Seikend
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And I mean very dumb.
I see myself as a very level-headed guy. No intentions of being arrogant, but I feel like I've got a good handle on things, and I'm reasonably smart. However, I've fallen into the same old trap that everyone falls into at one point or another, and no one learns from.
That's right, it's another blog about that L word. (No, not lesbians).
Love.
Please, feel welcome to stop reading now. This story goes very cliché places and it's fairly uninteresting. In fact, I guarantee that every person has thought this ridiculous notion at some point, and for someone to devote a blog to the topic might make you sick to the stomach. I am not responsible for any bodily harm you may cause yourself through reading the rest. You have been warned.
This is mostly for my benefit, but hey. Someone else might find it interesting, or at least get a chuckle.
Let me give you a brief summary of the scenario, so I can get to the real meat of the situation.
I'm an 18 year old male, no job, no prospects. Young, naïve and plain stupid.
It's a long distance relationship, of about 8 months. We've met a few times, it's not purely internet based shenanigans.
I'm head over heels, and I'm very aware of this. I know that I'm far too attached, and it's getting in the way of my personal stuff.
I'm at my first year of University, he will be starting next year. I feel like dropping out of university at the end of the year, and moving to whether he is, and getting a job there. This is a feeling I've had for a good while. I know that this is incredibly dumb. My education is important, instead of following some dream that may or may not come true. If our relationship doesn't work out, I am very simply ****ed. I know that I'd be throwing a golden opportunity in my education.
But even with all this rationalising, history showing this tends to end badly and that y'know, it's clearly a plain dumb idea,I can't shake off the feeling.
I think in times like this, we need to do the stupid. Take the plunge, minimise our losses and learn from our mistakes. I'd rather do this incredibly dumb thing, and know how it'll turn out, than just ignore it with the constant thoughts of “If” and “Maybe” in my head.
So thankfully, I won't be taking the “follow your heart” method. That is doomed to end in failure. I'm going to approach it in a rational manner and as such I'm going to have to find out how much I'll lose out by doing it. I'm uncertain of how easy it is to get back into education in Scotland, or if I'd be capable of getting job that is enough to live on based on my current level of education. I think I'll be spending a couple of months researching and questioning both scenarios, and weighing them out.
And who knows, maybe the feelings will just dissipate within a few months and this blog will have been pointless.
I'll look back to this blog in a couple of years and read the comments and think, “Y'know, those guys were right, I really was a tool for writing all that”.
I see myself as a very level-headed guy. No intentions of being arrogant, but I feel like I've got a good handle on things, and I'm reasonably smart. However, I've fallen into the same old trap that everyone falls into at one point or another, and no one learns from.
That's right, it's another blog about that L word. (No, not lesbians).
Love.
Please, feel welcome to stop reading now. This story goes very cliché places and it's fairly uninteresting. In fact, I guarantee that every person has thought this ridiculous notion at some point, and for someone to devote a blog to the topic might make you sick to the stomach. I am not responsible for any bodily harm you may cause yourself through reading the rest. You have been warned.
This is mostly for my benefit, but hey. Someone else might find it interesting, or at least get a chuckle.
Let me give you a brief summary of the scenario, so I can get to the real meat of the situation.
I'm an 18 year old male, no job, no prospects. Young, naïve and plain stupid.
It's a long distance relationship, of about 8 months. We've met a few times, it's not purely internet based shenanigans.
I'm head over heels, and I'm very aware of this. I know that I'm far too attached, and it's getting in the way of my personal stuff.
I'm at my first year of University, he will be starting next year. I feel like dropping out of university at the end of the year, and moving to whether he is, and getting a job there. This is a feeling I've had for a good while. I know that this is incredibly dumb. My education is important, instead of following some dream that may or may not come true. If our relationship doesn't work out, I am very simply ****ed. I know that I'd be throwing a golden opportunity in my education.
But even with all this rationalising, history showing this tends to end badly and that y'know, it's clearly a plain dumb idea,I can't shake off the feeling.
I think in times like this, we need to do the stupid. Take the plunge, minimise our losses and learn from our mistakes. I'd rather do this incredibly dumb thing, and know how it'll turn out, than just ignore it with the constant thoughts of “If” and “Maybe” in my head.
So thankfully, I won't be taking the “follow your heart” method. That is doomed to end in failure. I'm going to approach it in a rational manner and as such I'm going to have to find out how much I'll lose out by doing it. I'm uncertain of how easy it is to get back into education in Scotland, or if I'd be capable of getting job that is enough to live on based on my current level of education. I think I'll be spending a couple of months researching and questioning both scenarios, and weighing them out.
And who knows, maybe the feelings will just dissipate within a few months and this blog will have been pointless.
I'll look back to this blog in a couple of years and read the comments and think, “Y'know, those guys were right, I really was a tool for writing all that”.
