DerpDaBerp
Smash Champion
With love comes lacerations, I have learned. I do not leave. I take it. And I do not know why this happens. Every day I get a new mark. Sometimes they are burned. Sometimes I am opened up and inside of me comes out. Every day. They come home every day and I wish I could wag my tail, but it is broken between his hands.
One day I was asleep. Then I woke up and he was stepping toward me. It is another day. I do not know what he wants to do. Am I about to be forgiven? Have I paid the price? No. I am here and I am punished. I am kicked in the chest and now I cannot breathe.
Is it wrong to want help? Where is the help? I cannot go look for it because he will hurt me. If I do not look for it he will hurt me. I cannot go look for it because all my toes are broken.
I cannot see anymore. It was all very fast. I can still feel the metal in my face. I can still feel it in my eye. More so than the eye. I can’t see out of it now. Does that mean it is gone?
I cannot conceive of joy. I cannot lick out of love and I cannot eat for a while because he cut my tongue open. I am throwing up so often now. He makes it loud because I threw up. So he makes me throw up more, but nothing left inside me to go out. I don’t understand. I wish I had stuff inside me to throw out.
My body is heavy when it is held from my neck. I am thrown into a box. I cannot move and I cannot see and I cannot think about what will happen because I am in pain now. I am in pain right now. I live and I hurt. And that is all.
He threw me out from the box. I feel like the black above me. I feel like the jagged ground beneath me. I feel nothing because he is not hurting me now. He and the box went away. I am nothing but in pain. He is gone. I am nothing.
I forgot I was alive. I remember now. She carries me and my eye can see lights flashing. I am touched and I am not in more pain. I do not understand.
I forgot I was alive again. I remember and now there are a lot of them. None of them hurt me. I wish I could wag my tail. It is brighter here than before. It is not painful here. My scars are not new scars. I have less fear.
They pick me up and put me down. They touch me but I do not hurt. They are around me and they are not loud. They poke me and it hurts. Then it feels good. I cannot feel my tongue. I feel less pain.
I breathe. Nothing inside me is coming out. I am not given new pain. They come to poke me again. I try to wag my tail. Pokes make me feel less pain. They stroke my body where the scars are not. They feel warm. Then they feel like nothing. I feel nothing. I see nothing.
I forget I am alive.
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One day I was asleep. Then I woke up and he was stepping toward me. It is another day. I do not know what he wants to do. Am I about to be forgiven? Have I paid the price? No. I am here and I am punished. I am kicked in the chest and now I cannot breathe.
Is it wrong to want help? Where is the help? I cannot go look for it because he will hurt me. If I do not look for it he will hurt me. I cannot go look for it because all my toes are broken.
I cannot see anymore. It was all very fast. I can still feel the metal in my face. I can still feel it in my eye. More so than the eye. I can’t see out of it now. Does that mean it is gone?
I cannot conceive of joy. I cannot lick out of love and I cannot eat for a while because he cut my tongue open. I am throwing up so often now. He makes it loud because I threw up. So he makes me throw up more, but nothing left inside me to go out. I don’t understand. I wish I had stuff inside me to throw out.
My body is heavy when it is held from my neck. I am thrown into a box. I cannot move and I cannot see and I cannot think about what will happen because I am in pain now. I am in pain right now. I live and I hurt. And that is all.
He threw me out from the box. I feel like the black above me. I feel like the jagged ground beneath me. I feel nothing because he is not hurting me now. He and the box went away. I am nothing but in pain. He is gone. I am nothing.
I forgot I was alive. I remember now. She carries me and my eye can see lights flashing. I am touched and I am not in more pain. I do not understand.
I forgot I was alive again. I remember and now there are a lot of them. None of them hurt me. I wish I could wag my tail. It is brighter here than before. It is not painful here. My scars are not new scars. I have less fear.
They pick me up and put me down. They touch me but I do not hurt. They are around me and they are not loud. They poke me and it hurts. Then it feels good. I cannot feel my tongue. I feel less pain.
I breathe. Nothing inside me is coming out. I am not given new pain. They come to poke me again. I try to wag my tail. Pokes make me feel less pain. They stroke my body where the scars are not. They feel warm. Then they feel like nothing. I feel nothing. I see nothing.
I forget I am alive.
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