jber4life
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Link to original post: [drupal=3425]It's funny how things play out[/drupal]
Allow me to give you a little insight into my life. I, like I imagine many other people growing up, thought I was something incredibly special. I was always told I could do whatever I wanted. I have large dreams, and I had huge ambitions.
Now, once I entered high school I started reading a lot of anti-consumerist, anti-government, anti-capitalist information. And I really began to get behind the movement. I refused to buy brand names. I refused to vote, I join a socialist club. All because I thought I hated the idea of being part of the “man,” so to speak. I remember thinking, I am only 16, how are all of these people happy living there life, waking up at 6 every morning, working in a cubicle. Doing the exact same thing they do every other day. These sheep, because obviously they weren’t people, are contributing to a broken system. I did not understand how all of these adults didn’t get it. I started to think, that I was actually smarter than them. That I had this genius view of the world, that I saw the strings that controlled the system. I knew that all of those people with 9-5 jobs had at one point given up on their dreams, because who in their right mind could really settle for that. My ambitions were far greater. I was going to become an Actor, win a Tony or two, and spread my anti-conformist message around the globe.
Now, my entire life I have been a theatre kid. I loved doing drama classes, and musical theatre classes, even technical theatre classes, I became accustom to getting lead roles. Sure enough, once I finished high school, I auditioned for a theatre school. Only one. And I didn’t get in. I did not try again next year; I did not audition for any others. I just stopped trying all together. That one 10 minute audition, and that 1 minute phone call of rejection, had single handled stop me from my dream. I wish at the time I was strong enough to have fought back. But atlas, it was time to regroup and try to change the world another way. As an 18 year old out of a high school, with grades not good enough to get into university, I had to change my course of action. Since I spent all my high school focusing on Drama, and not grades, I needed to upgrade. So I signed up and essentially retook grade 12 all over again. I needed some way to support myself, because I had to pay for my own schooling. I got a job, at a retail outlet, selling brand named clothing. How Ironic. The mentality I kept to keep from hating myself was that this was just me paying me dues. Every great thinker or revolutionary had to.
Well, sure enough, I finished up on my upgrading and got accepted into the Political Science department at the U of L. I figured taking political science would be one the greatest ways I could get my opinions on the world out there. Now, I went in thinking I knew everything already. I went in, and I had concrete opinions about the right winged government being corrupt. I assumed that they were completely closed minded individuals that had no soul. Of course, little did I realize it then, but I was just as closed minded towards them. Become a political science major changed the course of everything. When I had made up my mind about everything, it was because I only every read and I only ever hung out with people that had similar opinions to me. In class I was forced to learn about the right wing governments, and I was taught not only about what they do, but why they do. I hated to admit it, but when all the information was on the table, when I knew a lot of the facts. I realized, I had been completely closed minded. Although I didn’t agree with what they had to say, it made sense, and I could sympathise with people who did. No longer was it me vs this evil. It was me vs somebody who has logical reasons for doing the things they did. I couldn’t dislike that. I couldn’t fight that. I had to respect it. I had an epiphany; there isn’t a universal correct answer for anything. Once again, I found myself doing nothing. I had lost my passion for political science, because I realized, it’s not a broken system. It’s not a perfect system either, but it’s nothing that will be changed anytime soon, it just needs to evolve naturally.
So here I was a year and a half into university, given up on two career dreams, for two very different reasons. Stuck at a crossroads, I needed to find a new passion quickly. After quickly re-evaluation my life, I decided the best course of action would be to become a teacher. It would be everything I would be looking for a job. The only problem was, the odds of changing the world became a more distant and distant dream. But I was ok with that. Unfortunately everybody and there cat wants’ to be a social studies teacher, so I decided it would be easier if I started doing math. And eventually become a math teacher. I can happily say, the semester I took as a pre-ed math major, was one of the happiest 4 months of my life. Sure enough, once I finished the semester, I got offered a really good job in the field of math. So I took it. And now every day, Monday to Friday, 5-9, I put on my suit, I go downtown to my office, and I crunch numbers. And I am completely happy with it. It may not be what I am most passion about, but its good money, and surprisingly more interesting then I thought it would be.
I become awed, when I look back at who I was just 5 years ago. Back then I thought I was extremely open minded (I wasn’t), I thought I had life figured out (I didn’t), I thought I was happy (I wasn’t), and I was positive I would never work a meaningless white collar job (I was wrong, and they are not meaningless). Thankfully I am not naive enough to have any idea where I will be in another 5 years, or what my opinions are going to be then. Just enjoy the ride.
Now, I know this has been a long read, and it’s probably fairly dull. But I thought I would just pass on some information to the younger members of SWF.
1) Don’t give up on your dreams for a bad reason.
2) For the love of god, don’t make huge generalizations about people. (Your always wrong.)
