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Link to original post: [drupal=2544]Have I really accomplished nothing in the past year?[/drupal]
Two nights back, I was really stressed out. (Well, okay, let's be honest, I've been stressed out for about a year+ now, but that's neither here nor there.) I was thinking about how busy I've been, and then casually thought about how I have a "To-do" list backing up to this time last year.
At that point, it hit me...have I really accomplished that little over the past year? I don't mean accomplishing ANYTHING, as I've done okay as far as working goes...but as far as things of personal importance, I've done just about nothing.
The first thing that comes to mind is that, around November last year, I decided I was finally going to work on a sprite comic with the intention of posting a website for it. I've made websites before, so that wouldn't be an issue. The issue would be making the sprite comic. I've made them in the past, but none of them haven't sucked. They were either made up of less than ten strips, because the entire comic was made on a whim, thinking that a small idea could sprout an entire sprite comic when I already had a large one going, or it was that one aforementioned large one. It got to 94 strips and I just quit, because I realized that it had gone everywhere in 94 strips and basically was too random to be funny or even remotely interesting.
Therefore, making a new sprite comic was of some concern to me. I didn't want it to crash and burn again, therefore I decided to actually plan this time (last time I made a fairly large comic, I spent a whole night reading "InSONICnia" and decided to make a sprite comic of my own two days after), and to not rush the planning phase at all. I loved making the sprite comics...but I wanted to make a GOOD one, with an actual plot, and with characters from many video games. That makes it even worse, because I am inept when it comes to making a decent reason for a crossover. I've dabbled in fanfiction too, many of which have been crossovers, and I'm not willing to share any of the ways I explained how worlds collided because they're ridiculously stupid. And all I have to show for this planning is a small Word document of notes and a page of ideas in a rather small notepad of mine, the majority of these ideas being created more recently, in actuality.
But that's not all. There's The Custom Pokémon Shop. I haven't had much time, and even when I do, I lack motivation to finish off the last few sprites of the shop...not that anyone seems to care, but you would think after saying "It's going to be closing" back in July, I would've finished it off by now. I just want it off my mind already.
I've been working on a long rant blog since this time last year. Yes, seriously. I thought it would be done sometime in late June, but when that didn't happen, I anticipated it would be done in another month or two -- because it's not the type of thing you work on all at once, it's the kind of thing I need motivation to write. But no, it still has barely budged.
Basically, I have almost zero free time, and when I actually manage to scrounge it up, stress has gotten to me and I default to relaxing rather than doing. I replay games that I have no reason to replay other than for the lulz, like Paper Mario 2, as opposed to some games like Pokémon Gold which I want to re-complete after accidentally deleting my save file a decade or so ago.
I default to just screwing around, and I don't get anything accomplished. Oh, I've accomplished a few things here or there, but not very much. I didn't even list half of what's on this list, because I keep forgetting about things. I need to start keeping track of them, but even then, I can't guarantee when I'll actually end up doing them.
I don't know what's happened to me that I've accomplished so little in the past year, but it's really bugging me now that I finally realized it.
Two nights back, I was really stressed out. (Well, okay, let's be honest, I've been stressed out for about a year+ now, but that's neither here nor there.) I was thinking about how busy I've been, and then casually thought about how I have a "To-do" list backing up to this time last year.
At that point, it hit me...have I really accomplished that little over the past year? I don't mean accomplishing ANYTHING, as I've done okay as far as working goes...but as far as things of personal importance, I've done just about nothing.
The first thing that comes to mind is that, around November last year, I decided I was finally going to work on a sprite comic with the intention of posting a website for it. I've made websites before, so that wouldn't be an issue. The issue would be making the sprite comic. I've made them in the past, but none of them haven't sucked. They were either made up of less than ten strips, because the entire comic was made on a whim, thinking that a small idea could sprout an entire sprite comic when I already had a large one going, or it was that one aforementioned large one. It got to 94 strips and I just quit, because I realized that it had gone everywhere in 94 strips and basically was too random to be funny or even remotely interesting.
Therefore, making a new sprite comic was of some concern to me. I didn't want it to crash and burn again, therefore I decided to actually plan this time (last time I made a fairly large comic, I spent a whole night reading "InSONICnia" and decided to make a sprite comic of my own two days after), and to not rush the planning phase at all. I loved making the sprite comics...but I wanted to make a GOOD one, with an actual plot, and with characters from many video games. That makes it even worse, because I am inept when it comes to making a decent reason for a crossover. I've dabbled in fanfiction too, many of which have been crossovers, and I'm not willing to share any of the ways I explained how worlds collided because they're ridiculously stupid. And all I have to show for this planning is a small Word document of notes and a page of ideas in a rather small notepad of mine, the majority of these ideas being created more recently, in actuality.
But that's not all. There's The Custom Pokémon Shop. I haven't had much time, and even when I do, I lack motivation to finish off the last few sprites of the shop...not that anyone seems to care, but you would think after saying "It's going to be closing" back in July, I would've finished it off by now. I just want it off my mind already.
I've been working on a long rant blog since this time last year. Yes, seriously. I thought it would be done sometime in late June, but when that didn't happen, I anticipated it would be done in another month or two -- because it's not the type of thing you work on all at once, it's the kind of thing I need motivation to write. But no, it still has barely budged.
Basically, I have almost zero free time, and when I actually manage to scrounge it up, stress has gotten to me and I default to relaxing rather than doing. I replay games that I have no reason to replay other than for the lulz, like Paper Mario 2, as opposed to some games like Pokémon Gold which I want to re-complete after accidentally deleting my save file a decade or so ago.
I default to just screwing around, and I don't get anything accomplished. Oh, I've accomplished a few things here or there, but not very much. I didn't even list half of what's on this list, because I keep forgetting about things. I need to start keeping track of them, but even then, I can't guarantee when I'll actually end up doing them.
I don't know what's happened to me that I've accomplished so little in the past year, but it's really bugging me now that I finally realized it.