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Smash Hero
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Response to http://allisbrawl.com/blogpost.aspx?id=17907
My name, my self, is David Alan Barnes. I go to Parkland High School in Allentown, Pennsylvania. Pleased to me [you]. I'm around 5 foot, 4 inches, I think. I'm good at Math and English, but not Science and History. I like video games, my favorite color is orange, not yellow and black. I like cats more than dogs even though I have a dog, I'm a pervert, and I'm scared of heights.
Why did you create your gamer tag?
Well, it went through a series of tags. My first internet community was http://www.gamewinners.com/forums. I'm still there and go by `GwJumpman (GwJumpman got banned because I said Tiers are for Queers back in like December...). I started out as Lostinmario, which is a mix between the game "Lost in Blue" which I really loved, and Mario as I was a big Mario fanboy (not so much nowadays) back then. From there, I think I moved up to I like Bacon. That was just stupid, don't ask. After that was Mr. Nintendo. That lasted for a good few months until I changed it AGAIN to D-Killer (My other Alias on some sites, including this one), which I'm still attached to. I don't know why but I still like that name. I started to get a feel for my name after this. I changed it to Jumpman for like a year, then GwJumpman. The Gw in my names stands for GameWinners. The Jumpman stands for, well Jumpman from the Donkey Kong game, not Mario. The Gw is a tribute to my first and hopefully longlasting community which I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.
If anyone from GW is reading this, love you guys.
Why did you create your gamer?
I created my "gamer" because I wanted to be my true self without others knowing who I was. This is a bit personal, but I was a completely person when I was able to be myself. You know, when people don't know WHO you are, you don't have to worry too much on what you say. You can be honest and true, you can be a **** or *******, you can be yourself fully and truly. That is why I created my "gamer". Typing that gave me a wave of emotion, I'm not quite sure what emotion, seems like a mix of sadness and the feeling of hanging with a really hot girl. Weird. Anoniminity online is a great and powerful thing. Without it, you won't know you who are. Unless you are the absolute most outgoing person you can be, you will not know who you are. Without the ability to conceal your identity you will absolutely be missing out on a personal part of yourself. Unfortunately for myself...that is gone. I sort of regret it. I really miss being able to be myself and I can't remember the last time I posted something on any site that was completely personal because people I know can read what I post. My friends from Gamewinners went from people giving me advice on gaming and personal things to real friends that I talk to, and you know, that's the part of this that I don't regret. I suppose another reason as to why I created my "gamer" was because I have a low self-esteem. I feel comfortable around people who I consider real friends and in casual situations sometimes, but I'm sure my friends (one of which is also here) could vouch for me, that even though they wouldn't want to hurt my feelings or something of the sort, that I do have a low self-esteem. They wouldn't want to tell me, but they know. I created it, because I was and sometimes am afraid of how others would think of me for posting certain things and if they would tell anyone, almost like a minor sense of paranoia. My "gamer" is more of me than I am. If you compared my "gamer" personality to my real life personality, my "gamer" personality is me. My real life personality is not me and not who I want to be. There's things I want to do, things I wish I should not have done, things I wish I could apologize for, things I wish I could say, things I was I didn't say; there things I do in real life that I would do or wouldn't do if I was able to be myself. If I could have the world my way, no one would have to wear clothes, talk in correct grammar, do certain things, and whathaveyou. I wish everyone in the world was who they are; their bare selves without the coverups of the media, society, pressure, and religion. Another thing is my true feelings. I'm much more honest online than I am offline. Some things I say in real life is complete bull****, but if I say what I truly feel, it would affect me in such a way, my life wouldn't be the same. Some others' wouldn't be the same either. But again, we (people) are masked by the false features of life. We are not in our bare and true selves. It's like that one guy who tries to play the game fairly, while everyone else pretends to and the guy looks like a complete idiot and loses the game because he trusted everyone else he just got stabbed in the back. Life is a game, unfortunately, and like a game, others win, others lose. If it was up to me, it wouldn't matter who wins or who loses, there wouldn't be a game at all. Life would be like an MMORPG without skills. I made my "gamer" because I want to be who I am.
Why did you redefine yourself, and join this community?
When I joined the smash community, I didn't think I would go to a tournament, I didn't think I would actually meet and becomes friends with people from the online community. I didn't think I would actually get along with some people more than I do with some people in real life. I really appreciate what the Gamewinners and Smash community has done to and for me. The only reason I joined this community was because I like Smash bros. That's it, the bare truth. Although, from my love of this game, I received some my by-products that I really do appreciate. I got friends, and I've been more honest with some people I met here than I have been with a lot of other people I know on a more personal level. I still can't, and probably will never be able to, be completely honest with anybody, because of the game of life.
This truly is hard to write. I could shed a tear or two if I wanted to, but my parents are in the same room as me and I don't feel like being questioned as to why I'm "crying", but writing this was very emotional, but I recommend everybody who reads this and Sky's blog to do one too. It's a self-enlightening experience.
Peace.
