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Hey guys.
So, I'm in the twelfth grade and my prom is right around the corner. Everyone's getting ready for the big event. Girls getting their hair done and looking for the perfect outfit while the guys are suiting up, trying to look good for the ladies. I'm no exception to this. I've gone out and spent some time looking for a good outfit to hopefully look good for my baby. This was about 4 months ago.
3 months later, my girlfriend phones me up to say that she has something important to talk to me about. Being stereotypical, I immediately thought that she was going to break up with me (Y'know, like in all the movies lol). We meet up and she tells me, with tears in her eyes, that her grandmother had recently passed away. I felt terrible. The happiest moment of her high school life was a month away, and she was struck by this terrible misfortune. She then tells me that she would have to go to Taiwan for her grandmother's funeral on the 20th of May, one week before prom.
I felt devastated. One of the most memorable events of my life, and I can't spend it with the one that I love. I didn't know what to do. I was scared. I was angry. But most of all, I felt so weak. I knew that my problems compared to hers were nothing. She had lost her grandmother and now, she would have to miss prom. However, at that moment, I didn't care. I got upset at her, with no good reason to. I shoved all responsibility onto her and, like a child, left in a foul mood.
I avoided her. I didn't want to see her or talk to her. At that moment, I didn't want anything to do with her. Being the immature brat that I am, I chose to follow this behavior, hoping that maybe, just maybe, she'll magically find a way to be able to stay. A few days later, I felt terrible. I wanted to see her so badly, but at the same time, I felt as if I hated her. I was on the verge of crying when she sent me a text.
She told me that she was sorry for ruining one of the most memorable events of our lives and that she felt terrible for not being able to protect me. She knew how much this meant to me, and she couldn't do anything to help. At the end of the text, she told me that she loved me from the bottom of her heart, with all of her heart and that she hoped that I loved her too. At this moment, I couldn't bear it anymore. I cried.
Looking back, I realized what I did was stupid, immature, and wrong. I love this girl, and when she needed me the most, I turned my back on her and even had the nerve to get upset at her for something she had no control over. I feel utterly and completely useless over the fact that I should have tried to protect her instead of causing her more pain and grief.
Soooooo, she's in Taiwan now, and prom is one week away. I have no partner to go with, having chosen not to go with anyone. It's weird. I had always thought that prom was an event where you would only be happy with if you had a partner. I guess it took my girlfriend's grandmother passing away, her going to Taiwan, and me losing myself to my idiocy to realize that I'm actually very happy.
I'm happy that I'm graduating. I'm happy that my friends and I will be able to all hang out for the very last time before going our separate ways. I'm happy knowing that I have someone so important, so special to me. I'm happy knowing that God gave me a chance to be able to protect this girl, and happy knowing that she's protecting me as well.
So what's the point of this blog? Nothing really. I just wanted to get this weight off of my chest. Sorry for my terrible English and sorry if this read was boring to you (if you even read it hahaha). I guess what I'm trying to say is you have to look at the bigger picture. What's painful to you may be even more painful for someone close to you. And if you're able to get past all of that, then true happiness is what awaits you.
Also, I wanted to share with you guys something else included in that text that my girlfriend sent me. Sorry if it sounds really corny, but it has a special meaning to me and its some of the most beautiful words I've ever heard in my life. Without further ado:
"The doors of my heart will always be open for you. All you have to do is knock, ttok ttok ttok, and I'll open it for you."
-Winnie Chen
Thanks for taking your time to read this guys. I hope, for all you high school graduates, that you guys have an awesome prom night. Take it easy on the drinking! You don't need to be drunk to have a good time :D
Hey guys.
So, I'm in the twelfth grade and my prom is right around the corner. Everyone's getting ready for the big event. Girls getting their hair done and looking for the perfect outfit while the guys are suiting up, trying to look good for the ladies. I'm no exception to this. I've gone out and spent some time looking for a good outfit to hopefully look good for my baby. This was about 4 months ago.
3 months later, my girlfriend phones me up to say that she has something important to talk to me about. Being stereotypical, I immediately thought that she was going to break up with me (Y'know, like in all the movies lol). We meet up and she tells me, with tears in her eyes, that her grandmother had recently passed away. I felt terrible. The happiest moment of her high school life was a month away, and she was struck by this terrible misfortune. She then tells me that she would have to go to Taiwan for her grandmother's funeral on the 20th of May, one week before prom.
I felt devastated. One of the most memorable events of my life, and I can't spend it with the one that I love. I didn't know what to do. I was scared. I was angry. But most of all, I felt so weak. I knew that my problems compared to hers were nothing. She had lost her grandmother and now, she would have to miss prom. However, at that moment, I didn't care. I got upset at her, with no good reason to. I shoved all responsibility onto her and, like a child, left in a foul mood.
I avoided her. I didn't want to see her or talk to her. At that moment, I didn't want anything to do with her. Being the immature brat that I am, I chose to follow this behavior, hoping that maybe, just maybe, she'll magically find a way to be able to stay. A few days later, I felt terrible. I wanted to see her so badly, but at the same time, I felt as if I hated her. I was on the verge of crying when she sent me a text.
She told me that she was sorry for ruining one of the most memorable events of our lives and that she felt terrible for not being able to protect me. She knew how much this meant to me, and she couldn't do anything to help. At the end of the text, she told me that she loved me from the bottom of her heart, with all of her heart and that she hoped that I loved her too. At this moment, I couldn't bear it anymore. I cried.
Looking back, I realized what I did was stupid, immature, and wrong. I love this girl, and when she needed me the most, I turned my back on her and even had the nerve to get upset at her for something she had no control over. I feel utterly and completely useless over the fact that I should have tried to protect her instead of causing her more pain and grief.
Soooooo, she's in Taiwan now, and prom is one week away. I have no partner to go with, having chosen not to go with anyone. It's weird. I had always thought that prom was an event where you would only be happy with if you had a partner. I guess it took my girlfriend's grandmother passing away, her going to Taiwan, and me losing myself to my idiocy to realize that I'm actually very happy.
I'm happy that I'm graduating. I'm happy that my friends and I will be able to all hang out for the very last time before going our separate ways. I'm happy knowing that I have someone so important, so special to me. I'm happy knowing that God gave me a chance to be able to protect this girl, and happy knowing that she's protecting me as well.
So what's the point of this blog? Nothing really. I just wanted to get this weight off of my chest. Sorry for my terrible English and sorry if this read was boring to you (if you even read it hahaha). I guess what I'm trying to say is you have to look at the bigger picture. What's painful to you may be even more painful for someone close to you. And if you're able to get past all of that, then true happiness is what awaits you.
Also, I wanted to share with you guys something else included in that text that my girlfriend sent me. Sorry if it sounds really corny, but it has a special meaning to me and its some of the most beautiful words I've ever heard in my life. Without further ado:
"The doors of my heart will always be open for you. All you have to do is knock, ttok ttok ttok, and I'll open it for you."
-Winnie Chen
Thanks for taking your time to read this guys. I hope, for all you high school graduates, that you guys have an awesome prom night. Take it easy on the drinking! You don't need to be drunk to have a good time :D
