It's simply that I hate living with other people. I act like a jerk towards my sister and don't enjoy doing it, but I can't help but act standoffish because she irritates me all the time or I want her to be quiet. My mother accuses me of hating her and the truth is, I don't really like her ( she acts like she's crazy on a daily basis, ) but I have to say that isn't true, because how exactly do you tell someone that to their face, and if I did, she'd get angry ( though she doesn't believe me when I say no. )
I probably would be happier if my mother were more...normal...
Mother Craziness Symptoms:
-She has a weird thing about touching me. Putting her hands on me for a second. When I expressed dislike for it, she replied that it was because she loves me. She acted like it was mean of me to not enjoy it. So I said fine, then. And indeed, she continues to do it. But sometimes, she'll come out to me and reach out, then move back shouting "Sorry! Sorry!" Et u, sarcasm? Except sadly she isn't being sarcastic... ( She often loudly apologizes for something, but then continues to do it. )
-Refers to herself in 3rd person. She has been known to say to me, "Mom's noisy," or "Mom's annoying." ( When I want her to be quiet, by the way. Which means she isn't doing a good job of it. )
-Talks to herself on a daily basis. While cooking, she says things like, "Now let's get Dad's sandwich," and saying out loud the name of things she's grabbing, like "Peanut butter," "Bread."
-Acts like my life is trash but does nothing to change it. She asks me oftentimes if I want to talk to her about something, or apologizes for annoying me, and then goes right back to doing it tomorrow. For example, having conversations with other people in places annoying to me. She's apologized for it before, but she does NOTHING to change it. I've mentioned dislike for her talking to herself before, and she's said before, "Mom's crazy," then she goes RIGHT back to doing it. Do you even care in the slightest?
-Exaggerated reactions. She has literally started screaming with excitement before at very small things, like eating at a fancy place. ( also, rapid hand clapping. )
Just this morning, my sister mentioned her blanket smelled like a certain food, and my mom was shouting "Ewww-oo!" and "Stop!!" while she was doing so ( and also kicking out her foot. )
-Also, she LOVES talking over people. Seriously, she can't even wait for people to ANSWER HER OWN QUESTIONS OFTENTIMES. And she is NOTORIOUS for not even finishing her own sentences before jumping into new ones, making understanding her a difficult job at best at times.
Sadly, if I told her I doubted her mental stability, she'd do one of two things, depending on her mood.
Say, "Son, you know Mom's crazy!" and laugh it off.
Or, if she's more sour, get angry and start challenging every point I bring up.
Ergo, no matter what, she wouldn't take me seriously.