A_man13
Smash Master
Link to original post: [drupal=3160]To Smash or not to Smash[/drupal]
Alright, NO this is not some crazy wacko Hamlet ripoff in which Hamlet is really Mario, Claudius is really the ever wicked and always doing boarderline illegal things Meta Knight, and blah blah blah (though that would be interesting). This was just an idea that I was wrestling with and just need to put this in text.
For starters, I may as well give some background info. I joined SWF about the time brawl came out hoping that I'd be able to improve my ability (and, if I wasn't going to be playing Pokemon competetivly, this was my next option). It took me maybe about to my first KO to realize that I was going to suck and have very little shot of improving. This turned out to be true as, even to this day, winning is almost a downright improbability in a competetive field and I've only improved slightly from then until today. After a while, I got sick of trying and, for one reason or another, found myself at the artwork emporium. There, I was inspired seeing all of these great GFX artists and, within about a week, set up a sig shop making signatures for the masses. It took maybe getting that first request done to invigorate me, but once it did my time on here jumped up tenfold. It was pretty much every second of every day not spent at school or doing homework. My parents, while not enthralled that I was back in the hole I had dug myself into with the pokemon, did enjoy the fact that I was not playing video games all the time and actually doing something with somewhat of a real world value.
It was not such a big deal until I hit the school year. My grades, while usually very strong, did not start out at such a peak and, instead, they were average. I forgot assignments, I didn't study much for tests, all of it just piled up in front of me. I knew I spent too much time on here, but I couldn't stop. I admitably have an obsessive personallity as in, if my mind is dead set on something, I'll do it until the day I die if I was let be. However, on the same note there was nothing besides school and family beconing me out of my hole. I've skipped two grades in school and, while I'd say I have a close group of friends, a majority of the people I socialize with get assignment help from me durring school and usually cut their association the second school is over. And even with that close group of friends, I live far away from my high school, have no relyable form of transportation to and from that neighborhood (I'm only 15), and the closest being who was even near my age was my brother (who is as much addicted to shooting games, history, and football as I hate shooters, history, and football). GFX and smash quickly filled the void, but my responsabilities started to suffer as a result.
For those of you who might have known me back then, you probably knew that I took my leave around this time last year. In case you guys were wondering why I quit here, AiB, chats, and all of that, here's why; my grades had dropped down to a critical level. The same day I quit, I had just missed a correction deadline for a paper that I did meh on and I knew that I had forgot. In addition, there was a lot of presentations that, for one reason or another, made me feel guilty for letting SWF consume me. Not only that, but that was the first time the Custom Pokemon Shop (Nowerdays Poket monsters Inc., but the shop's posts are still there) closed down; an event of which I feel was one of the main causes of. All of this happened within a 24 hour period and, after a brief time to think about it, I removed all favorites that were related to my obsessions, cleared the saved passwords, and deleted all the remnants from that year.
Now, here is where the issue is starting to come into play; recently I've been getting back into smash and, just this weekend, I logged back in for the first time in about a year. I still suck as bad as I used to, but it's nice to see some of the old faces from way back when. While this weekend has been fun, I do not want to start neglecting responsabilities over a game. It destroyed me last time to try and juggle two different passions that, frankly, I could not get to cooperate, but at the same time Brawl and GFX are two things I'm passionate about. I hate to create that disconect between my real life and this, but at the same time what besides schoolwork and family am I really missing if I stay active? Should I continue doing something that I am super pasionate about but, frankly, would at best get me $50 assuming I actually become good and otherwise have no positive affects on my future or should I go back to my dull dull life and not let my schoolwork drop? I tried last time to coinside the two, but I know it won't work. One might say that I need to go back to normal every day life, but cutting the many friendships was hard before when I actually had a reason and not pre-empted reasons like I do now. Is the fun I have and would have had here worth sacrificing my grades for? Will I want to re-insert myself in the community at a later date because I love SSBB (and, to appease the plague of comments that this may bring up, SSBM) and quitting those games all together would be an imposibility (and for every match I'm playing "with anyone" battle is one match more I want to play with a competent opponent)? To smash or not to smash; that is the question.
