25%Cotton
Smash Ace
ok, story is i'm a guy, and over the course of about 7 years i think i've actually fallen in love with my friend... who is also a guy. this disturbed me greatly (i don't dislike gay people of either gender, i just don't ever want to be gay)... so i didn't say anything. finally today i told him, and i also told him that i'd understand if he didn't want to talk to me anymore... also a lot of stuff about how me, my body, and my mind are always fighting each other for superiority... that i really just wanted to be his best friend (the truth). and he doesn't mind. we can still be best friends.... i'm really happy about this!! i told him that my main wish is for him to finally ask out the girl he likes so that i can be free... (further background story: i'm not gay. i'm not straight. i'm not bi. i'm pansexual... which is basically a whole "bohemian" type idea, if you can understand that. really i don't care the gender of whoever i fall in love with in the end)
i actually have a lot of crushes on girls, and getting him to ask one out will really give me the strength and courage to ask this particular girl out as well.... i'm still in love with my friend, but if he asks someone out i (though a bit jealous at first) know that i'll be able to move on. i'm already starting to feel a lot more freedom in this way.
the only problem i see now is a bit of awkwardness in our friendship and the fact that "this particular girl" is dating someone and has been for a while... thank god i'm well liked at school for being the awkward kid (so awkward is easy for me to pull off) and thank god the guy "this particular girl" is dating probably won't be able to hold onto her.
i don't know why you should care... it's just i'm in a really good mood today, and i felt like sharing. sue me.
i actually have a lot of crushes on girls, and getting him to ask one out will really give me the strength and courage to ask this particular girl out as well.... i'm still in love with my friend, but if he asks someone out i (though a bit jealous at first) know that i'll be able to move on. i'm already starting to feel a lot more freedom in this way.
the only problem i see now is a bit of awkwardness in our friendship and the fact that "this particular girl" is dating someone and has been for a while... thank god i'm well liked at school for being the awkward kid (so awkward is easy for me to pull off) and thank god the guy "this particular girl" is dating probably won't be able to hold onto her.
i don't know why you should care... it's just i'm in a really good mood today, and i felt like sharing. sue me.
