I have had it!

[Deathcarter]

I am tired of home and school. You are NEVER by yourself at school and even the slightest odd thing (laying on the floor, taking my shoes off, randomly kicking the wall) attracts unwanted attention. My mom is worse than a 30 page book report when she is talking about school.

I just want to be left alone. I am thinking about running away (better than my other plans). I don't care if I don't have food or shelter. I just want solitude. How should I handle this?

 

[Lesheik]

Don't do it.

 

[omfgomfg]

it is actually your decision
society will influence you even here
of course everyone will tell you not to do it
you posted this thread because you wanted them to tell you
..didn't you.

but it's your decision after all and since that is what you are thinking of doing then do it of course
THIS BETTER NOT BE A JOKE TOPIC, I SWEAR

 

[Zink]

/run life.exe
runcheck- is age <14
    if true, goto d1(.d:"T")
    if false, goto d2(.d:"F")
         -T run stopwhining.exe
-F runcheck- is age <18
      if true, goto d1.(d:"T2")
      if false, goto d2.(d:"F2")
         -T2 run stopwhining.exe
-F2 end

copy and paste into the L prompt and you should be good to go.

 

[tmw_redcell]

You need to find a place where you can be alone for a while. It will probably not be in your house. Try going to a library or something. Depending on where you live, what the weather is like and stuff, you could find a secluded location outdoors. There's a few places I can go to in the summer if it's a nice day. I used this to avoid chores in my youth.

It may also help to stay up late secretly. That's what I do. For some reason, even as a twnety year old, my parents were vehemently against me being up late as if it were an affront to God. I just wanted some quiet.

 

[Deathcarter]

I honestly don't want to run, but I honestly dislike interacting people in general. It is one thing if they keep to themselves, but usually I have to do what they say or deal with them. I just don't want to act up and get my mom even more mad or go to the guidance counseler every third day.

 

[notftomearth7]

Laying on the floor! God the people at your school must be pricks! Anyway, I would just say ignore it. Their are several decomformists that have done quite well. If that doesn't work, have you considered just talking things over with mom?

 

[Crimson King]

Create a memory palace. I can be in a crowded room but miles away.

Drugs do that too, but I would advise against them.

 

[Gamer4Fire]

I'd go with tmw's suggestion and find someplace outside that is nice and far away from society. I never had your problem, my parents mostly left me alone unless something was going on.

 

[Mr.GAW]

CK's suggestion may sound silly, but it's actually a great one. In 7th grade Health, we spent 2 days on relaxation or something, and we got to lay down and close our eyes all period this one day and listed to a tape. It told us to create what is basically "a happy place". I thought it was kind of goofy at the time, but I've got to be honest, I've found myself in that happy place many a time after I created it, and will probably use it until the day I die.

Take some time one night to make a "happy place" or "memory palace", it will help loads when you're stressed out/can't get to sleep/worried/etc.

 

[Rapid_Assassin]

Have you ever considered writing, painting, playing a musical instrument, or something else creative? Times of distress make for some of the best works in literature, art, and music.

Your school sounds exactly like my high school did. Anyone who is the slightest bit of a nonconformist is watched for the wrong reasons by school officials. If you do anything that causes concern, they call your parents, even if you're doing nothing (because everyone else is doing something). Does this sound familiar? Wait a couple years, and you can run away from home legally. It's called growing up.

 

[AlCheMisT amari]

aight, i got this one.

run away and attend all the smash tournies you can!

it gets you away and you get a very long break time to play smash and endulge yourself with fast food.

el oh el.

 

[SirroMinus1]

I would say dont run away but Idk how life is with you at home. but that sucks 30 page book reports.

 

[Rapid_Assassin]

If this is a serious post, I suggest getting help.

http://www.1800runaway.org/

There you go.

 

[Pluvia's other account]

Well first of all, don't deliberately do anything that'll make you stand out. Like, lying on the floor. Just be yourself, and don't do things dramatically different from the norm.

Just find time to yourself every once in a while. Staying up late isn't exactly the best idea, as it'll probably mess up your sleep pattern and you'll just feel tired and things during the day.

But talk to people too, tell people what's bothering you. It feels better, as you'll realise you're not alone. It doesn't really matter who it is. It could be someone close to you, or it could just be complete strangers like us.

 

[Jammer]

I honestly don't want to run, but I honestly dislike interacting people in general. It is one thing if they keep to themselves, but usually I have to do what they say or deal with them.

You should be getting help for this, mate. It doesn't have to be like this. It is entirely possible for you to even enjoy being around others.

Please don't run away.

Someone very close to me has run away, twice, for a month one time. To be completely honest, it did help his or her parents to understand how upset he or she was. But I don't think it was worth it. The world is a very scary place, and if you plan on just running, you need to know where you can sleep and get shelter and food.

I really hate to say this, but if you have exhausted all of your options, which means you have talked to many trusted adults about the problems you're having, and they don't care or they don't believe you or they write it off as you being a moody teenager, you have every right to send a message.

You may want to do that by telling your guidance counselor or favorite teacher that you have considered killing yourself. I would not be surprised if that were actually true, and I believe they have to do something about it by law.

I know, I know this is something I should never say, but running away isn't as horrible as people make it seem. It might take something like that to show you how lucky you are to have a place that you can come home to. It will definitely show people around you that something needs to change. But try every other option first, please.

