An explanation to why I post what I do.

[Kawaii Poyo]

This is an explanation to why I oftenly post annoying crap on the boards,

DON'T ****ING SKIM IT AND THEN POST CRAP, READ THE WHOLE THING!


I often make posts about my dad cause I f*cking hate him. People think I hate him JUST cause he doesn't give me ridez to tourneyz. Yeah thats ******** but...read this post fully.

My dad, he doesn't give me ridez to tourneyz, I can COMPLETELY understand this, but when I talk about getting ridez from otherz, he goes ape **** and tells me. "You get a ride from me or from NO ONE." I mean he yells so ****ing loud. I mean, what the hell. He doesn't take me to tourneys, which I can understand, but he is a douche when I say I'm going to pay someone else to get a ride. Due to this *******, I rarely ever get to goto tourneys, I goto one like once every 2 months.

And I want to make the record clear for those who don't know. Smash is EVERYTHING to me, I've DEDICATED and DEVOTED me life to it. Compared to smash, I don't give a flying **** about ANYTHING or ANYONE (or almost anyone, I don't care about my bloodline relatives compared to smash, yes). Now some of you maybe thinking that cause I don't care about my dad (compared to smash) he shouldn't give me a ride. Well how about this. HE DOESN'T KNOW. Hell, I don't even want him to give me a ride, I just don't want him going ape **** when I say I'm gonna pay to get a ride from someone else.

I've considered quitting smash countless times, I've SERIOUSLY considered suicide countless times. But I never did. Hell, my dad is in Maryland which is the ONLY reason I'm staying with him, if he wasn't MD/VA, I would move back in with my mom. I hate my dad and have put up with his BS and I've wanted to go back to my mother's place since May last year but I didn't. Its because of the smash community that I've stayed. I've endured hell just for smash. And for what? To goto a tourney only every 2 months? I think this is an outrage. You maybe thinking, go up to PA, they have smash tourneys too. WRONG. Yeah they do, but I care about the smash community that I am in right now, MD/VA (that and MD/VA is so much better than any reigon :D).

I have few IRL friends, and thats cause I live where I do. I live in an area with bad schools (from my dad's perspective, iono TBH) so my dad makes me homeschooled. Its VERY lonely, especially when the people you do live with (brother and father) are people who don't appreciate you for WHO you are (aka just cause I'm son/brother). I am lonely all the time and its depressing at times. Whereas if I moved in with my mother in PA I could goto a public and maybe actually befriend some people IRL. But I don't. Why? Cause of the Smash Community, hell, most of the people in the community dislike me and even some of the people I like hate me. But I don't care. I've dealt with so much crap just for smash and what, TO GOTO A TOURNEY ONLY EVERY TWO ****ING MONTHS?!

Guyz, reading this I hope you understand why I post so much crap about suicide and my family, I deal with so much crap that I could evade, and most of the time it seems pointless.

 

[Witchking_of_Angmar]

Dude. It doesn't matter what you replace "smash" with, it's still unhealthy. Being so focused on one thing that it becomes your life is very very unhealthy in most cases. Even if it's something more accepted by society than video games, if you're obsessed with something, that's not a good sign.

Try to get another hobby. It will help a ****load. Really. I'm no psychologist, but really, at this point that's the healthiest thing you could do. Preferably go for something physically exhausting because of how well those things can distract you from **** happening in your life. Try a ballsport, or maybe a martial art if you want to combine physical exhaustion and discipline.

Also, I'd like to point out that PA has a fine Melee scene, so if you play Melee (dunno whether you're more of a Brawl or Melee guy), and find it more enjoyable with your mother, you might want to move back there.

 

[MyCurse4Life]

This is an explanation to why I oftenly post annoying crap on the boards,

DON'T ****ING SKIM IT AND THEN POST CRAP, READ THE WHOLE THING!


I often make posts about my dad cause I f*cking hate him. People think I hate him JUST cause he doesn't give me ridez to tourneyz. Yeah thats ******** but...read this post fully.

My dad, he doesn't give me ridez to tourneyz, I can COMPLETELY understand this, but when I talk about getting ridez from otherz, he goes ape **** and tells me. "You get a ride from me or from NO ONE." I mean he yells so ****ing loud. I mean, what the hell. He doesn't take me to tourneys, which I can understand, but he is a douche when I say I'm going to pay someone else to get a ride. Due to this *******, I rarely ever get to goto tourneys, I goto one like once every 2 months.

And I want to make the record clear for those who don't know. Smash is EVERYTHING to me, I've DEDICATED and DEVOTED me life to it. Compared to smash, I don't give a flying **** about ANYTHING or ANYONE (or almost anyone, I don't care about my bloodline relatives compared to smash, yes). Now some of you maybe thinking that cause I don't care about my dad (compared to smash) he shouldn't give me a ride. Well how about this. HE DOESN'T KNOW. Hell, I don't even want him to give me a ride, I just don't want him going ape **** when I say I'm gonna pay to get a ride from someone else.

I've considered quitting smash countless times, I've SERIOUSLY considered suicide countless times. But I never did. Hell, my dad is in Maryland which is the ONLY reason I'm staying with him, if he wasn't MD/VA, I would move back in with my mom. I hate my dad and have put up with his BS and I've wanted to go back to my mother's place since May last year but I didn't. Its because of the smash community that I've stayed. I've endured hell just for smash. And for what? To goto a tourney only every 2 months? I think this is an outrage. You maybe thinking, go up to PA, they have smash tourneys too. WRONG. Yeah they do, but I care about the smash community that I am in right now, MD/VA (that and MD/VA is so much better than any reigon :D).

I have few IRL friends, and thats cause I live where I do. I live in an area with bad schools (from my dad's perspective, iono TBH) so my dad makes me homeschooled. Its VERY lonely, especially when the people you do live with (brother and father) are people who don't appreciate you for WHO you are (aka just cause I'm son/brother). I am lonely all the time and its depressing at times. Whereas if I moved in with my mother in PA I could goto a public and maybe actually befriend some people IRL. But I don't. Why? Cause of the Smash Community, hell, most of the people in the community dislike me and even some of the people I like hate me. But I don't care. I've dealt with so much crap just for smash and what, TO GOTO A TOURNEY ONLY EVERY TWO ****ING MONTHS?!

Guyz, reading this I hope you understand why I post so much crap about suicide and my family, I deal with so much crap that I could evade, and most of the time it seems pointless.

Why are you telling this to us? We don't pretty much care for what you do it's a free country and you could go kill someone for all I care. Seriously, keep some of the stuff you want to share to yourself next time.

 

[Witchking_of_Angmar]

Why are you telling this to us? We don't pretty much care for what you do it's a free country and you could go kill someone for all I care. Seriously, keep some of the stuff you want to share to yourself next time.

Wow..... you're telling a suicidal guy to **** off? Have a heart dude.

 

[Kinzer]

Why are you telling this to us? We don't pretty much care for what you do it's a free country and you could go kill someone for all I care. Seriously, keep some of the stuff you want to share to yourself next time.

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As if the other person replying to you wasn't enough, here's a quote from some guy I don't know

"If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."

Seriously that kind of trash isn't needed here, and especially not in this thread.

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As for the OP, I would help you but I fear my advice would do you no good, so it would be much better if I say nothing.

 

[Virgilijus]

Posts like these belong in the Something Bothering You? thread. Try to post there next time.