Motivation (Teenage Problem. lol... one of the 6 types)

[SuSa]

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I have motivation problems. I'm not a very self-motivating person, and my only real determination to do anything is to prove myself better then someone. This is bad.

I took Smash rather seriously because it's competitive. I wanted to be better then my friends. I was. (This is back in like 04' Melee days) We went to our first tournament together. I did better then them. I lost to some Falcon player. (I was Peach). Losing made me mad. I wanted to get better. (I never truly did looking back... I'm better now then I was then)

So I strived to be better. Playing whenever I could, going to locals (that I could find.)

I eventually gave up on that when the scene around me died (I couldn't find any more tourneys) and went onto new things.

Now coming back for Brawl, I got right back into it. Knowing more then ever and only wanting to improve. My only real improvement however was when rofljont (Jon T) said I basically knew nothing about this game. That was my spark. Since then, I haven't stopped trying to improve and most of my time is spent into Brawl to prove myself.

New subject:

For graphics (something I used to do), there was a forum of the "elite" that I knew about. Though not the best on the web, I thought they were some of the best. This site was called "Final Chaos" and I quickly became an active member on the site hoping to improve. I wanted to make it onto the GFX Team. This was my motivation. To prove I was better then the others. Eventually, the site started to slow down and come to a halt. This is when I left, my motivation was gone. Since then I haven't ever been as nearly into graphics as I was. I did try a few things, I joined the +MW (Master Works Family) group and spread my tutorials and knowledge across my graphics boards before being booted for inactivity. There just wasn't anything there anymore.

New Subject:

Coding - there were always new codes being spread across iPBFree (a free forum host I used to be staff. Retired as of last month due to.. you guessed it... inactivity. Been a member for 2~ years now) and I wanted to be a part and contribute. However I ended up wanting to compete with two other coders. Streek Dime and Gunblaza. Both of whom were making Javascript codes to do things for the boards. So I learned Javascript - but was never as good as them (I was 14 and to be honest, I truly didn't fully understand coding. xD) so I quickly gave up on this goal to be better then them. Coding just... wasn't really my thing. (However I do currently have an interest in C++ and remember most of my old simple languages. (CSS, xHTML, Javascript)

Back to point:

Now, I still love graphics and coding. Here and there I'll throw up something random to spread around for a bit. They are nice things to have. Thanks to be knowing both, I used to do web design (my website, Kanzen Designs no longer exists... I let it fall off the face of the earth, but still have my layouts)

I really do miss graphics, and to some degree coding. I just.. lack any motivation to truly teach myself these things.

Now realizing, this is why I asked to learn German with someone. I just wanted to compete with myself, by competing with their knowledge. How much could I learn? Could I learn as much as they know? Etc. I haven't really been teaching myself, I have all the free time in the world to do so - I just don't. There is no competition, so there is no real motivation. I have some files on my computer, I just need to open them up and read. I just... don't.

So I guess... it's time to ask...

Is there anyone out there, just now wanting to pick up graphics, coding, or German? The more people - the better. I will want to compete, but I never do it in an "I'm better then you" attitude. I'm friendly about it. I'll give you help and pointers... I just need people there... almost like a comparison of myself to them. A self-satisfaction complex I guess you could call it....

My biggest flaw, and worst ending to an essay ever,
SuSa

 

[victra♥]

this is actually 2 of the 6 types SuSa. Teen problems and a full essay lol.

I'm kinda in the same boat as you lol. I'm only motivated to do well if it's a chance to do better then someone else. XD

That doesn't always have to be a bad thing though SuSa. Like, It'll be good motivation for you to get through University lol. At least it will be for me anyways.

 

[SuSa]

I have no plans for college, besides the "might go to major in music theory" or something.

Sad part is I'm a Junior...school will be over in 2 years.... that's a bit of a scary thing for me right now... even if I do have a "job" (I pick up dog crap for $15 a week. Need to start advertising more. >.< Used to have 3 customers and make $45 a week.. for working less then 20 minutes out of the week...)

First I need a car though. :x Walking 45 minutes to work then 45 minutes back home sucked.

Although it will pretty much guarantee me employee of the month at any job I work at. xD

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

I never give up so motivation has never been A problem other than the time I couldn't move without listening to musik.(what a terrible day or week) I,m into german and coding to bad I could only take one year.

I,m junior to and I don't have clue what to do ether

 

[SuSa]

I don't really give up motivation, it's just never truly there.

Guitar and piano are probably the only things I've never given up on due to lack of motivation. But that's more or less my love of music, not me wanting to play. (So I've never really gotten "good" at either. :x Just well off enough to play)

Also I teach myself everything I know basically. ^^; So I guess people could call that motivation in itself. (Teaching myself music theory was difficult)

I'm taking Guitar 1, Instrumentals 1, or Choir (I want to learn how to sing) next year. If all of the above are full, my last resort was a General Programming class, which to be honest I've never heard of anyone liking. :x

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

The free time is F***ed when your me have you ever gone to paint and when white balck white past the point were it goes off the screen? I have I want show the picture some day it messes with you.

I kinfof know what you mean by no motivation but you keep going I have done about 30 something belly-flops off a diving board in a row without any cause no one bet me, I didn't care or anything I just kept going.

I,m going to teach myself the guitar because I love musik.

