kingdark519
Smash Apprentice
- Joined
- Aug 29, 2018
- Messages
- 81
I hardly touch Smash anymore, and that’s because of the fear that comes with the thought of playing. All the time I think to myself: Hey! Smash sounds fun. but then I think of what “Playing it” entails, I could play single player, (But why even bother?) I could go Online, or I could ask one of my siblings to play. The problem with playing online is it’s so discouraging, no matter how much I play, it feels like everyone gets better, and I’m just stuck in a ditch of casualty.
And the problem with playing with my siblings, is, it always leaves me with this sour taste in my mouth, this empty feeling, this awkward tension between us, that makes me not even want to be in the room, and this isn’t something they cause, it’s just, like... I don’t know, I can’t enjoy myself, I feel tense, like if I say something, I could bother them, and when I lose, I fear they’ll think less of me, so I’ll often times come up with excuses, and it all becomes about justifying my failure.
I know this was a lot, but it’s just nice to have somewhere to talk about it, where people listen.
If you have any tips for me, please let me know! I want Smash to go back to something that I can enjoy consistently, and not be afraid of. ( Wow this sounds corny)
Thanks for reading!
And the problem with playing with my siblings, is, it always leaves me with this sour taste in my mouth, this empty feeling, this awkward tension between us, that makes me not even want to be in the room, and this isn’t something they cause, it’s just, like... I don’t know, I can’t enjoy myself, I feel tense, like if I say something, I could bother them, and when I lose, I fear they’ll think less of me, so I’ll often times come up with excuses, and it all becomes about justifying my failure.
I know this was a lot, but it’s just nice to have somewhere to talk about it, where people listen.
If you have any tips for me, please let me know! I want Smash to go back to something that I can enjoy consistently, and not be afraid of. ( Wow this sounds corny)
Thanks for reading!