DarkLouis331
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Link to original post: [drupal=2773]Another update about my life[/drupal]
So for the past couple of weeks I've gone through depression, just trying to figure alot of stuff out. And luckily, I'm at the point where I've done everything I can and can only be positive about what's going to happen in the future.
I've really struggled with figuring out what I want to do after college (besides being a part-time gamer going to Brawl/Melee tournaments...probably other games in the future) I'm currently a History major, with a 3.9 GPA and I don't really care about it. I just kind of wanted to graduate with a degree because like I said, I don't really know what I want to do after college. So I think I figured out that Music Education might be a better choice for me. I've been doing band my entire life. I e-mailed an advisor last week to set up an appointment for classes, auditions (which are next Saturday), and figuring out how long it'll take me to graduate...no reply. So I tried calling him on the phone yesterday evening...answering machine, and I left him a message. He didn't call me back this morning, so I figured I'd try one last time. Answering machine. So yeah. I've done everything that I can do...just for some reason, things didn't go quite as planned. And auditions are this Saturday, so if he doesn't call me back today...yeah...things look impossible. I don't think I would've been taking many classes towards music education in the Spring anyway...bc I need to take alot of classes that are only offered first semesters at my college. So it looks like another semester of History...meh. Even though I made a few mistakes, I'm glad I took the steps necessary to make my life better, and that's all I can really ask out of myself. Who knows...maybe History will be alot more interesting this time around.
But there are some positives to next semester. I'm going to have alot more free time, which means I'm going to have to be really serious about looking for a job. I'm still going to be in Symphonic Band at my college, which allows me to see my friends. I'll be watching alot more anime with my one friend because we'll have more free time too. I hope to run Brawl tournaments of my own this semester. The people in Toledo really seem to enjoy tournaments, especially the last one ran by my gaming club.
Speaking of Brawl tournaments, I had one last Friday...this is the 3rd one I have won, and my 4th top 3 finish. Yet it is the first one I have been paid for winning. I went all Wolf, except for Snake in the grand finals and went through the tournament completely undefeated. I got 60 bucks for it. We went to Waffle House with my gaming club afterward. It was a fun day.
Girls suck...I had to reject one of my stalkers...again. I rejected her once last Spring and flat-out ignored her when she crawled back to me right afterward. When I thought she got the hint, I started to talk to her again, but she started to like me again recently, thinking that time would change things and I had to tell her the unfortunate truth again. >.< 'Tis a shame, bc we started to become good friends.
In other news...since I probably won't be auditioning for the music program this Saturday, I'm going to be spending the day at a college football game with some girl. It's complicated...to say the least. But it should help me completely get over the depression I went through the last few days.
I'm going through a friendship transition. I now have 3 pretty close friends, including the girl I mentioned above, but I'm starting to grow away from friends I've had in the past. Idk, I seem to like having a few close friends rather than alot of regular friends. I'm going to try to hang out with the friends I've been growing apart from this semester.
Idk...even though things aren't going as planned in my life, I just have to keep doing my best and making the best of what it gives me. I've struggled with being a perfectionist, and I hope I mold my perfectionist attitude into doing my best with whatever life gives me. So there's my update.
So for the past couple of weeks I've gone through depression, just trying to figure alot of stuff out. And luckily, I'm at the point where I've done everything I can and can only be positive about what's going to happen in the future.
I've really struggled with figuring out what I want to do after college (besides being a part-time gamer going to Brawl/Melee tournaments...probably other games in the future) I'm currently a History major, with a 3.9 GPA and I don't really care about it. I just kind of wanted to graduate with a degree because like I said, I don't really know what I want to do after college. So I think I figured out that Music Education might be a better choice for me. I've been doing band my entire life. I e-mailed an advisor last week to set up an appointment for classes, auditions (which are next Saturday), and figuring out how long it'll take me to graduate...no reply. So I tried calling him on the phone yesterday evening...answering machine, and I left him a message. He didn't call me back this morning, so I figured I'd try one last time. Answering machine. So yeah. I've done everything that I can do...just for some reason, things didn't go quite as planned. And auditions are this Saturday, so if he doesn't call me back today...yeah...things look impossible. I don't think I would've been taking many classes towards music education in the Spring anyway...bc I need to take alot of classes that are only offered first semesters at my college. So it looks like another semester of History...meh. Even though I made a few mistakes, I'm glad I took the steps necessary to make my life better, and that's all I can really ask out of myself. Who knows...maybe History will be alot more interesting this time around.
But there are some positives to next semester. I'm going to have alot more free time, which means I'm going to have to be really serious about looking for a job. I'm still going to be in Symphonic Band at my college, which allows me to see my friends. I'll be watching alot more anime with my one friend because we'll have more free time too. I hope to run Brawl tournaments of my own this semester. The people in Toledo really seem to enjoy tournaments, especially the last one ran by my gaming club.
Speaking of Brawl tournaments, I had one last Friday...this is the 3rd one I have won, and my 4th top 3 finish. Yet it is the first one I have been paid for winning. I went all Wolf, except for Snake in the grand finals and went through the tournament completely undefeated. I got 60 bucks for it. We went to Waffle House with my gaming club afterward. It was a fun day.
Girls suck...I had to reject one of my stalkers...again. I rejected her once last Spring and flat-out ignored her when she crawled back to me right afterward. When I thought she got the hint, I started to talk to her again, but she started to like me again recently, thinking that time would change things and I had to tell her the unfortunate truth again. >.< 'Tis a shame, bc we started to become good friends.
In other news...since I probably won't be auditioning for the music program this Saturday, I'm going to be spending the day at a college football game with some girl. It's complicated...to say the least. But it should help me completely get over the depression I went through the last few days.
I'm going through a friendship transition. I now have 3 pretty close friends, including the girl I mentioned above, but I'm starting to grow away from friends I've had in the past. Idk, I seem to like having a few close friends rather than alot of regular friends. I'm going to try to hang out with the friends I've been growing apart from this semester.
Idk...even though things aren't going as planned in my life, I just have to keep doing my best and making the best of what it gives me. I've struggled with being a perfectionist, and I hope I mold my perfectionist attitude into doing my best with whatever life gives me. So there's my update.