Response to http://allisbrawl.com/blogpost.aspx?id=17907
My name, my self, is David Alan Barnes. I go to Parkland High School in Allentown, Pennsylvania. Pleased to me [you]. I'm around 5 foot, 4 inches, I think. I'm good at Math and English, but not Science and History. I like video games, my favorite color is orange, not yellow and black. I like cats more than dogs even though I have a dog, I'm a pervert, and I'm scared of heights.
Why did you create your gamer tag?
Well, it went through a series of tags. My first internet community was http://www.gamewinners.com/forums. I'm still there and go by `GwJumpman (GwJumpman got banned because I said Tiers are for Queers back in like December...). I started out as Lostinmario, which is a mix between the game "Lost in Blue" which I really loved, and Mario as I was a big Mario fanboy (not so much nowadays) back then. From there, I think I moved up to I like Bacon. That was just stupid, don't ask. After that was Mr. Nintendo. That lasted for a good few months until I changed it AGAIN to D-Killer (My other Alias on some sites, including this one), which I'm still attached to. I don't know why but I still like that name. I started to get a feel for my name after this. I changed it to Jumpman for like a year, then GwJumpman. The Gw in my names stands for GameWinners. The Jumpman stands for, well Jumpman from the Donkey Kong game, not Mario. The Gw is a tribute to my first and hopefully longlasting community which I don't plan on leaving anytime soon.
If anyone from GW is reading this, love you guys.
Why did you create your gamer?
I created my "gamer" because I wanted to be my true self without others knowing who I was. This is a bit personal, but I was a completely person when I was able to be myself. You know, when people don't know WHO you are, you don't have to worry too much on what you say. You can be honest and true, you can be a **** or *******, you can be yourself fully and truly. That is why I created my "gamer". Typing that gave me a wave of emotion, I'm not quite sure what emotion, seems like a mix of sadness and the feeling of hanging with a really hot girl. Weird. Anoniminity online is a great and powerful thing. Without it, you won't know you who are. Unless you are the absolute most outgoing person you can be, you will not know who you are. Without the ability to conceal your identity you will absolutely be missing out on a personal part of yourself. Unfortunately for myself...that is gone. I sort of regret it. I really miss being able to be myself and I can't remember the last time I posted something on any site that was completely personal because people I know can read what I post. My friends from Gamewinners went from people giving me advice on gaming and personal things to real friends that I talk to, and you know, that's the part of this that I don't regret. I suppose another reason as to why I created my "gamer" was because I have a low self-esteem. I feel comfortable around people who I consider real friends and in casual situations sometimes, but I'm sure my friends (one of which is also here) could vouch for me, that even though they wouldn't want to hurt my feelings or something of the sort, that I do have a low self-esteem. They wouldn't want to tell me, but they know. I created it, because I was and sometimes am afraid of how others would think of me for posting certain things and if they would tell anyone, almost like a minor sense of paranoia. My "gamer" is more of me than I am. If you compared my "gamer" personality to my real life personality, my "gamer" personality is me. My real life personality is not me and not who I want to be. There's things I want to do, things I wish I should not have done, things I wish I could apologize for, things I wish I could say, things I was I didn't say; there things I do in real life that I would do or wouldn't do if I was able to be myself. If I could have the world my way, no one would have to wear clothes, talk in correct grammar, do certain things, and whathaveyou. I wish everyone in the world was who they are; their bare selves without the coverups of the media, society, pressure, and religion. Another thing is my true feelings. I'm much more honest online than I am offline. Some things I say in real life is complete bull****, but if I say what I truly feel, it would affect me in such a way, my life wouldn't be the same. Some others' wouldn't be the same either. But again, we (people) are masked by the false features of life. We are not in our bare and true selves. It's like that one guy who tries to play the game fairly, while everyone else pretends to and the guy looks like a complete idiot and loses the game because he trusted everyone else he just got stabbed in the back. Life is a game, unfortunately, and like a game, others win, others lose. If it was up to me, it wouldn't matter who wins or who loses, there wouldn't be a game at all. Life would be like an MMORPG without skills. I made my "gamer" because I want to be who I am.
Why did you redefine yourself, and join this community?
When I joined the smash community, I didn't think I would go to a tournament, I didn't think I would actually meet and becomes friends with people from the online community. I didn't think I would actually get along with some people more than I do with some people in real life. I really appreciate what the Gamewinners and Smash community has done to and for me. The only reason I joined this community was because I like Smash bros. That's it, the bare truth. Although, from my love of this game, I received some my by-products that I really do appreciate. I got friends, and I've been more honest with some people I met here than I have been with a lot of other people I know on a more personal level. I still can't, and probably will never be able to, be completely honest with anybody, because of the game of life.
This truly is hard to write. I could shed a tear or two if I wanted to, but my parents are in the same room as me and I don't feel like being questioned as to why I'm "crying", but writing this was very emotional, but I recommend everybody who reads this and Sky's blog to do one too. It's a self-enlightening experience.
Peace.
