Welp, the tier list is out. We got 37. At least everyone will shut up about Mewtwo being "the worst in the game" >__>
Aww I didn't read the last pages in time D: The feels, God D: I know the topic is already over but I feel like sharing my story now.
I have nothing to complain about, honestly. I was blessed with the best set of parents and sisters anyone could ask for. We're all very close and have no problems when it comes to our relationships.
I've always been a shy guy, and somewhat insecure. However, that has never stopped me from getting friends. I actually have a decent amount of them. It isn't hard for me to socialize either; I'm a nice guy and people usually like me when they meet me.
... However, lately, out of the blue, and I really don't know why, I've started to become a little angry at... the world? I don't know. For the last two months I haven't really wanted to do anything with anyone. It's like I want to lock myself away and shut everyone out (except for my family). I don't do anything on the weekends. My friends always invite me to hang out somewhere but I just don't feel like seeing them. Actually last weekend they all went camping and they invited me but I just didn't want to go.
I do feel very disappointed by two of my best friends. One of my flaws is that I'm very intolerant and tend to judge people easily, but I'm really trying to change that. The decisions my friends have made affect me in no way whatsoever but I just feel so let down by them. One of them was this nice "daddy's princess" and all of a sudden she became a party girl, drinker, smoker and whatnot, and has new friends that I don't like at all. The other one has a girlfriend but he always cheats on her. It's disappointing because his girlfriend is a really nice girl and I just imagine how she would feel if she knew what her boyfriend does. He always makes up excuses to try and justify his actions: "I was drunk", "It was nothing serious", "She means nothing to me", etc. But in the end, he's just betraying his girlfriend's trust, and that just saddens me and angers me. I'm a very fair person, and I don't think he's doing the right thing. So, while any of them is not harming me, their attitudes just bother me.
When it comes to my dreams, I have to admit that I'm a very selfish guy, because my ultimate dream is to become rich. I want to have so much money that I can do literally whatever I want. Buy everything I want, go anywhere I want. There's a background for this very materialistic way of thinking, so bear with me...
I grew up in Venezuela, a very poor country (well, it's actually very rich but our governors are stealing everything, but that's a topic for another day). Things don't work here at all, many people are poor and we are one of the third-world countries with the worst life quality. Thankfully and luckily I come from a family that, while not rich, has more economical freedom than the average Venezuelan. But I grew up wanting to live in a civilized country with economical opportunities. Do you guys know that the minimum wage in Venezuela is a pathetic 10 DOLLARS? When the equivalent to buy the basic food basket is worth $ 66? Not only that, but the crime rate is insanely high (out capital, Caracas, is the second most dangerous city in the world, for God's sake! Other cities in the country are also included in the top 10).
Yeah. That's what I'm talking about. I just want to live a good life and move the hell out of Venezuela, which I'm doing soon, hopefully. I'm a month and a half away from graduating from college and will try to move to a different country. Staying there legally, wherever it is, is a challenge, though. But I'm willing to try it. I mean, I think it's bull**** that money doesn't buy happiness. OF COURSE it buys happiness. Not all of it, but come on, if you are a person who gets happy when you buy stuff or when you travel, how can you tell me money doesn't give you happiness?
I'd also love to be a dad someday. I'd like having four or five kids (I grew up in a huge family and I loved it, and I want it to stay that way). But, I'm not going to have kids if I can't provide for them and give them the lifestyle I have (which is pretty good) or an even better one.
So my head is a mess right now, because I don't want to see people, I don't want to meet new people, I want to live in a different country but moving abroad is really hard and stressful, I'm also a month away from presenting my thesis to finally graduate from college, and so on. I have many things in my head right now. I've been told I'm going through the 20s crisis, because I feel this anxiety of just thinking "What now?". I've been a student my entire life and lived with my parents but that's about to change, and it's pretty scary. It's time for me to start building my life, my space, my own identity, and it just feels too soon. I'm only 23, for God's sake! I just hope I can sort things out soon and have my mind at peace.
And for anyone going through a difficult time, always feel free to talk to me if you need help. I love listening to other people's stories
P.S: sorry for double posting!
