Another World

[CRASHiC]

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I need another place
Will there be peace?
I need another world
This one's nearly gone

Still have too many dreams
Never seen the light
I need another world
A place where I can go

I'm gonna miss the sea
I'm gonna miss the snow
I'm gonna miss the bees
I'll miss the things that grow
I'm gonna miss the trees
I'm gonna miss the sound
I'll miss the animals
I'm gonna miss you all

I need another place
Will there be peace?
I need another world
This one's nearly gone

I'm gonna miss the birds
Singing all this songs
Been kissing this so long

As hard and rough a life as I've had, both of the women (my mother and my lover) in my life being harmed by those they thought cared for them, my family's inconsistent income, the death of the very part of myself that I loved the most (my music ability), I love this world. No feeling can describe the amazing joy I get in those moments I am fully aware that I am conscious: I fell down the stairs and felt joy in the pain my body felt, the feeling of hot apple cider in my mouth, the sight of the trees turning in fall, all of these excite me beyond anything else in life.

Another problem I have is that my entire view upon life is based almost entirely on a single piece of philosophy called Waking Life, along with the many other musings of Speed Levitich, both exampled here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aCazIRtG3o
However, Speed has yet to turn his attention to death, so there is a whole that I am unable to fill with my current knowledge. I can know that I no matter what life throws at me, I will appreciate and enjoy every moment of it, and understand it beyond all things. I turn to other philosophers, but still I have yet to find an appeasing logical thought about the 'beauty' of death that I may accept it just like every other part of life.

For this, I am scared to die,.

 

[GunmasterLombardi]

At first I thought you were going to commit suicide. (O.o)

People often refer to how it was before you were born. It wasn't really that bad, so being dead would be very similar. But if there's a religion in mind, EVERY part of your thinking is thrown off if you believe in Heaven or Hell.

But there's no need to introduce such beliefs to those who are not willing to accept them. Just think of it like this: You've earned an experience that people have never had, and that's very special.

 

[CRASHiC]

Whoops, I had already posted this blog once before.

Oh well. This feeling has only grown.
The before I was born doesn't help me, because that is exactly the thing I fear the most. I am in love with existing, I am in love with the fireflies, I am in love with the snow, the mountains, the sky, the air, the feeling I got when I fell down the stairs. The loss of this would be the most painful thing in the world for me.

 

[GunmasterLombardi]

The thing is you are more fortunate than others. There starving children dying in Africa right now as we speak. But I think that's besides the point...

Everyone who has appreciated life doesn't like losing it. If you are young of age then it's not mandatory to be concerned about death at this time.

 

[CRASHiC]

My mother died at the age of 28. That gives me 9-10 years if I were her.
Death is very close to me. From a young age I have seen death and loss of those that were close to me. I have plenty of reason for it to be on my mind.

 

[GunmasterLombardi]

I'm sorry to hear that.
I am also sorry that I am not a therapist, miracleworker, or anything along those lines. My 2 cents have been spent.

 

[Sucumbio]

oh now, your music ability isn't dead, you still make great beats, and you got the EP comin' don't let yourself get down on yourself over that, you're talented, and always will be, even if you hit a dry spot... hell I went nearly 2 years w/o writing a thing, and it was you that brought me back and for that i'll be eternally grateful.

I too fear dying. The literal dying part... I want it to be quick, painless preferably. I loath the idea of wasting away in a decrepit state, begging for it to end. I would be fine if I blinked out tomorrow, tonight, right now even, or 100 years from now... so long as it won't hurt.

As for what awaits -after- death, well... I'm a Gaia theorist, and fully expect to return to mother earth in form body and soul, so I think it'd be really cool. I won't necessarily miss "life" I do however believe life will continue, as I will, just in a different way.