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I honestly don't know why I hang out with him or even talk to him anymore. He's just an inconsiderate ******* who only cares about himself and doesn't really help anyone unless it benefits him in some sort of way. He wasn't always this way. He use to be just a fun guy to hang around but now recently he's just been a guy I want to avoid. We're been bros for like 5 years now but recently he's been acting more like another douche bag. I respect him for pulling me out of situations and practically putting me on a right path but now he's just holding **** against me.
And now I just can't seem to find a reason to even associate myself with him. He's always shutting my opinions down and recently told me that he hopes I die. Usually when we have our arguments he says **** like that, but but this time it just got to me and had me thinking. What kind of a friend would wish that upon someone? I mean he knows I go through times of mild depression and contemplated suicide. Even though I don't think I'd actually go through with it it does cross my mind quite frequently. No real friend would be that evil and just say some off the wall stuff like that. Through his depression when his dog of 17 years died and his grandma died from cancer I supported him and shared his pain because it felt like I have lost those close loved ones. And when I could I'd help him out whenever he needed it and when I ask for some help or support he pretty much has the attitude "what's in it for me?" It just highly frustrates me.
He's also unreliable. He pulls through sometimes but most of the time he's either late or tells you last minute he's not going to be able to do something. There was this one time he told me he would drop me off at my girlfriend's house before he went to the movies with this girl (He's already in a serious relationship at the time too). So he starts *****ing about how he's about to be late for this movie and that he never promised anything. So for about 5 minutes of his *****ing I though to myself.. maybe I'm being selfish. So I told him to drop me off at the gas station and I'll just take a cab there. Then I asked him would he be able to at least pick me up from her house after the movie and he was like no problem. So a 35 dollar cab ride later I'm there. About an hour later he called and I asked for about another hour. So he was like I'll give you guys 3 and I was like perfect (Because I'm not allowed over her house after 9). It was 6 at the time of the phone call. 9 o clock comes around and nowhere to be found. I called him up and he said he was now leaving. It takes at most 30 minutes to get from his house to hers. 10:10 comes around and he finally shows up to pick me up. I explained what all happened to him and asked him "What the hell took you so long" and the first thing that came out of his mouth was "stop being selfish I came didn't I?" That's kinda how all this hate between us started too..
So yeah there goes my little rant about my best friend. Writing out my emotions helps me relieve stress..
Thanks for reading.
I honestly don't know why I hang out with him or even talk to him anymore. He's just an inconsiderate ******* who only cares about himself and doesn't really help anyone unless it benefits him in some sort of way. He wasn't always this way. He use to be just a fun guy to hang around but now recently he's just been a guy I want to avoid. We're been bros for like 5 years now but recently he's been acting more like another douche bag. I respect him for pulling me out of situations and practically putting me on a right path but now he's just holding **** against me.
And now I just can't seem to find a reason to even associate myself with him. He's always shutting my opinions down and recently told me that he hopes I die. Usually when we have our arguments he says **** like that, but but this time it just got to me and had me thinking. What kind of a friend would wish that upon someone? I mean he knows I go through times of mild depression and contemplated suicide. Even though I don't think I'd actually go through with it it does cross my mind quite frequently. No real friend would be that evil and just say some off the wall stuff like that. Through his depression when his dog of 17 years died and his grandma died from cancer I supported him and shared his pain because it felt like I have lost those close loved ones. And when I could I'd help him out whenever he needed it and when I ask for some help or support he pretty much has the attitude "what's in it for me?" It just highly frustrates me.
He's also unreliable. He pulls through sometimes but most of the time he's either late or tells you last minute he's not going to be able to do something. There was this one time he told me he would drop me off at my girlfriend's house before he went to the movies with this girl (He's already in a serious relationship at the time too). So he starts *****ing about how he's about to be late for this movie and that he never promised anything. So for about 5 minutes of his *****ing I though to myself.. maybe I'm being selfish. So I told him to drop me off at the gas station and I'll just take a cab there. Then I asked him would he be able to at least pick me up from her house after the movie and he was like no problem. So a 35 dollar cab ride later I'm there. About an hour later he called and I asked for about another hour. So he was like I'll give you guys 3 and I was like perfect (Because I'm not allowed over her house after 9). It was 6 at the time of the phone call. 9 o clock comes around and nowhere to be found. I called him up and he said he was now leaving. It takes at most 30 minutes to get from his house to hers. 10:10 comes around and he finally shows up to pick me up. I explained what all happened to him and asked him "What the hell took you so long" and the first thing that came out of his mouth was "stop being selfish I came didn't I?" That's kinda how all this hate between us started too..
So yeah there goes my little rant about my best friend. Writing out my emotions helps me relieve stress..
Thanks for reading.
