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Hey bud <3

I suppose normally I'd make and excuse and say "I'm Sorry" but I think that's hardly any way to treat a friend so I'll just come out and tell you the truth

Truth is, I've been avoiding this place. I've been avoiding everything lately, including my parents.

I'm not sure how or when it happened, but somehow I let myself fall into a vicious cycle of depression and anxiety, and lately it's seemed like my life's come to a standstill

I finally got fed up with it yesterday. I've been fighting an internal battle for about 6 months, and I think yesterday was finally the breakthrough I needed.

So instead of avoiding this place and making excuses I'm just going to tell you truth:

I missed you guys, I'm sorry for neglecting my duties here. I'll be making a bigger post about it later so that everyone else knows. I'll have to let the mods know what's up as well.

Thanks for being patient with me for so long <3

Depression is a jerk, but I think I finally beat it!

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Ohhhh Xiro...

First of all, *super insane bear hugs and then more hugs*

A little while ago now, I had what you might call an existential crisis which resulted in what I would say was a depression. I struggled with the concept of eternity and forever and our place in it and the idea of it all was truly frightening to me (in a way it still is).

Depression in and of itself is something I can relate to and I think I know exactly why you were avoiding everything. And, that's okay, cause you need to be able to have the time to realise yourself without too much external pressure.

To say that you just got fed up with it is something that amazes me and calls towards the strength of character you have. Perhaps it's too early to tell but I reckon it means you're getting through everything and coming out the other side. Well, in the end that's something you have to decide.

But what i'm trying to say is, don't feel bad at all. You know, we're here to support ya in whatever you choose, so I guess stand up, lift your head and let yourself be happy for whatever reason you decide is fit and that's okay with me!

Errr, but if you get sad again that's okay too and all of us here or anyone else in your life is happy to support you through all of that too. But if you're happy, be happy! At least, I think that's what I learnt anyway.