Thanks for reading this horribly lengthy post. Stare at signature if you were expecting GFX in the post like the others have.
Alright, NO this is not some crazy wacko Hamlet ripoff in which Hamlet is really Mario, Claudius is really the ever wicked and always doing boarderline illegal things Meta Knight, and blah blah blah (though that would be interesting). This was just an idea that I was wrestling with and just need to put this in text.
For starters, I may as well give some background info. I joined SWF about the time brawl came out hoping that I'd be able to improve my ability (and, if I wasn't going to be playing Pokemon competetivly, this was my next option). It took me maybe about to my first KO to realize that I was going to suck and have very little shot of improving. This turned out to be true as, even to this day, winning is almost a downright improbability in a competetive field and I've only improved slightly from then until today. After a while, I got sick of trying and, for one reason or another, found myself at the artwork emporium. There, I was inspired seeing all of these great GFX artists and, within about a week, set up a sig shop making signatures for the masses. It took maybe getting that first request done to invigorate me, but once it did my time on here jumped up tenfold. It was pretty much every second of every day not spent at school or doing homework. My parents, while not enthralled that I was back in the hole I had dug myself into with the pokemon, did enjoy the fact that I was not playing video games all the time and actually doing something with somewhat of a real world value.
It was not such a big deal until I hit the school year. My grades, while usually very strong, did not start out at such a peak and, instead, they were average. I forgot assignments, I didn't study much for tests, all of it just piled up in front of me. I knew I spent too much time on here, but I couldn't stop. I admitably have an obsessive personallity as in, if my mind is dead set on something, I'll do it until the day I die if I was let be. However, on the same note there was nothing besides school and family beconing me out of my hole. I've skipped two grades in school and, while I'd say I have a close group of friends, a majority of the people I socialize with get assignment help from me durring school and usually cut their association the second school is over. And even with that close group of friends, I live far away from my high school, have no relyable form of transportation to and from that neighborhood (I'm only 15), and the closest being who was even near my age was my brother (who is as much addicted to shooting games, history, and football as I hate shooters, history, and football). GFX and smash quickly filled the void, but my responsabilities started to suffer as a result.
For those of you who might have known me back then, you probably knew that I took my leave around this time last year. In case you guys were wondering why I quit here, AiB, chats, and all of that, here's why; my grades had dropped down to a critical level. The same day I quit, I had just missed a correction deadline for a paper that I did meh on and I knew that I had forgot. In addition, there was a lot of presentations that, for one reason or another, made me feel guilty for letting SWF consume me. Not only that, but that was the first time the Custom Pokemon Shop (Nowerdays Poket monsters Inc., but the shop's posts are still there) closed down; an event of which I feel was one of the main causes of. All of this happened within a 24 hour period and, after a brief time to think about it, I removed all favorites that were related to my obsessions, cleared the saved passwords, and deleted all the remnants from that year.
Now, here is where the issue is starting to come into play; recently I've been getting back into smash and, just this weekend, I logged back in for the first time in about a year. I still suck as bad as I used to, but it's nice to see some of the old faces from way back when. While this weekend has been fun, I do not want to start neglecting responsabilities over a game. It destroyed me last time to try and juggle two different passions that, frankly, I could not get to cooperate, but at the same time Brawl and GFX are two things I'm passionate about. I hate to create that disconect between my real life and this, but at the same time what besides schoolwork and family am I really missing if I stay active? Should I continue doing something that I am super pasionate about but, frankly, would at best get me $50 assuming I actually become good and otherwise have no positive affects on my future or should I go back to my dull dull life and not let my schoolwork drop? I tried last time to coinside the two, but I know it won't work. One might say that I need to go back to normal every day life, but cutting the many friendships was hard before when I actually had a reason and not pre-empted reasons like I do now. Is the fun I have and would have had here worth sacrificing my grades for? Will I want to re-insert myself in the community at a later date because I love SSBB (and, to appease the plague of comments that this may bring up, SSBM) and quitting those games all together would be an imposibility (and for every match I'm playing "with anyone" battle is one match more I want to play with a competent opponent)? To smash or not to smash; that is the question.
Thanks for reading this horribly lengthy post. Stare at signature if you were expecting GFX in the post like the others have.
