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[P.C. Jona]

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it all started around january, my mom checked the phone bill and she saw that my dad was making a crap load of calls and sending thousands of text messages..
he got caught cheating...again
something that has been going on since...i was born..
17 years, and its been woman after woman...

i remember when i was like 7 or 8 and i was at a burger king with my mom and my cousins, my mom was on a pay phone inside the burger kind and she was crying.. she told me that my dad was cheating on her, but i had no clue what that meant...

i remember after that when i learned what it meant, that i wouldnt care if they split up.. i always said who cares... im an only child.. ive always played games by myself.. i never had a friend i saw outside of school or church.. my mom never let me go to anyones house, she was scared and over protective...

so i figured i would be alone anyways..

and as the time went on, until now i realized it does hurt, and i cant just say i dont care, because i do. i might be 17 but that doesnt mean anything... ive cried a bunch because of these suckers called my parents... the only thing ive had to hold on to is my girlfriend and her family...theyve always been there for me..

i remember one day my parents were arguing like they always do, but my dad started to throw stuff...i was upstairs, he was downstairs in the living room with my mom.. so i went down there and i say whoa whats going on.. and he was getting in my moms face so i pushed him back and i said what are you doing ? and he kept yelling so i kept pushing him, and then he shoved me, he used all his strength and i barely moved.. i was real pissed off at him..if i werent a kid raised to respect i would have punched him in the nose.. and so all i could do was go... it was like 11pm, i called my girlfriend..and i tried real hard not to cry..but i did..and i asked her if i could go over and she said of course...

its so hard to stay strong...its so hard not to cry, im trying not to right now haha.. man, i dont know why im even writing this...thinking about it makes me so sad... i guess since i dont have anyone to talk to right now.. my girlfriend is sleeping..shes going to a crowning thing tomorrow...i am too..but i just want her to sleep...

i dont know
im not looking for pity or anything, i get enough already... which i hate... its nice and all but.. i just feel worse

i just needed to write..
life stinks sometimes
thats what my mom always tells me

she always tells me, my life stinks

shes been so strong..shes held up to my dads crap all my life..and she hasnt left him

i kinda wish she would....but she doesnt want to break her home..
nice thing huh?
not if you see it from my point of view...
if my dad wasnt my dad, i would beat the crap out of him..
its so hard to be home..all they do is fight..
all my family tells me that i should go stay with one of them..
i think im going to soon, this is alot more then i can take... and i take a bunch

i just came home tonight around 12:15ish
i was at my uncles house and we were chillin, i came home and what do you know
parents fighting
wow
sleep time and they still fight
awesome...

i dont know whats gonna happen
sometimes i worry what will happen..
i dont know..

 

[finalark]

Venting is good for you. I've never had such problems in my life, but I can give my two cents by saying "Your father is wretch little disrespectful ******* who deserves punishment."

I hope my two cents helped, probably not, though.

 

[Ishiey]

I wish I knew what to say... your mom might just be holding out until you go to college, so if anything make sure that she does what she needs to when that happens. I'm glad your girlfriend and her family have been there to support you, they sound like great people. Just know, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[Turbo Ether]

Tell your parents to man up and get a divorce. It's obviously an unhealthy relationship, and neither of them will end up happy in the long run, if they stay together.

 

[Omis]

My parents have been fighting as long as I can remember. I have gotten so accustomed to the fact that my parents will eventually get a divorce that their fighting no longer phazes me. I could care less. My mom has ever told me that she will get a divorce with my dad within a year of me moving into college. I think the way to get over your problems in this case is just not caring. It has done me so much good just accepting that it doesnt matter.

 

[KnnySm3]

Yeah, talk to your mom and convince her to break up with him. Tell her you're going to leave otherwise (this is a bluff, if I were you I wouldn't leave her around that kind of violence). Don't be a jerk about it but do be assertive and let her know that your father isn't good for her or you. Tell her it'll be better if you both just leave.

I got some stories of my own but you have a lot to be grateful for here. You might not see it but you have a great mother, other family members that'll take you, and an amazing girlfriend. Man, all that stuff is really great. Especially if you can go over to your girlfriend's house when you need it. I wish I had that.

Just get out of there and get her out of there too. The only thing that would do is help her out. If it hurts her, in time her wounds will heal. So will yours.

And take something from this. Be a great father. The best you can be.

 

[Super_Sonic8677]

It's really hard living in that kind of situation. I know how ya feel..

I don't know exactly what kind of situation your in, but if you can get away or get him out, that really would be the best thing. I know there sometimes problems that get in the way that makes taking action nearly impossible. Just try to hang in there if that's the case. It will work out eventually.

But as the poster above said, use your father as example of what Not to be like as a person.

I'll be praying for ya.

 

[Hazygoose]

my parents had a similar situation when i was younger. i don't even know how many half brothers i have or where they're at :\

eventually my dad's cheating led my mom to drugs, and they decided they were going to get divorced, i found her at age 7 dead in her bedroom floor from a cocaine overdose. my ******* father then tried to raise my sister and i but died from cancer years later, and i became an orphan (i'm a first generation american). i'm not trying to one up you, nor am i saying i "know what you're going through" since we all have our own situations and ways to deal with them

but i hope that the things i learned from it can help you out at least one tiny iota:
people hurt other people. it's just something that happens. unfortunately that ranges from slight disturbance to life ending, but it's something you really can't change. and with people who care about you, like your parents, it most likely does not come intentionally. i'm sure any time your mom isn't being as "motherly" as possible, i guess, she still means well.

the best thing you can do is still treat the people that YOU care about as well as possible. it's always hard to overcome depression or anger, sometimes even harder not to let it leak over to the people who aren't causing it. but just show and tell your mom how much you appreciate her, when she's at her worst moments. do the same with your girlfriend, and with her family.

and the most important thing is, of course, that they also care about you :D and don't forget that. no matter what goes wrong, as long as 1 person loves you, you have a reason to stay (not just stay alive, but stay happy). and you will find more people that you care about and care about you, and often some of those people will go away. it's always strange who finds a way into our lives and how they make a positive or negative impact. but permanancy is another question - for now, just cherish the good things in your life as much as you can. it's impossible to forget the negative, but the more time you spend with and focused on the things you have going for you, the more it can grow, the more you can grow, and the more you can understand why it's not worth trying to change things that are what they will be.


i kept it short, didn't want my response to be longer than your blog XD i hope you're doing well, man :\

 

[P.C. Jona]

thanks to everyone..

i wish i could write everything i felt

but in a nutshell, i feel much better..

nothing has changed except for one thing i want to keep to myself so i dont start any usless arguments

but thank you to you all

when i read what i wrote then what you guys wrote back i started to cry

i wish i had the patience to respond to each person but thanks alot guys