Being born from a Puerto Rican family and small parts of African descent in me I do find this actually depressing to look at, because I feel like I've been through a lot of it. Some of the stuff I've been through I don't dare tell anyone because its so sick and twisted. I have to say I've never taken a single antidepressant or drug to deal with my pain, although its had some scary effects to my brain making me think of some real sadistic stuff I really wish I could explain at certain times in my life.
All these things in my life made me from believing that there could never be such a thing as a God, and if there was he is certainly dead, to believing that God certainly does exist, and that everything that happens in life there is a reason for and if you get through the challenge successfully then you will be rewarded. Getting this far I feel like I've already accomplished so much in my life already and it has made me see my flaws, and makes me strive for perfection. Overall I can say I'm actually grateful for the life I had, and I can never wish for any other, I don't care about money or any material possession in this world because it means nothing and I see what happens to people who get too attached to it.
In all honesty I don't think most Hispanics are aware of what actually is going on and they seem to lose faith in the living a little too soon. Whenever I speak to Hispanic relatives they pay attention to the mass media which is never a good thing because all they tell you is which politician is the right choice, being rich and beautiful is the only way to be happy, you should buy things using credit so you can pay later, and all this other nonsense. It really is discouraging to hear all this considering being born into such a tight situation. This is my belief on why we have it so rough and probably might be an explanation to why there is so much depression and suicides, but even though all this happens that is no reason to go and kill yourself.
Too many people lost in humanity and everyone's too scared for an actual change, but sooner or later its probably going to happen whether we like or not. Here's an example, when you look at fire, you see that its calm and peaceful, but inside of it is all power and destruction. Inside it's hiding something, just like people do. Sometimes, you have to get close to see whats inside, and sometimes you need to get burned to see the truth." It's quoted by the way I didn't come up with it lol (I wish though). Anyway trying to summarize this I believe everything was put here for a reason and that eventually we're all going to get through this and everything will be fine in the end because that is when it will spark a new beginning, a new hope, and a better future. Not to mention our future generation is gonna get a good laugh at how primitive and clueless we all were.
(Sorry for the long post, I really hope at least one person reads this so I don't feel I typed it all for nothing.)