3) Stay happy and positive no matter what life throws at you, because you literally never know where you will be in 5 years
Allow me to give you a little insight into my life. I, like I imagine many other people growing up, thought I was something incredibly special. I was always told I could do whatever I wanted. I have large dreams, and I had huge ambitions.
Now, once I entered high school I started reading a lot of anti-consumerist, anti-government, anti-capitalist information. And I really began to get behind the movement. I refused to buy brand names. I refused to vote, I join a socialist club. All because I thought I hated the idea of being part of the “man,” so to speak. I remember thinking, I am only 16, how are all of these people happy living there life, waking up at 6 every morning, working in a cubicle. Doing the exact same thing they do every other day. These sheep, because obviously they weren’t people, are contributing to a broken system. I did not understand how all of these adults didn’t get it. I started to think, that I was actually smarter than them. That I had this genius view of the world, that I saw the strings that controlled the system. I knew that all of those people with 9-5 jobs had at one point given up on their dreams, because who in their right mind could really settle for that. My ambitions were far greater. I was going to become an Actor, win a Tony or two, and spread my anti-conformist message around the globe.
Now, my entire life I have been a theatre kid. I loved doing drama classes, and musical theatre classes, even technical theatre classes, I became accustom to getting lead roles. Sure enough, once I finished high school, I auditioned for a theatre school. Only one. And I didn’t get in. I did not try again next year; I did not audition for any others. I just stopped trying all together. That one 10 minute audition, and that 1 minute phone call of rejection, had single handled stop me from my dream. I wish at the time I was strong enough to have fought back. But atlas, it was time to regroup and try to change the world another way. As an 18 year old out of a high school, with grades not good enough to get into university, I had to change my course of action. Since I spent all my high school focusing on Drama, and not grades, I needed to upgrade. So I signed up and essentially retook grade 12 all over again. I needed some way to support myself, because I had to pay for my own schooling. I got a job, at a retail outlet, selling brand named clothing. How Ironic. The mentality I kept to keep from hating myself was that this was just me paying me dues. Every great thinker or revolutionary had to.
Well, sure enough, I finished up on my upgrading and got accepted into the Political Science department at the U of L. I figured taking political science would be one the greatest ways I could get my opinions on the world out there. Now, I went in thinking I knew everything already. I went in, and I had concrete opinions about the right winged government being corrupt. I assumed that they were completely closed minded individuals that had no soul. Of course, little did I realize it then, but I was just as closed minded towards them. Become a political science major changed the course of everything. When I had made up my mind about everything, it was because I only every read and I only ever hung out with people that had similar opinions to me. In class I was forced to learn about the right wing governments, and I was taught not only about what they do, but why they do. I hated to admit it, but when all the information was on the table, when I knew a lot of the facts. I realized, I had been completely closed minded. Although I didn’t agree with what they had to say, it made sense, and I could sympathise with people who did. No longer was it me vs this evil. It was me vs somebody who has logical reasons for doing the things they did. I couldn’t dislike that. I couldn’t fight that. I had to respect it. I had an epiphany; there isn’t a universal correct answer for anything. Once again, I found myself doing nothing. I had lost my passion for political science, because I realized, it’s not a broken system. It’s not a perfect system either, but it’s nothing that will be changed anytime soon, it just needs to evolve naturally.
So here I was a year and a half into university, given up on two career dreams, for two very different reasons. Stuck at a crossroads, I needed to find a new passion quickly. After quickly re-evaluation my life, I decided the best course of action would be to become a teacher. It would be everything I would be looking for a job. The only problem was, the odds of changing the world became a more distant and distant dream. But I was ok with that. Unfortunately everybody and there cat wants’ to be a social studies teacher, so I decided it would be easier if I started doing math. And eventually become a math teacher. I can happily say, the semester I took as a pre-ed math major, was one of the happiest 4 months of my life. Sure enough, once I finished the semester, I got offered a really good job in the field of math. So I took it. And now every day, Monday to Friday, 5-9, I put on my suit, I go downtown to my office, and I crunch numbers. And I am completely happy with it. It may not be what I am most passion about, but its good money, and surprisingly more interesting then I thought it would be.
I become awed, when I look back at who I was just 5 years ago. Back then I thought I was extremely open minded (I wasn’t), I thought I had life figured out (I didn’t), I thought I was happy (I wasn’t), and I was positive I would never work a meaningless white collar job (I was wrong, and they are not meaningless). Thankfully I am not naive enough to have any idea where I will be in another 5 years, or what my opinions are going to be then. Just enjoy the ride.
Now, I know this has been a long read, and it’s probably fairly dull. But I thought I would just pass on some information to the younger members of SWF.
1) Don’t give up on your dreams for a bad reason.
2) For the love of god, don’t make huge generalizations about people. (Your always wrong.)
3) Stay happy and positive no matter what life throws at you, because you literally never know where you will be in 5 years
