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No.Are they just as real as IRL relationships or not.
Apologies in advanced if this seems rude, but I will say, that was quite overwhelming.It's a band aid on a gaping wound.
For me personally, I needed real people. I need to hug someone and bury my head in their chest and tell them that I'm very miserable and suicide doesn't seem that bad on an every other day basis. I cry myself to sleep at night on most days hugging my pillow because I have debt and I don't have a solid job. When I wake up around six in the morning, I drove around for hours looking for work to pay off my debt but couldn't find anything that would meet my rent and loan requirement.
I used to work two jobs which involved waking up around 7 and working part time 8am to 2pm and then working my full time job around 3pm to 11pm. Then I tried to study for an advancement degree in the off hours. I lived with two college students for a period of time on state university campus as a third roommate, even though it had been awhile since I graduated. I barely had money left over to feed myself, much less purchase any luxury items to take the pain off. Sometimes I'd just stockpile on breakfast three times a day because it was the cheapest meal despite me being fully aware that my fatigue and poor physical condition was completely garbage because of it.
At this point in my life I was disowned by my family. I had an e-companion who would flirt often and we would trade sext messages and encourage each other. The other two roommates were never at home and always had their doors locked so I never interacted with them considering my hours of work. Like most e-companions the relationship did not last after the initial infatuation phase wore off. I had no one to turn to and there was a day where I just walked out in a t-shirt in the middle of the pouring rain hoping to catch hypothermia and to just die as a miserable human being on the side of an abandoned bus stop.
I tried it. However, after wasting about an hour and a half I realized that I had to wake up at 7 again the next day and it was already 3 in the morning and if I was somehow rescued or wasn't guaranteed to die, then I would wake up in a hospital with more bills than I could afford and also probably end up with a life long impairment that I couldn't hope to possibly cope with in anyway possible. As time passed on I made with my parents for real. I never forgave them for the longest time, until it just came to a point where I realized that as much as I didn't trust these people, these people did stand by me and supported me to the point where I couldn't love them.
I still worked two jobs until recently. A big change in my life happened which involves me making the riskiest decision of my life where failure will lead me into roughly $350,00k+ in debt if I fail at any stage during this process. However, making it through this four year hurdle means I will be roughly making around $150,000 in gross income on a yearly basis. I don't have faith in myself, I am nervous, crying, and afraid every single day. I still go to bed crying and nervous to the point where I stare at the ceiling for two hours before I pass out from exhaustion. I am doing the work required, however I feel like I barely manage to meet my deadlines and everyone else competing against me has weeks, months, or years on me.
Perhaps, I am unique in the sense that I have accepted that I have a mild case of depression that won't go away. That I did honestly attempt the most gradual form of suicide that would allow me to pull out at any moment. And that I simply wanted a momentary break from the acute pain I was feeling and not the cessation of life in its entirety.
This post isn't focused about internet girlfriends. Internet girlfriends are a band aid solution and that is why I am attempting to share my story because I think you are an emotional person like me who is burdening a bit too much weight for what you should be handling at the moment. I believe you can keep shouldering that burden, but it will turn you into someone like me. Someone who went through a lot of life taking pride in the fact that his suffering was his own, but he was shouldering all on his own shoulders. I could not do it alone, I broke off the chain of isolation that was dragging me down. I think that you should consider what is really holding you down and try to find a genuine solution for it.
I am not a religious person, but I will pray for you tonight. God bless.
That unfortunately does happen, but only to naive, younger, new-to-the-internet types of people. I will elaborate on that more later.seems unsafe if anything. sounds like a stalking ground for rapists and pedophiles IMO