Proverbs
Smash Lord
Link to original post: [drupal=1198]Why do I even bother?[/drupal]
Yeah, I'm talking about that same girl. If you don't want to hear it. You don't have to. There's a link right above this that says 'User Blogs'. Go click that to find something more worthwhile.
So yeah. I'm kinda depressed/annoyed. Nothing bad happened or anything. In fact, there's even a good chance this girl does or will like me. But it hit me the other day, I'm probably not going to get married to this girl.
Now that sounds like a very childish way of looking at it, but let me ask you: What's the point of me pursuing her if there's no real chance for that? And--sure 'anything is possible', but let's be realistic here. I'm a freshman in college. It's not so unrealistic as if I were still in high school, but most people I'm sure would say that nothing will probably come of this relationship. Understand that the reason I was pursuing her was because I considered it a realistic possibility.
Now, if there's no possibility, or even probability of that happening, why in the world am I pursuing this girl? I should just give up. Save myself the heartache. I know I'm going to really like her, so what's the point if it's not going to fully bloom? Or will it? Should I go in and say "Because there is a possibility, I will pursue this to its fullest extent, so that I may have no regrets"? Or am I even being pessimistic in saying that there's no possibility? I don't know. My heart is so messed up right now. Or not messed up--but I realized I'm putting way too much stock in Kristen.
I hate this. I kind of never want to get into a relationship ever again now. It just makes me feel like every time I find someone I like, everyone's telling me "It's unrealistic for you two to get married." Which is in essence saying, "You're stupid. Nothing will ever come from this." If that's the case--why the heck do I have feelings for this girl? Or any girl for that matter? It always seems to be the case that it's foolish and purposeless.
So what do I do here? I've got a great girl that I think I will definitely start liking if I let myself, but I feel like I've already put too much stock in this relationship when not a lot's happened.
Am I just being retardedly idealistic as usual? Or am I being pessimistic and not seeing that this is worth it?
I just don't even know how to handle these things anymore. I plan on calling a friend today to work these things out, but I wanted everyone here's opinion.
What point is there for relationships if you know it's probably just going to dissolve into heartache?
Yeah, I'm talking about that same girl. If you don't want to hear it. You don't have to. There's a link right above this that says 'User Blogs'. Go click that to find something more worthwhile.
So yeah. I'm kinda depressed/annoyed. Nothing bad happened or anything. In fact, there's even a good chance this girl does or will like me. But it hit me the other day, I'm probably not going to get married to this girl.
Now that sounds like a very childish way of looking at it, but let me ask you: What's the point of me pursuing her if there's no real chance for that? And--sure 'anything is possible', but let's be realistic here. I'm a freshman in college. It's not so unrealistic as if I were still in high school, but most people I'm sure would say that nothing will probably come of this relationship. Understand that the reason I was pursuing her was because I considered it a realistic possibility.
Now, if there's no possibility, or even probability of that happening, why in the world am I pursuing this girl? I should just give up. Save myself the heartache. I know I'm going to really like her, so what's the point if it's not going to fully bloom? Or will it? Should I go in and say "Because there is a possibility, I will pursue this to its fullest extent, so that I may have no regrets"? Or am I even being pessimistic in saying that there's no possibility? I don't know. My heart is so messed up right now. Or not messed up--but I realized I'm putting way too much stock in Kristen.
I hate this. I kind of never want to get into a relationship ever again now. It just makes me feel like every time I find someone I like, everyone's telling me "It's unrealistic for you two to get married." Which is in essence saying, "You're stupid. Nothing will ever come from this." If that's the case--why the heck do I have feelings for this girl? Or any girl for that matter? It always seems to be the case that it's foolish and purposeless.
So what do I do here? I've got a great girl that I think I will definitely start liking if I let myself, but I feel like I've already put too much stock in this relationship when not a lot's happened.
Am I just being retardedly idealistic as usual? Or am I being pessimistic and not seeing that this is worth it?
I just don't even know how to handle these things anymore. I plan on calling a friend today to work these things out, but I wanted everyone here's opinion.
What point is there for relationships if you know it's probably just going to dissolve into heartache?