Regrets

[urdailywater]

justdontreadthis

 

[Arbutus]

HOW DARE YOU BESMIRCH THE HALLOWED FORUM SPACE OF THE USER BLOGS TO SPEAK OF YOUR HIPPY BABBLE.

In all seriousness I can't say anything else because you're talking about needing god and I hate desperation for religion.

 

[Fatmanonice]

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Watching thia http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsDQ0rH6QIg&feature=channel_page and feeling a bit drugged up is really opening my eyes. I'm smiling here at the video, since it's pretty funnny itself, but for some reason it makes me look at the days when I was actually not afraid, and days when I felt good about life, like everything is going great. That could pretty much be summed up as my 10th grade year. Before that, I was in a position of isolation, and couldn't really count on anyone for help. I was basically there and did nothing with my life. My good years as a 10th grader came after a bible school week I went to. It really showed me that their could be some force out there wanting me to have a good time, and for a straight year I followed that guy. Things got tough, but I always depended on him and I got through it. But after that year, things got so hard, I got stressed, and eventaully started getting mad at the guy (or god since I haven't mentioned that yet). This is 'cause 11th grade was really tough on me to start off with, and with other personal issues things got too hard where I just eventually got rid of him from my life so I could prove I can do things on my own. I can't though, and that's why that year was screwed over. I felt lonliness after leaving him (god if you don't know now) and I know I will never be able to make it happily through 12th grade if I don't accept him again. It'll be a lonly nightmare that I'm not prepared to take on. I just don't know how to make things like they were in 10th grade.

Yah I'm a bit high so hopefully the post made sense
but i regret letting that spiritual feeling goo

Do you want me to be completely honest? Spirituality is not limited to religion and I think that's one of the big problems here. For starters, you're making your problems bigger than yourself. Wasn't it Saint Paul that said that not a single man adds a single day to his life by worrying? You need to realise that there are some problems that you can overcome and those you can't; that's life. As I mentioned to someone else in another thread yesterday, the best that the human spirit can do is endure during times of hardship. You also need to realise that you're not only the first person to ever have the problems that you are having but also that there are people in the world that have it a lot worse. Are you selfish for not seeing this? No because, as I mention in my thread "Why I love airports" everyone's life is like their own personal movie so their problems seem much much inflated thanks to this first person perspective. If you ask me, one of the best first steps in overcoming your problems is realizing that you're a miniscule part of something far more grand which, in, turn, make your problems even smaller than that.

The next thing you need to realize is that your need for a God could easily be seen as escapism. Let's face it, you want a way out of your problems and you believe that a cosmic being will solve these problems or "give you strength." You want to know something? The only person that can give you strength is yourself. You choose what inspires you and, in turn, you choose what weighs you down. You can only solve your own problems through your own actions even if it simply means allowing others to come into your life and do it for you. This is why religion is so popular amongst recovering addicts, they make themselves smaller than they ought to be which often times to people relapsing. This is what happens when you completely give the reigns to your life to someone else, whether real or spiritual, you either limit yourself immensely or become dependent whenever you seek insight for anything. You may be small in comparision to the cosmos but you have realize, and I fought this for years too, that you are the most important person in your own life and, like my mother always says, you choose the path that it takes. You can't control all the events that effect your life but you can decide how you'll react to them and, all into itself, that is even more important.

In the end, believe in yourself; focus on your strengths and do not let yourself be hindered by your weaknesses and your problems will become much more managable.