~Radiance~
Meow-Meow, Choco-Chow
Link to original post: [drupal=5114]I finally know[/drupal]
This may seem out of place for me seeing as how my activity in brawl has been anything but ongoing, but I felt it necessary and relieving to post this.
When I first came here I found a community of people, the pikachus, who were so openly amazing and kind in every way. The memories I have of them encompass quite a bit of my life, and I now see it coming full circle.
To any pikas that read, I met you all the summer of my freshman year of college while I was working at a summer camp. I remember the laughs i got to have and the feeling of inadequacy I had coming into such a large community. I had no clue of the life changing experience that would then surround a good year and a half of my life. When I started I wanted to be good, I wanted to be great, I wanted to beat my subpar friend who knew nothing of this game, and when that happened I felt complete, but even then it wasnt enough. So i went further and got HM'd in norcal.
The community also brought me the xat, which brought me latias and so many laughs. As the time goes on, I have felt so distant and urged to play more. I know that will not happen again soon, and because of this I am sad. Looking back on everything though, I see what I have become. I was an advocate to the pikachu community on helping make guides, I accomplished my goals of becoming a good pika, I was accepted into the PBR and when all of this was done I finally felt accepted in the pika community. I have been mad at the pikas since I lost the community by moving away from brawl tournies, and I was mad that I couldn't play and had to repress my urges to be better, but I finally understand what this experience of smash meant to me. As summer approached I find myself once again going to this summer job.
Its been 3 years since that job, and now that I know I am going there, I feel and see every single experience I had with the pikas. It has taken all this time but I have finally seen what the community taught me. It was never about how good I could be, or how much effort I put into making guides, it was about the community and fun I had with the pikas at the time. I can see who I have become and where I am going, I can see where the experiences I had will remain locked in my episodic memory, I can finally see now that I am and always was Forever Zero
This may seem out of place for me seeing as how my activity in brawl has been anything but ongoing, but I felt it necessary and relieving to post this.
When I first came here I found a community of people, the pikachus, who were so openly amazing and kind in every way. The memories I have of them encompass quite a bit of my life, and I now see it coming full circle.
To any pikas that read, I met you all the summer of my freshman year of college while I was working at a summer camp. I remember the laughs i got to have and the feeling of inadequacy I had coming into such a large community. I had no clue of the life changing experience that would then surround a good year and a half of my life. When I started I wanted to be good, I wanted to be great, I wanted to beat my subpar friend who knew nothing of this game, and when that happened I felt complete, but even then it wasnt enough. So i went further and got HM'd in norcal.
The community also brought me the xat, which brought me latias and so many laughs. As the time goes on, I have felt so distant and urged to play more. I know that will not happen again soon, and because of this I am sad. Looking back on everything though, I see what I have become. I was an advocate to the pikachu community on helping make guides, I accomplished my goals of becoming a good pika, I was accepted into the PBR and when all of this was done I finally felt accepted in the pika community. I have been mad at the pikas since I lost the community by moving away from brawl tournies, and I was mad that I couldn't play and had to repress my urges to be better, but I finally understand what this experience of smash meant to me. As summer approached I find myself once again going to this summer job.
Its been 3 years since that job, and now that I know I am going there, I feel and see every single experience I had with the pikas. It has taken all this time but I have finally seen what the community taught me. It was never about how good I could be, or how much effort I put into making guides, it was about the community and fun I had with the pikas at the time. I can see who I have become and where I am going, I can see where the experiences I had will remain locked in my episodic memory, I can finally see now that I am and always was Forever Zero
