attention to anyone reading this thread, please lend me your ears...my name is Curtis AKA DJ-Hyrul3 (or Needsmorespin here on the boards) and I have something I wish to say, I've been playing smash for almost 4 years now and its been the most wonderful yet frustrating time of my life, I've done subpar at most tourney's I've gone to and I tend to take my losses too much to heart and constantly berated myself for making mistakes I could easily fix/work around.
I've gone into most of my tourney's saying "I'm going to lose, why am I even doing this, whats the point in trying when I'm just gonna come dead last?" and I started to wonder why I even bothered trying to make it in the competitive scene in the first place, like why try, everyone is always gonna be better then me and I'll always be known as 'that guy who will always place dead last at whatever he does'.
my negative attitude also tended to bring other people around me down as well...then my friend GMaster171 finally gave me a wonderful and much needed pep talk that has started to get me out of my emotional slump.
now what I'd like to request of the people reading this thread is either join me in a Peach Main Skype group or if your in one see if I could join, also I ask that you please don't TL;DR this post because this is really important to me.
Smash isn't easy for me given the fact that I'm Autistic and that tends to damper my mentality ability, Smash is honestly the best thing that has happened to my life and I don't want to drive myself away from that.
I'm asking for help because I do need it because I realize that I'm my own worst enemy and only the help of others will help me get over this gap that is starting to spoil the best thing in my life.
So...to anyone willing to help I appreciate it, hell to anyone who actually took the time to read this whole post...thank you, it means a lot to me, because by just taking the time to listen to what I have to say...you've done me a giant favor.
thank you all for listening to me speak my mind, your all wonderful people and its because of people like my friends, Alex, Gardy, Greg, Saru, Nik and all of you that were willing to hear me out that make all the frustration, self-berating and depression worth it, thanks