I have a problem very a few ha ha's

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

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My problem is I don't admit my problems I fix them my self most are mental I,m driving myself nuts somedays I am better but there is more and more problems that gets in my head. I,m not on drugs I swear everythings crazy. I don't open open up much because I hate to bug people. I want my ideas without the crazy mess inside. I was crazy before I was insane by insane I mean insane by crazy I mean a different way of thinking.

I,ve been reading about syd barrett, one crazy F*** amazing music and stuff http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQ_tpmGvths&feature=related but it all sliped away into his mind. I want out of my mind before I mess myself up really bad to the point were no one can repair it. I don't want to slip away from the beautiful world.

I tried of this I want it to stop I can solve my problems only to be meet with something even more crazy and confusing. I,m trying not to have a mental break down right now. I want someone there to hug right now. to say hey it's all right. It's all right. Even if I don't get help I will still keep going I can't stop just like I can't kill myself. I can't stop trying it's impossible. Ask me what ever I can't understand something I need to understand I want to know what is being sane, I want that girls don't really like crazy. I want this more than you want life I want out of my f***ing mind I hate it in their it messes with me bad.But it isn't to much to ask for is it?

 

[OFY]

You are not alone.

 

[john!]

"Very few ha ha's" might be your problem. Laugh more, not cuz you're crazy but because life is funny. Relaaaax...

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

Oh it feels like it in here. God i've got to stop listening to pink floyd and get rid of my shirts and blanket for a few weeks.

 

[ndayday]

Just chill or try to talk to someone. It helps to have a person there you can talk to. If you don't really have someone IRL that you want to talk to, seek help here. There's plenty of kind people here that would talk to you, I'm betting.

Your username was chosen wisely, by the way.

 

[OFY]

Just chill or try to talk to someone. It helps to have a person there you can talk to. If you don't really have someone IRL that you want to talk to, seek help here. There's plenty of kind people here that would talk to you, I'm betting.

Your username was chosen wisely, by the way.

Having a person there to talk to about how EXACTLY you feel is not good in most situations. They won't truly understand what kind of person you are and they'll give you generic advice that you will pass by or in some cases make you a little crazier.

 

[ndayday]

Having a person there to talk to about how EXACTLY you feel is not good in most situations. They won't truly understand what kind of person you are and they'll give you generic advice that you will pass by or in some cases make you a little crazier.

I probably should of been a bit more specific, because I completely agree with you there.

Having someone there that is more of a figure that you can "cry on their shoulder" then anything is good IMO. Most people you talk to give, like you said, generic advice and really don't know how you are.

This is one reason I think blogs are really cool, you can write out your human emotions, and even though you can't be sure that someone understands, a lot of times people do. There are several blogs where people pour all their emotion into, and then you get people telling them they went through similar experiances, etc.

Take no advice from me Carzy, cuz I'm really erratic on my views of things. Seriously. :embarrass

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

I love my left arm so much, I just thought about it it's amazing it's always there even when my right can't help it's sweet.

But really all my life I had to be my own mental support and that's really not good. And sometimes I ask tings like why didn't that bus just hit me in the back of the head, why didn't I just end someone, why do people always do the same things again and again? why? because they and I choose to. I don't want to me crazy so I must have chosen this but if so who am I? Why else would I do that why? I ask things that get to me or other things do.

I want someone I trust more than my own eyes to talk to sadly their always busy and I can't get a hold of them.

I tried of repeating the phase you won't be crazy you won't be. I love the people who get me no reaso to hate them.


good night till the days begin to change.

 

[Ojanya]

Dude. You neeeeed to see someone about this, because if you're not just BSing us, there's something seriously wrong.

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

Duh that's what this is about. THe very same words were used too.

 

[Sucumbio]

don't want to alarm you but you sound schizophrenic. if that be the case only meds will correct it, but it will correct it, and you'll feel 100 times better than you do now. w/o more details tho it's hard to make a real diagnosis. but to answer your ?... no, it's not too much to ask to live life in or out of your head without things getting jumbled up out of your control. most ppl take that for granted, which is why good advise for someone in your situation is so hard to come by honestly.

 

[Delta-cod]

Well, you just need someone to be able to open up to. But you can't just take the first person you find and do it right away. Odds are you need to find someone and get close to them before doing it.

But really, just start talking to people. You'll find someone. =/

 

[INSANE CARZY GUY]

I could believe I,m a schizophrenic. I know I must be bipolar have you ever seen a mood ring flip through all it's colors in less than a minute? i've done that I controled it, but i doubt it's good to be able to in real life be able to say f*** being sad I,m going to be happy right now. There was no reason.

schizo wise- my mind WAS spilt for about 2 years and it was pretty sick. The bad part twisted everything I loved, hated or even happened to me turned into a h*** like pain. And I was spaced out more than half the day.

yeah i,m trying to talk