Seed of Sorrow
Smash Champion
Well this week has been eventful and I have a few stories. Read them if you like, skip a few if you want, there's no obligation.
Here's my first story:
Just yesterday I took the SAT II's. When I first arrived at a local high school I was herded into a roomy cafeteria. While I waited I met a few of my older friends from elementary school and extracurricular courses. We huddled in a group to talk about our life thus far and catch up on other details. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw this other girl from my current high school. She is considered one of the more "popular" people - a pretty face but relatively dim witted
. Now, what I saw shocked me a bit. This girl, instead of associating with myself and my friends, stayed in a corner, alone. I sarcastically thought to myself, "you're really clever, have fun speaking to that wall behind you." Now, I'm not an outcast in any sense, I have associated with that girl a bit
and if I can flatter myself just a little I'm rather popular myself. I just wondered how fervent, how self destructive her disdain for appearing in a less acceptable clique is/was.
Second:
I stayed in West Virginia for 4 days and roomed with 11 guys including myself. Over that span we had a lot of insecurity talk, insecurities that I would like to share with you guys. Rather than just listing I'd like to explain them. In the cabin I started and finished by explaining my card hobby, which I already shared with you guys, but I didn't include others that I should have. I guess I want to rectify this with myself by sharing them now. To start, I don't get a lot of girls, the one and only girl that I dated..well, we broke within a month, and feel that because I don't get a lot of girls I'm not attractive. I couldn't tell you if I'm attractive or not because that's open to interpretation, and I know that dating is about personality and all but appearance plays a large part. I think that it's really unfortunate that light doesn't bounce of my face in the way I would like it too. Another insecurity of mine is that I feel my depression stemmed from my sister. When I was young my sister was my "bully." Everything that you don't say to a child she told me (you're ugly, nobody likes you, mommy loves me more and doesn't love you, etc.) I'm not too depressed anymore, but I'm conflicted. How can I forgive my sister for causing me years of struggle, and my parents for overlooking my sister's behavior?
Anyhow it doesn't quite matter.
By the way, I also a Capella'd "Don't worry be happy" and if a friend uploads it I'll show you. West Virginia also has one of the most spectacular night skies I have ever seen, I wish I could show it.
third:
I'm starting a psychology club at school and am going to get a few people to help me study students. I took psychology last year and the teacher thinks it would be a cool idea to study the 150 some students now taking psychology. I'll try to find answers to questions, but I have no questions yet. What psychological questions are you curious about? It can be about anything, body language, statistics, etc. I just need ideas.
There are more stories but I'm tired right now and have forgotten a lot of them, I may include some later.
I guess the reason I'm telling you guys so much stuff is that I'd like to be more than just a name, and start conversations that are a bit deeper than question and answer. So here is where I leave you, lets talk about anything; lets talk about how you went to the grocery store and saw a cute girl; lets talk about how exciting a new hobby is, or an adventurous bike ride. We all have stories, tell me anything, any insignificant little thing can itself be significant.
Here's my first story:
Just yesterday I took the SAT II's. When I first arrived at a local high school I was herded into a roomy cafeteria. While I waited I met a few of my older friends from elementary school and extracurricular courses. We huddled in a group to talk about our life thus far and catch up on other details. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw this other girl from my current high school. She is considered one of the more "popular" people - a pretty face but relatively dim witted
rumor is she drops a lot of acid
I almost dated her best friend
Second:
I stayed in West Virginia for 4 days and roomed with 11 guys including myself. Over that span we had a lot of insecurity talk, insecurities that I would like to share with you guys. Rather than just listing I'd like to explain them. In the cabin I started and finished by explaining my card hobby, which I already shared with you guys, but I didn't include others that I should have. I guess I want to rectify this with myself by sharing them now. To start, I don't get a lot of girls, the one and only girl that I dated..well, we broke within a month, and feel that because I don't get a lot of girls I'm not attractive. I couldn't tell you if I'm attractive or not because that's open to interpretation, and I know that dating is about personality and all but appearance plays a large part. I think that it's really unfortunate that light doesn't bounce of my face in the way I would like it too. Another insecurity of mine is that I feel my depression stemmed from my sister. When I was young my sister was my "bully." Everything that you don't say to a child she told me (you're ugly, nobody likes you, mommy loves me more and doesn't love you, etc.) I'm not too depressed anymore, but I'm conflicted. How can I forgive my sister for causing me years of struggle, and my parents for overlooking my sister's behavior?
Anyhow it doesn't quite matter.
By the way, I also a Capella'd "Don't worry be happy" and if a friend uploads it I'll show you. West Virginia also has one of the most spectacular night skies I have ever seen, I wish I could show it.
third:
I'm starting a psychology club at school and am going to get a few people to help me study students. I took psychology last year and the teacher thinks it would be a cool idea to study the 150 some students now taking psychology. I'll try to find answers to questions, but I have no questions yet. What psychological questions are you curious about? It can be about anything, body language, statistics, etc. I just need ideas.
There are more stories but I'm tired right now and have forgotten a lot of them, I may include some later.
I guess the reason I'm telling you guys so much stuff is that I'd like to be more than just a name, and start conversations that are a bit deeper than question and answer. So here is where I leave you, lets talk about anything; lets talk about how you went to the grocery store and saw a cute girl; lets talk about how exciting a new hobby is, or an adventurous bike ride. We all have stories, tell me anything, any insignificant little thing can itself be significant.
I can't believe I posted this. Its a bit embarrassing but I won't say why