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recent thoughts
Has anyone esle been pulled over by the police during day because you walk funny and he thought you were on drugs?
It's amazing how blind I am with glasses I still have no idea what's going on at times still and I mistake ice for dead cats or mailboxes for people among other things. But somehow everything is beautiful and everything still amazes me like i'm from the 1700s. The sky is so beauitful why isn't everyone just taken back with amazement? If everyone can see everything far better than me what really messes with me is how they are much more blind than I will ever be.
Bathtubs are amazing you can go from uber hot water that burns your hands to icy water is less than a sec. Just think about that isn't it increbile?
Why am I so bitter when alone sometimes? and why do I choice to be so cruel to myself at times, like I haven't drunk anything for hours and I sit there looking at a sack of water bottles in a really hot room and I keep looking just to get to my head. But I buy someone I don't know a sandwich.
When people tell me to do something and I can't find a reason why I should and I ask them why and don't give me a real reason I simply don't listen to them because there rule/law/request it's right even God gave some reasoning to what he wanted us to do and how can we even begin to understand god? But somehow another human being doesn't think i'll understand their reasoning? Basically my dad won't let me play ssbm down stairs and we have to play on a s***y tv up stairs where it's hot and dirty(little brother's room), tc is like 16 inches, and there isn't room for 3 people to play.
Does anyone else always have nightmares? They don't scare me really last time it did was in 4th grade. but i'll wake up after having toren open the skull of a baby, or the same few things repeat forever till I wake up and it's driving me crazy even if I can't really rememeber my dream, i've even wake up truely believeing people I knew were truely dead they drown or whatever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlAe77E3gxY This is the song i've had in my head all day non stop I wasn't annoyed at all. I waoke up after on today from a nap and thought I have more patience than my self so I would just go on forever with that song in my head and wouldn't mind. So I wanted to make me happy and say OK i'm mad so the other side could be happy and could move onto something else but could it be happy like that? and made a point about how it was distracting me from stuff which it wasn't however that distraction could have failed by to blind me from what's really important.
self mindgames I smiled today and I rarly show emotions as in smiling, frowning if I do it's very hard to see. But I love being me sometimes it's worderful. self mindgames trying mindgame without being mindgamed by it's like 2 perfect foxs trying to outspace each other with DDing, WDing and SHFFing. pure awesome.
recent thoughts
Has anyone esle been pulled over by the police during day because you walk funny and he thought you were on drugs?
It's amazing how blind I am with glasses I still have no idea what's going on at times still and I mistake ice for dead cats or mailboxes for people among other things. But somehow everything is beautiful and everything still amazes me like i'm from the 1700s. The sky is so beauitful why isn't everyone just taken back with amazement? If everyone can see everything far better than me what really messes with me is how they are much more blind than I will ever be.
Bathtubs are amazing you can go from uber hot water that burns your hands to icy water is less than a sec. Just think about that isn't it increbile?
Why am I so bitter when alone sometimes? and why do I choice to be so cruel to myself at times, like I haven't drunk anything for hours and I sit there looking at a sack of water bottles in a really hot room and I keep looking just to get to my head. But I buy someone I don't know a sandwich.
When people tell me to do something and I can't find a reason why I should and I ask them why and don't give me a real reason I simply don't listen to them because there rule/law/request it's right even God gave some reasoning to what he wanted us to do and how can we even begin to understand god? But somehow another human being doesn't think i'll understand their reasoning? Basically my dad won't let me play ssbm down stairs and we have to play on a s***y tv up stairs where it's hot and dirty(little brother's room), tc is like 16 inches, and there isn't room for 3 people to play.
Does anyone else always have nightmares? They don't scare me really last time it did was in 4th grade. but i'll wake up after having toren open the skull of a baby, or the same few things repeat forever till I wake up and it's driving me crazy even if I can't really rememeber my dream, i've even wake up truely believeing people I knew were truely dead they drown or whatever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlAe77E3gxY This is the song i've had in my head all day non stop I wasn't annoyed at all. I waoke up after on today from a nap and thought I have more patience than my self so I would just go on forever with that song in my head and wouldn't mind. So I wanted to make me happy and say OK i'm mad so the other side could be happy and could move onto something else but could it be happy like that? and made a point about how it was distracting me from stuff which it wasn't however that distraction could have failed by to blind me from what's really important.
self mindgames I smiled today and I rarly show emotions as in smiling, frowning if I do it's very hard to see. But I love being me sometimes it's worderful. self mindgames trying mindgame without being mindgamed by it's like 2 perfect foxs trying to outspace each other with DDing, WDing and SHFFing. pure awesome.