AthensHorseParty
Smash Journeyman
Hahahaha Jk! It's me, AthensHorseParty!
I was pretty sure I was banned but it appears I'm not. I know most of you think I suck or hate me or think I'm weird and lame or think I'm awkward and a loser. Which is true. But in case anyone cares, I wanted to say thanks to whatever kind of "community" this is or some ****. I know from all the time I spend ****ing with Cane and Fireblaster it wouldn't seem like it but somehow knowing other people that like this dumb children's game as much as me has given me stuff to do during the day other than destroy my life. I've also gotten signifcantly better, especially since I moved somewhere I can run an ethernet cable to my room and play online every day, and for some reason that gives me an unfounded sense of confidence.
I haven't really shared this with anybody here, but some of you have probably guessed I have had a history of problems with depression, anxiety, drug abuse, self harm, etc. I try to mask it behind a hilarious self-deprecating sense of humor but every once and a while it gets bad enough that I will probably actually end up dead somewhere if nothing is done about it. You may have heard that I was planning on going to Hit Stun and buying my plane tickets this week. Well as it turns out, even though I have a check from my last job that I would've used to pay for it, I'm being largely supported by my parents (and student loans) and decided to come clean about the fact that I've been binge drinking for pretty much the last three weeks straight and not really functioning normally at all.
I'm on my way to a psychiatric facility that caters to depression and substance abuse pretty soon, so I won't be going to Hit Stun after all, go figure. But I still may be able to catch it on stream and will be cheering for all my GA smashers, even Cane (if Henior, NTA and Kirbstomper all get eliminated first somehow). Seriously though for what it's worth, I know nobody really cares but I'm glad you all exist. Even Fireblaster. thanks
-AHP
I was pretty sure I was banned but it appears I'm not. I know most of you think I suck or hate me or think I'm weird and lame or think I'm awkward and a loser. Which is true. But in case anyone cares, I wanted to say thanks to whatever kind of "community" this is or some ****. I know from all the time I spend ****ing with Cane and Fireblaster it wouldn't seem like it but somehow knowing other people that like this dumb children's game as much as me has given me stuff to do during the day other than destroy my life. I've also gotten signifcantly better, especially since I moved somewhere I can run an ethernet cable to my room and play online every day, and for some reason that gives me an unfounded sense of confidence.
I haven't really shared this with anybody here, but some of you have probably guessed I have had a history of problems with depression, anxiety, drug abuse, self harm, etc. I try to mask it behind a hilarious self-deprecating sense of humor but every once and a while it gets bad enough that I will probably actually end up dead somewhere if nothing is done about it. You may have heard that I was planning on going to Hit Stun and buying my plane tickets this week. Well as it turns out, even though I have a check from my last job that I would've used to pay for it, I'm being largely supported by my parents (and student loans) and decided to come clean about the fact that I've been binge drinking for pretty much the last three weeks straight and not really functioning normally at all.
I'm on my way to a psychiatric facility that caters to depression and substance abuse pretty soon, so I won't be going to Hit Stun after all, go figure. But I still may be able to catch it on stream and will be cheering for all my GA smashers, even Cane (if Henior, NTA and Kirbstomper all get eliminated first somehow). Seriously though for what it's worth, I know nobody really cares but I'm glad you all exist. Even Fireblaster. thanks
-AHP