 

[j0s3ph]

Well I have the same problem somewhat, whenever there's someone who is/thinks they're better than me I get really competitive. I managed to overcome it because I realized no one likes it when I'm constantly trying to prove I'm the best. My advice is, do something for fun. Find something you completely suck at and, no matter how much you try, will still suck. Do that. It's impossible to be competitive if you suck that much.

 

[Roxas M]

my motivation in brawl is to be the best i can. push my limits and become 1 of the best brawlers out there.
irl, i have no motivation. what's to motive me other than games? college? what will i major in? i don't have the motivation to look for one.

family? i don't think they care enough to motive me.

i like games because they motive me to become better at something i like.
to beat someone good is a reward for my hard training.
losing means i have more work to do.
that's something life has never given me.
so outside of games, i have the teenage lack of motivation.
i don't know what number though.

 

[SuSa]

Well I have the same problem somewhat, whenever there's someone who is/thinks they're better than me I get really competitive. I managed to overcome it because I realized no one likes it when I'm constantly trying to prove I'm the best. My advice is, do something for fun. Find something you completely suck at and, no matter how much you try, will still suck. Do that. It's impossible to be competitive if you suck that much.

I have something I'd call a curse.

There isn't really anything I'm "bad" at. I'm just not "great" at anything either.

I used to do gymnastics. I wasn't the worst, but I wasn't the best.
I used to skate. I was the best of my friends, but far from the better of people just outside of my group of friends. (EG: My friends sucked. )
I suck at drawing, but there are always 2 year olds around to make me feel better.

Thinking about it, I may pick up drawing. It's just... I lack the motivation. xD Nobody I know in real life draws except for like... one person.... :x

my motivation in brawl is to be the best i can. push my limits and become 1 of the best brawlers out there.
irl, i have no motivation. what's to motive me other than games? college? what will i major in? i don't have the motivation to look for one.

family? i don't think they care enough to motive me.

i like games because they motive me to become better at something i like.
to beat someone good is a reward for my hard training.
losing means i have more work to do.
that's something life has never given me.
so outside of games, i have the teenage lack of motivation.
i don't know what number though.

You can compete in that same manner outside of games. In almost anything to be honest. What else do you like?

 

[Solaris1110]

This doesn't seem like a huge problem imo. If you know people who are interested in those subjects, become friends with them. Make it fun. If not, look for them. I'm sure there's a lot of people who share those interests. If you have fun, you dont really need much 'motivation'

 

[Mewter]

Motivation?

-Smash: Getting better and having fun at the same time, of course, if even for the self-satisfaction of knowing I can play it fairly well.

Spoiler

SAKURAIIII!!!

I'd like to get better at coding, German, and 3D graphic rendering, but it's pretty confusing for me.

Basically, I'd like to be able to get better at these, but it's hard without the assistance of someone else.

 

[SuSa]

I have to sort of get along with the person, hence why I don't just go to any old gfx forum.

My friend CCJ ran FC (Final Chaos) so that's what got me started.

Also, while I do have fun, I do need motivation. :x I have fun skating, but my only friend who skated (Jeremy) moved to FL... haven't really skated since, except for to get to places faster then walking.

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

German has about 16 different ways to say The and 820184653296526323653865848 when wrote out is one word, get ***** everyone esle

 

[o-Serin-o]

No color atm.

SuSa, motivation is whatever you make of it. Stop crying and *****ing over things you can't control. I used to do the same ****t until I realized I can't make anyone and everyone do what I say or give me the motivation that I want.

I wanna type more but I have to go to sleep. On the road tomorrow.

 

[SuSa]

Serin, I don't think you read my blog. lawl

 

[Roxas M]

I have something I'd call a curse.

There isn't really anything I'm "bad" at. I'm just not "great" at anything either.

I used to do gymnastics. I wasn't the worst, but I wasn't the best.
I used to skate. I was the best of my friends, but far from the better of people just outside of my group of friends. (EG: My friends sucked. )
I suck at drawing, but there are always 2 year olds around to make me feel better.

Thinking about it, I may pick up drawing. It's just... I lack the motivation. xD Nobody I know in real life draws except for like... one person.... :x




You can compete in that same manner outside of games. In almost anything to be honest. What else do you like?

i'm trying to get into computers and programming. and i seem to have a talent with training dogs.
i've always been into computers and stuff like that.
and dogs like me for some reason so i find them pretty easy to train.

 

[o-Serin-o]

Serin, I don't think you read my blog. lawl

Nah, I didn't tl;dr.

 

[Jim Morrison]

I'm learning German :D

I also speak it pretty alright since I'm Dutch. If no one wants to help you, come to good ol' Gf2tw.

 

[Tennet]

They don't speak German in Soviet Russia.

 

[Fuelbi]

Oh god my only motivation is if it is a chance to make my father proud (which is extremely rare) or if someone will pay me to do it XD lol. Btw you said you help anybody with graphics? Would banner making count because I want to learn how to with GIMP. son ***** hard to master

 

[SuSa]

GIMP isn't meant for manipulation really. :x People just try and find ways to use it for such. It makes me sad inside. but to each his own...

I just don't do gimp. PS7 ftw.

 

[Fuelbi]

But could you teach me if I download PS7 though? I really want to open my own siggy shop