Things will get so much better if you kept away from the negative side of things. I am not saying that you have to talk alot, but we need to know what is on your mind from time to time. You cant be so quick to announce you have no friends. We are here, and you just have to call on us. We may not be able to right away, but I do hope you understand.

I havent heard from him recently. He was doing exams and what not, so he may be busy.

But Luke, I dont want you to think that we never understood your feelings. Most of us know that you are going through a mental issue, we all do at some point. That is why I left in the first place.

But sometimes, you just gotta breakthrough. It is easier said than done, evidently. But nobody is going to change you but yourself. Encouraging helps, but in the end it will be you who makes the difference. You need to start looking on the bright side of things.

I don't care if my tone sounds harsh. I'm being like this because I love you as a little brother, but you cant distant yourself from your friends and act like you dont have any if you need help.


You may not want to hear this, but you are a friend of mine, and friends help each other. Screw the internet. I'm there for you in spirit.

Yeah, I guess it is. xD

Yeah I guess, lol. No use crying over something that happened a week ago. <3

Dude, luke, I've always wanted to be there for you man, help you, be that guy friend you could come to with your problems and just talk it out, I recently been undergoing a few hurdles in life of my own, so I must apologize for not being around when you needed someone the most, you have every right to feel needy, close human companionship is something everyone "NEEDS" Thats right, it's a necessity, I know I'm just "that guy from online" but I look out for my friends and dude, if there is anything, anything at all you wanna chat about, PM me, AIM me, VM me, do what ever you have to, I'll always be right here. Chin up dude, your really quite the cool guy, the kind of dude I would easily befriend if I knew you IRL. Peace man.

. . . <3

I don't know why I'm writing this, needy I guess. Maybe I just need to feel more sorry for myself. I don't need to cause any more drama with Karina almost leaving recently anyways. But it's fine. No one will read this anyway.

I don't know how to say it, except to just say it. I have problems. Emotional and mental. Basically deep depression. And it's getting worse. I don't want this to sound like some kind of f*cking "I'm sorry I never told you about it, i lied to you all and I'm sorry so let's all be friends again ^_____^" crap. F*ck that. I never really hid it, really because all the friends i made the past year made me happy and that kind of blocked it out..

because whenever I talked to friends on here I felt happy...not like i felt irl. But lately now I've been feeling the same way i do online as in irl. basically lonely, worthless, and having no one i can really talk to about something personal, to open up to. I don't have that irl. Knowing that makes me want to leave.

I've been depressed since well...middle school I guess. Family problems and sh*t. and my childhood. It wasn't bad but, it was missing somethings. I can't really remeber being personally very close to anyone in my family, because when i got to 6th grade I "went emo".* i wasnt really emo but didn't talk to anyone* at school i didnt talk toanyonend had next to none friends. Whenever someone tried to talk to me, I'd just respond sayig one or two words. I did it because....I felt like I wasn't good enough for anyone. I felt like i didnt fit in with the rest of the world. And in my family I kinda didn't have a lot of people to talk to. It was around then too that my family sorta "split up". I don't really wanna talk about it....but in a nutshell, when i started blocking myself off from people, i lost all my social skills, forgot any memories i had with being close w/ my family, and lost all of my self respect and self-esteem.

I'm depressed, but i hate saying it because i sound....needy i guess. i feel like i say it just to get people to say something positive about me. But, it doesnt change the fact that it's true...I just cant really accept myself either. I can't accept how i am and i have to change myself. So really, I hate myself...a lot. It's gotten bad...I've literally had a knife in my hand wanting to do it but being afraid to, I've punched myself up causing huge headaches...but it hasn't gottn that bad in the past months thankfully. I can't accept me....I cant even say why i cant accept myse;f. it hurts too much. I just see myself as pathetic....I do not that great in school, i suck at sports, i've never had a gf...hell, today i ran the mile at school and did terrible,10:35. I threw up a little after it too....great confidence booster. and i get to do it again wednesday....

There's a sh*t more for me to write but, this is depressing enough as it is. Sorry...

Nuuu...dont leave....

I loves you, Luke

Then wtf am I? D:<

I have no friends.

Sick baztard

Awww. J'adore tu, Luke.

Hi ^^, lol btw np, its stephanie :D Anywaz so how ya been?