 

[Chill]

Come to my house. I have candy.

Seriously, take the suggestions of the people above me. The ones below me suck.

I don't think he said he wanted to kill himself unless I missed that.

 

[teeman92]

well, get a date and go out, that's what i did when i was bored

 

[Dave the Perspicacious]

It might be of some help to try and analyse the way you think, why do you think things? What makes you feel things? Why do you want solitude? Is there anyway that you could honestly compromise? Make things really, really clear in your own head first, before taking any action. I do it all the time. I analyse my own psychology for everything, so that I am really really clear on things, and I honestly find it very helpful, and rather enlightening.

I wouldn't recommend running, but I have no knowledge on that subject at all, so my advice may not be best. I think discussion with your family, or others is the best thing. Or even people that have been through the same thing.

Tell them how you feel, and why. Make it clear to them that something is wrong. I do not know your family, so I have no idea what the situation is. Once again, I may be in no place to suggest, I do not personally know of any cases.

Solitude may sound ideal, but being able to interact with others, is far more ideal.

I agree, that music is an excellent way to solve problems like these. Although if you are not learned in an instrument. Trying to learn one may lead to further frustration.

Good luck finding peace, in, or out of yourself.

Dave

 

[Jammer]

Seriously, take the suggestions of the people above me. The ones below me suck.

I don't think he said he wanted to kill himself unless I missed that.

I would not be surprised if he had active suicidal thoughts. It often comes with the whole "Everything's all wrong and I don't feel right anywhere" thing.

And I want to point out to anyone who missed it that when Chill said the ones below him sucked, he hadn't seen any of them. So, it was a joke. In case you feel bad because you're below Chill.

 

[Gamer4Fire]

Through early morning fog I see
visions of the things to be
the pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make
all our little joys relate
without that ever-present hate
but now I know that it's too late, and...
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
so this is all I have to say.
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

The only way to win is cheat
And lay it down before I'm beat
and to another give my seat
for that's the only painless feat.
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

A brave man once requested me
to answer questions that are key
is it to be or not to be
and I replied 'oh why ask me?'
'Cause suicide is painless
it brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
...and you can do the same thing if you please.

-Theme song to MASH

 

[Jammer]

Wow, Gamer4Fire, that's very... supportive of you. Not.

Suicide is not, in fact, painless, guys. If you kill yourself, you lose whatever you might have become. And it severely hurts everyone around you.

There are always good times and bad times. Just try to keep on going until you get to the good times. I don't know how old you are, Deathcarter, but you won't have to live in your house forever. The time to leave may seem far away, but it will happen eventually. Think of it as the light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[CHAOSDRAGON88]

I honestly don't want to run, but I honestly dislike interacting people in general. It is one thing if they keep to themselves, but usually I have to do what they say or deal with them. I just don't want to act up and get my mom even more mad or go to the guidance counseler every third day.

Unfortunately i feel as if you are not being valued as an individual and running away is your solution towards freedom. Dont run it never helps, try finding a creative and productive outlet also try voicing your opinion to your stressors in a calm and normal way. If they are normal people they should understand your feelings and your needs.

 

[dr.neo]

Just move to Oregon, I dont think people live there.

 

[Chill]

I would not be surprised if he had active suicidal thoughts. It often comes with the whole "Everything's all wrong and I don't feel right anywhere" thing.

Sounds like the guy just wants some alone time to me. But I'm a glass half full kind of guy.

 

[Azua]

If you see a guidance counselor every third day or whatever, why don't you ask them to talk to your mom about getting off of your case for a little while?

 

[Deathcarter]

Thanks for all your suggestions guys. I decided not to run away and I find practicing my kicking at home helps me a lot. Usually, the happy place thing does not work for me because of the noise of school and the inability to lie down. But the library idea would work. My problems stem from a lack of work ethic at school. I felt that not only did I want to be alone, but some lazy bum like me only deserve my relatively good life if I worked, and if I did not, I didn't deserve the cushy life of home.

And for the record, I did attempt to kill myself with a pencil in middle school after I saw my bad report card. But now, I too weak of an individual to commit suicide. So it is out of the question

 

[CHAOSDRAGON88]

Well i am glad you are at ease, but not carrying out suicide does not make you weak.

 

[Gamer4Fire]

Wow, Gamer4Fire, that's very... supportive of you.

Thanks, but I didn't write the song so I can't really take credit.

 

[Brightside6382]

I am tired of home and school. You are NEVER by yourself at school and even the slightest odd thing (laying on the floor, taking my shoes off, randomly kicking the wall) attracts unwanted attention. My mom is worse than a 30 page book report when she is talking about school.

I just want to be left alone. I am thinking about running away (better than my other plans). I don't care if I don't have food or shelter. I just want solitude. How should I handle this?

If you don't want attention don't do odd things that warrant attention to begin with. Seriously, if you randomly kick walls why would you be surprised that people look at you funny?

 

[Zink]

Sounds like the guy just wants some alone time to me. But I'm a glass half full kind of guy.

wow, what idiot made a glass twice as big as it needed to be?

Jokes aside, I agree with Jammer. His thoughts are similar to my own. I want to add that I don't think suicide is a matter of strength or weakness. It is a matter of perception.